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  Posted: Jul 6, 2012 5:15 AM FEED
2 Amaro
A roof, a BBQ and a hammock. #brooklyn #summer

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Posted: Sep 13, 2014 10:01 AM
1,091 X-Pro II
With too much to share in the last couple of months, it's suffice to say it has been a very difficult time... But by the grace of God I feel like a new woman and have not felt so good in so long. Today I am in total awe of my life, of the beings that overflow it with love and peace and sincerity. Today I face the biggest challenges of my life but I am grateful because my life has been touched by God and I am in awe. Thank you God, thank you. Here I am in hospital following a procedure... And then my sister from NYC walks in. She is one of my life's biggest blessings. God bless Orly and God bless my life Lord. Thank you. #blessedbeyond #awe #MyLifeTheWonderful #teamslugslayer #neverforgettosaythankyou
Posted: Jul 20, 2014 12:42 AM
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19th July 2014 | Please, please stop the war on Gaza

11 days.

Over 300 Gazans killed, roughly 80% of them civilians,
70 of them children.
Over 2000 Gazans injured,
tens of thousands displaced.
Gaza has no army and uses rocket fire into southern Israel in resistance to its longstanding siege and occupation by Israel.
Gaza's borders with Israel and Egypt are closed to them, leaving them nowhere to go.

5 Israelis killed; 3 soldiers and 2 civilians.
Israel has a huge, well trained army that uses air strikes, artillery and now a ground offensive.
The last time Israel used a ground offensive was in the 2008/09 war which left over 1,500 Palestinians dead.

There is so much back and forth between angry 'Pro-Palestinians' and defensive Israelis but what does it now matter who started what and why, when the targets of such atrocities are innocent civilians, most of which are children? Based on facts alone, is this a just war?

If peace can be achieved, how we perceive our brothers and sisters must change.
How America fears Israel's power and pampers to its needs must change.
What Jews and Israelis are taught and misled into believing about their history must change.
How Hammas continues to fight a war they simply do not have the resources to win and kill their people in the process must change.
And moderate Israelis and Jews who condone the acts of their government, must speak out and make their voices heard.

This should not be about us and them, Palestinians Vs Israelis, they come from the same descendants. This is about humanity and how we treat each other. Shouldn't all lives be valued equally?

I took the top photo above whilst protesting for the end of the war in 2008/2009. The bottom photo was taken by a friend at a protest today. Not much has changed, not even the banners.

Posted: Jul 3, 2014 8:07 AM
204 Lo-fi
"With hardship comes ease" July 3rd 2014. 33.

Undecided on one name, my dad had a list of 17 names for me before I was born. As my mother went into labour, he rushed her to hospital but before the doctor had time to rub sleep from his eyes, I had arrived with ease. "This is Yosra" he said. Yosra was not on the list.

Until recently, I always understood my name to mean "ease AFTER hardship" but in fact, "Yosra", as is described in the Quran, is the ease that comes WITH hardship.

This is significant because it totally changes the meaning. It means that life brings with it hardship but amidst that hardship is ease, if you choose to see it. (Continued below...)
Posted: Jul 2, 2014 5:40 PM
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"Suck it up and roll with it (get it?!)" There's this misconception that cancer is the cause of many of the problems and discomforts that cancer patients endure. Of course cancer is the source but unless it is so advanced that it becomes the problem in and of itself, it's actually (at least in my experience so far) the side effects of cancer treatment (chemo) that are the real culprits, as they affect your immunity, leaving your body unable to defend itself in the way it normally would.
I am currently having to be pushed about in a wheelchair due to some side effects I am experiencing that make it difficult to walk and I have to say, I've not taken to it too well, though it highlights yet another valuable lesson to be learnt.

I was an active, independent woman who always scheduled way too much running around in my day to day and until recently I have been lucky enough to escape many outward signs that I am in fact sick. I've continued to be a medical marvel, defying the odds and straying outside of the confines of 'statistics' but now, I look sick and I don't like it, continuously insisting on walking distances I later regret, just to avoid sitting in the chair.
But as with this whole experience, I'm trying to learn the lesson that's presenting itself to me and as I do, I realise that this is just about my ego. I feel self-conscious and I feel defeated. But it is what it is. This is not who I am, this is just where I am right now and where I am meant to be and I just have to accept it. Roll with it. Pun intended. This too shall pass. Roll on.

#GetOverYourEgo and
Posted: Jun 27, 2014 3:46 PM
48 X-Pro II
NEVER in my wildest hallucinations would I have thought I'd say that I am happy to be back in hospital.
From excruciating to ecstatic, I cannot tell you how much better I feel now that I am on a pain pump. With very painful infections that have persisted for 3 weeks now, the pain came to a head yesterday and I could not bear it any longer. Thank the good God above for drugs and (I don't care what anyone wants to say about the NHS) an INCREDIBLE health care service too.

#teamslugslayer #neverforgettosaythankyou
"On the run"

And so it begins... If the Mrs Carter Tour wasn't epic enough, my friends are about to push it further. Wishing my tour family a beautiful opening night and a happy and healthy tour ahead. My wish that I could be there with you all is surpassed only by the gratitude I feel for having already been part of your journey and you mine. Love and miss you. Til the next reunion.

#onwards #OnTheRun #openingnight #teamBey #teamJay #TeamSlugSlayer #NeverForgetToSayThankYou
There is so much that I don't post. So much that I think is just for me and/or just for 'them'. So much that the world doesn't have to share in. And then there's so much I don't get the chance to post (and then feel really bad about for not posting. Birthdays and memorials are one of them because I particularly don't like to create a hierarchy or make people feel any less adored than they are and really, where do you stop when you love so many??). But then there are some posts that may fall into this/all of these categories but I would feel remiss not to share. And the birthday of my 'wife' @natashallikesthis is one of them.
You don't meet people like Tash everyday, every month, nor really let's face it, every lifetime but for some reason God gifted her to me, took a fat chunk of her heart and took a fat chunk of my heart and fused them together to make this beautiful, somewhat eccentric mould, that just doesn't work as well without the other. Some might say we're soul mates. I can't disagree. I just know that we would do anything for one another, at any time of the day or night and she makes my life a whole lot better for being in it. I wouldn't be where I am, have what I have, without her. I just wouldn't.
Tashi I know you know what you mean to me (right, right??). I LOVE every last crazy ass piece of your being. You are a phenomenal beam of light and intelligence, strength and tenderness, craziness and hilarity, kindness and humility and honestly, this world is a better place because you exist. The presence of God is so strong in you.
Posted: Jun 13, 2014 7:12 PM
36 Normal
It's been a rough week, I ain't gonna front. With chronic discomfort from two recurring infections. This is how I felt at chemo today. But I'm grateful because I know what worse feels like, because I've been spared so much more that others sadly haven't and because I have a superbro who is always by my side, raising me up when I don't have the energy to do it for myself.

#superbro #hero #ItCanAlwaysBeWorse #neverforgettosaythankyou #teamslugslayer #loveheals
Posted: Jun 5, 2014 6:18 PM
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Before this last year, I had always had a huge, unique mane of tight, corkscrew hair. Though I often craved a radical change, it felt like such a big part of my identity that I could never quite grant myself such a departure from the familiar. But being an impulsive and adventurous person in general, looking back I think it odd that I wasn't more adventurous with my hair. I suppose it was just so 'big' and seemingly took so long to grow, that taking that risk and it failing would entail years of recovery. So I didn't. Fear won and my hair remained so 'interesting' it became boring.

Now, enter the probability that you may lose it all... Suddenly that fear becomes a reality and you realise that it's the fear of something that gives it power, not the thing itself. Suddenly, you are free and whether it paid off or not is irrelevant because your life just got better for trying.

and most importantly

Posted: Jun 3, 2014 7:02 PM
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My sister-friend and my niece know how to melt my heart. #love #family #neverforgettosaythankyou
Posted: May 31, 2014 8:41 AM
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Don't assume you know why I'm asking or what you think my truth may be, just speak your own if you will. #FoodForThought
Posted: May 30, 2014 4:47 PM
13 Amaro
Making ourselves at home at chemo. He's watching my TV, I'm chillin in a fully reclinable chair. We can always crank up the crazy, me and my superbro.
#partnerincrime #DocFriendBroFellowCrazyPerson #LetsHaveSomeFun #teamslugslayer #neverforgettosaythankyou
Posted: May 30, 2014 1:20 PM
39 Amaro
Feeling a bit exhausted but chemo 3 and the end of cycle 1 on new chemo paclitaxel, is underway. This slug's been receiving a lot of love. I feel it healing. Thank you #teamslugslayer.

#givesomethingtogetsomething #goodfrombad #loveheals #incrediblejourney #learningsomuch #lessons #neverforgettosaythankyou
Posted: May 23, 2014 3:20 PM
33 Amaro
Chemo 2 of cycle 1 is going down smoothly. No bad reaction this time, just a freezer for a head. I must say, I'm proud of myself for tolerating something I never conceived I could, being someone who naturally really feels the cold. I'm also someone who appreciates humility, in myself and others, so forget to commend myself when I do something I'm proud of or even be very good at taking a compliment but hell I'm proud of me right now. I've sat with a freezer for a head for over 6 hours now. Just another reminder of our resilience, the power of the mind and our inherent will for survival.

#GoHeadBeProud #CommendYourselfForTheLittleThingsThatMakeTheWhole #ItsHealthy #WereStrong #Resilient #PowerOfTheMind #WeAreSurvivors #teamslugslayer #ThisJourneyIsGrowth and for that I #neverforgettosaythankyou
Posted: May 23, 2014 5:18 AM
20 Mayfair
Why am I bloody up at 6am when I have to leave for chemo in 2 hours??!!! STEROIDS!! THAT'S WHY!!! Following my hypersensitivity to chemo last week and all the steroids they gave me, I had an awesome weekend of higher energy levels than I've had in ages. I even hired a big ass van and endured Ikea on Monday (IKEA!!) before severe aches and pains left me house hostage til today. And now it's chemo again and I have to take 3 days of steroids to prevent a similar reaction.
Well, the bright side is that not even the cold cap induced brain freeze will keep me awake. I intend to be totally comatose.
#ChemoTakeTwo #NewLessons #BetterThanTheLastOneThough #SmallPriceToPayToSaveMyLife #SleepSchmeep #zzzzz #neverforgettosaythankyou
Posted: May 18, 2014 1:28 AM
25 Mayfair
Today I am thankful. Thankful for a great day 2 of chemo. For the ability to travel to celebrate the birthdays of two dear friends. For the ease of movement that took me there and the energy that kept me there, neither of which I have had much of in the last year. Today I am thankful for friends whom I cherish and whose birthday was made just because I showed up unexpectedly.

This is Daphna, my beautiful sister of 27 years. The most loyal friend anyone could be so blessed to have. I pity the fool that messes with me because this one right here will mash em up! She cries every time she sees me these days...must be the aging. Love her with every inch of my swollen heart.

#waterworks #aging #HereWeGoAgain #FamilyYouChoose #ShesTheBestest #Love #blessed #NeverForgetToSayThankYou
Posted: May 16, 2014 5:23 PM
57 Valencia
Started a new chemo today, since the last has done all it can for me. This one is weekly but thankfully (and hopefully) has less intense side effects than the previous one. Unlike the last one though, which induced cold sensitivity so I couldn't wear a cooling cap, I can with this one and that helps retain your hair. First you have to wet your roots (which I thought was cold enough) then the actual cap falls to a temp of 4C/39F and literally feels like a brain freeze/icicle head but you grin and bear it and it gets easier with time. But just to add a lil spice to my flaming life, I got an instant reaction to the chemo, my airways constricted and I felt like I couldn't breathe, my chest got tight, my front and back suddenly ached and I felt drowsy, panicky and flushed. Suddenly 5 medical staff appeared out of nowhere, injected me with steroids and antihistamines and gave me an oxygen mask. Ya know, just keeping me'self on me toes innit.

#ThatWasBloodyScary #IActuallyThoughtIMayDie #IcicleHead #Ouch #IfICanDoItYouCanDoItToo #PriceToPayToSaveMyLife #Blessed #NeverForgetToSayThankYou