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collar._bone N i g h t m a r e
No one could ever love her,
a sad thing like that
lost inside the shadow of herself
her darkness, an empty wail
she couldn't let out
each breath, a living nightmare
And only at night, was she beautiful
And each time she told her story,
she lost just a little bit more
another smallest drop of pain,
a sense of self
her worth, a living nightmare
And only at night, was she beautiful
And he whispered, 'you're beautiful'
a night time ritual that made her skin crawled
trampled body, trampled soul
trapped inside his vile breaths,
lost inside her own despair
And only at night, was she beautiful
And each time she told her story,
she lost just a little bit more
the hurt, the pain
the living nightmare, the emptiness
the pieces of herself.. long gone
And only at night, was she beautiful
And no one could ever love her,
a dark thing like that
her goddamned beauty,
her broken soul
And only at night, was she beautiful
She was eight years old

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when you think it was the end of the world and you want to hide .. forever.. know that you're built stronger than you ever gave yourself credit for .. and if I ever lived through hell and survived .. So will you ...
1w

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collar._bone M a n m a d e

Broken.
Cracked.
Shattered.
Splintered.
Disintegrated.
Split.
Into.
Manmade holes.
Deep dark gaping holes.
Of the world.
Like big black pits.
Who are filled with people.
Who are filled with shit.
We are all destroyed.
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We destroy each other .. our own species .. and only at the precibus will we change ..
1w

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collar._bone I n a d e q u a t e

I should warn you that this excerpt of all I am feeling will not be eloquent. But it will be sincere. Because you will never read it. I have felt these words like a weight in my chest, until I find myself amazed that a heart .. this heart. My heart can go on beating under such a burden
I love you. I don't know how .. or why. So desperately, violently, tenderly, so completely. I love you in ways that I know you would find shocking. You don't belong with a woman like me. Even after all that I've felt .. for you. I find my own desperation simply inadequate. Just as I felt .. worthless and inadequate .. in every way when my mother came to visit after all the years she has left me. Worthless and inadequate .. when she handed me a doll. My very first dollI .. and her inadequate love .. I was fifteen. I found no use for that doll. It was just as worthless and indequate .. to express how one should love and should be loved. And I swore not to love like her. My mother's love was a lifetime too late and a doll short. I swore not to be like her. As it turns out, I am just as worthless .. as inadequate in love. Worse, in fact

And  still I want to love you .. as inadequate as I. And I want to kiss every soft place of you, your heart .. your soul. To love you .. to dote on you until you weep .. deeply loved and I'd dry every tear with my lips. If you only knew how I crave .. how I need too much of you. A lifetime of nights spent .. loving you wouldn't be enough. And I would remember every word you've ever said to me .. every move .. every scent .. every cell of you intertwined braiding yourself into me .. my every living .. breathing being of me. And even that is inadequate .. in all the ways I want to love you.
And you would say .. you would ask how I could be so certain .. the impossibility .. the distance .. the lakes, the mountains .. the oceans between us. But as inadequate as I and all the love I've felt, still I want to love you .. so desperately, violently, tenderly, so completely

Still I want to love you .. as inadequate as I.
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1w

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collar._bone d e s t r o y e d

I knew he'd laugh at me
...
but I wanted him to love me
fiercely; I wanted him to love me
until death and .. to know
that his love was as strong as death,
and to be on my side .. forever
...
I wanted him to destroy,
and be destroyed by me

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1w

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collar._bone T o s a t i a t e
To satiate
is a dirty thing
She’s mine,
a possession
equally dirty
and
never satiates

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artful .. how a woman can make you feel as if you are more ..
1w

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collar._bone a m a z e d
I had to touch you
with my hands
I had to taste you
with my tongue
...
one can't love
and do nothing
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not sure who wrote this .. amazedly fitting
2w

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