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User Image nguyenanphoto Posted: Dec 15, 2017 4:46 AM (UTC)

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On Change and Forgiveness (1/3): Information is to knowledge as control is to power. That was my mantra. I’m naturally inquisitive, and research comes easily to me. In amassing as much knowledge about a topic as I could, I ensured, no matter what my circumstances were, I’d be able to adapt. In my quest for total control, I forgot a crucial piece- some questions are unanswerable.
You hadn’t seen me in six months; you were shocked at how much I’d changed; I was flattered and surprised. I dismissed my surprise, explained it away as a combination of too much champagne and nerves. I didn’t want there to be a deeper explanation. The changes I’ve made over the last six months have been drastic, you were right about that, but it's been slow, painstaking, work. If I'm a house then my prefab structures have been replaced incrementally- that’s how I know my efforts will last. Those around me can see I’ve grown, but they’re not shocked because they've witnessed the entire process.
I was flattered, elated and proud upon hearing your praise. So, when you asked me questions I gave you six-months worth of frenzied answers. I’d forgotten that feeling, simmering underneath the surface of every interaction I had with you. Pro-tip: If you are engaging in conversation with someone and you feel compelled to rush through it because you know it can’t or won't happen tomorrow, or the next day, or next week, stop. Slam on your brakes. Hard. That type of communication comes with being used. It’s painful to know that someone can have such a fundamental lack of respect towards you, that you feel obligated to dive into divulging your most intimate moments and private thoughts because you know they won't be there for you tomorrow. But, it’s necessary to pause for a moment, and know they’re not with you in the present moment either. And you can keep talking- I did. But, at least acknowledge and allow yourself to feel the physical sensations and emotions which accompany being used.
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"Always be like water, float in the times of pain and dance like waves with the wind it touches." <1/3>
User Image adhdeep Posted: Dec 15, 2017 4:37 AM (UTC)

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User Image islander_876 Posted: Dec 15, 2017 4:35 AM (UTC)

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The Best Way To Spread Christmas Cheer Singing
Loud For All To Hear.
User Image alt_flm Posted: Dec 15, 2017 4:36 AM (UTC)
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alt_flm 11m ago
“Look Up” | T981 | Tri-X
User Image rawkavai Posted: Dec 15, 2017 4:34 AM (UTC)

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User Image analog_diaries Posted: Dec 15, 2017 4:29 AM (UTC)

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Watching the extended director's cut! A fun festive movie to put ya in the mood! "Put that cookie down!"

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