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tob_cfc 14h ago
คิดถึงแฟนเก่าบางคน ที่เมื่อก่อนตอนเลิกกัน ยังไม่ได้บอกเลยว่าเรายัง #ยังรัก เขาอยู่จนถึงปัจจุบัน ก้ยังคิดถึงเขายุ่ แม้ตอนนี้ความรักมันจะเลือนลางไปบ้างแล้ว #exlover #alwaysmisses #
Dây tơ hồng đứt đoạn tình duyên ,
muôn đời nay bến vẫn đợi thuyền 💖💖💖
#daylahagtag #exlover #Cogiao
I was afraid, I was afraid of losing you, I was afraid of you leave me alone , I was afraid to wake up one day and you were not there ... I'm so stunned now that I only have a few pictures and that's the only proof that we went ...
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#bae #tb #bru #misshim #dontneedu #butiloveu #hurt #personal #babe #f4f #depressedasfuck #af #exlover #exboyfriend
I'm new at this. Sharing here not to seek community or friendship per se, but rather to simply to speak outloud without shame, without the lens of societal constructs shaping the image of "Who I am" and "Who I should be." .
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Today hit me like a swinging branch to the cheek. Abrupt, sharp. "Am I bleeding?" I got to a clear-brain, healthy appetite place and the Sirens are singing their sweet song. It is familiar. This place is an illusion but I sway habitually to their tune. I stop myself with wide eyes. Deep breath. Step outside.

So for kicks, I bought a bottle of red wine.

Or maybe it's because I am a masochist in this way of testing myself.
Or maybe I really think I can "just have one."
Or maybe it's a whole lot of "or maybe's." Either way, I did it. And I put it on the counter when I got home, first thing out of bag. All actions which would eventually lead to me drinking the entire bottle or bottles of what's in front of me.

While I was cooking, it stared at me like an ex lover who disappears but knows you'll take them back: they know what you like and they'll give it to you. And you'll give it right back to them, in an impulsive, sweaty, sexy mess of clothes and body parts. And while you're standing there, weighing the pros and cons of this possible scenario, your food burns on the stove and now nobody is getting any dinner and you're both left hungry, in more ways than one. (In all honesty, I'd take the ex lover back without skipping a beat, burned food be damned! So, this might be a bad analogy, but... I digress...) I stared back. Looked away, and back again still.

I let it try to lure me in with it's taunting, "just smell me!" And, "one swish, then spit it out. It's a good story!" Over and over again we did our old dance. Broken record. You know the script.

The better story though, is that I finished cooking. I ate it all. I washes the dishes, put them away, slipped on pajamas, watched something funny, and caught myself laughing. (I also bought and devoured a mini chocolate cheesecake 😬). What I didn't do was open the bottle of wine. I didn't smell it, nor swish and spit. And I also, didn't feel like a failure. Or ashamed. Or guilty.
Meskipun kita beda agama tp setidaknya kita pernah punya rasa yang sama💔
#exlover
What if I can't forget you? 
I'll burn your name into my throat 
I'll be the fire that'll catch you 
What's so good about picking up the pieces?…
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#throwback #bisforbae #B #exlover #pic #misshim #TB #caraphernelia #soulmate #babe #bae #f4f #excouple #hurt
Be happy. Go and live your life without regrets, without the ‘what if’s’ and the ‘could haves’. And without the pain you have kept on your heart for so long. Just go live. Don’t get revenge. Just live the life you want to live. And the rest will come to you. The rest will be sure to follow.
I want fate to decide for us. I want His will to be done. #exlover #wearefriends

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