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User Image etst Posted: Jan 20, 2018 1:24 AM (UTC)

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We had a progress meeting for Nella at school today. I am used to them now and do a pretty decent job of balancing the mom/teacher/advocate parts of me to focus on the most effective methods of learning that will benefit Nella both in current measurable gains as well as long term goals. I carry and think about these long term goals more than anyone in the room--that's my job; I'm her mom. But carrying these hopes and dreams sometimes means I'm unnecessarily protective or defensive, or maybe even unrealistic in my expectations. Finding the hopeful, effective, realistic middle is hard. Hard, hard, hard. Trial and error. Trust, speaking up, accepting, fighting, getting creative, humbly listening. Even though it's a constant given, the cold hard moments of acknowledging the learning gap between Nella and her peers often comes in a conference room at a board room table, surrounded by seven different school employees, without my dad or my sister or my best friend by my side to say the things they always say that make me feel like Oprah. None of this is supposed to be easy, and raising kids period is just so complex. I signed up for this job, and I'm ALL IN. But man, this little's so special, and I feel so privileged to be trusted with it. I am grateful for a dedicated team who loves my child and listens and is willing to try new things. Some of the ideas they shared today made me tear up--working so hard to find what works because they care so much. I thought of Apollo 13 today--which my knowledge of is, of course, based purely on the Hollywood movie and nothing factually substantial, so bear with me. The astronauts were given the impossible task of getting that spacecraft back home with all the odds against them. They had to fit a square peg in a round hole given a few odd tools to work with, and they did it. They did it because their lives depended on it.
I am a NASA astronaut. I will trust my team, I will use my tools, I will get creative and, so help me God, I will get this fucking ship home. ❤️️ .

Special thanks to any of Nella's educators, my beloved village, who may be reading this and @aliciagraf90, my lighthouse.
User Image etst Posted: Jan 19, 2018 2:50 PM (UTC)

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Our 24 hour trip to Miami was a little bit like doing the touristy NYC Times Square thing which isn't exactly how I like to explore a city but nevertheless...we still had a blast. Basically, we ride a unicorn through South Beach–and forget the saddle: we go bare back. Full speed, until the unicorn passes out. Let’s put it this way. If Miami were a massage therapist asking how much pressure I wanted on my shoulders, I’d say, “Make it hurt.” Miami Part 1 on the blog 😀.
User Image etst Posted: Jan 18, 2018 6:24 PM (UTC)
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Museum of Ice Cream was everything it's cracked up to be...😍Holy Sensory Explosion. That was a blast. #ohdash
User Image etst Posted: Jan 18, 2018 3:26 PM (UTC)

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My color appetite is geeking out at the buffet here. 🎨❤️️
User Image etst Posted: Jan 18, 2018 12:22 AM (UTC)
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Took 4 kids to South Beach and playing hooky tomorrow because someday I'm going to look back and wish I would have done these things more often. ❤️️
User Image etst Posted: Jan 16, 2018 5:36 PM (UTC)

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How my kid called me out for not being grateful and a reevaluation of my relationship with Gratitude and the life long practice of modeling it, on the blog.
User Image etst Posted: Jan 15, 2018 10:03 PM (UTC)

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Brewing an afternoon pot of coffee and listening to Alexa play a Martin Luther King Jr. speech while the kids ask me to help them with something every 4 seconds. Monday vibes 😄. "Number one in your life’s blueprint should be a deep belief in your own dignity, your own worth and your own somebodiness. Don’t allow anybody to make you feel that you are nobody. Always feel that you count. Always feel that you have worth, and always feel that your life has ultimate significance..." I'm so happy this man wrote, and that part of the legacy he left is the everlasting gift of his brilliant, beautiful words.❤️
User Image etst Posted: Jan 14, 2018 9:23 PM (UTC)

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Caught her in a moment that embodies every precious little cell of her at 10 years old: the curly fry plushie, the braids, the graphic tee, the glue, the slime, the baby face, the beauty, the light, the light, the light. My own memory is faint but clear enough to want to hug her so tight and whisper "I feel you"...of being caught between the comfort and innocence of childhood and the scary wild pull of change...of the world that promises adventure. One bridge I can assure her that safely connects those two worlds: Make Things. Make slime, make poetry, make songs, make pictures, make skits, make crafts, make journal entries, make believe, make dreams, make your place...never stop making.
User Image etst Posted: Jan 14, 2018 5:34 PM (UTC)

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Sunday morning scene: my babies playing with babies. ❤️️
User Image etst Posted: Jan 14, 2018 1:49 AM (UTC)

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Bathroom spa makeover. He'll do anything she asks. ❤️ #nellaanddash
User Image etst Posted: Jan 12, 2018 1:38 PM (UTC)

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If @oprah had kids, she'd totally be making Friday lunches like...
User Image etst Posted: Jan 11, 2018 7:19 PM (UTC)

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Bob the Triceratops refusing to cooperate for family photos once again. Get it together, Bob.
User Image etst Posted: Jan 10, 2018 2:45 PM (UTC)

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Walked Nella to her classroom this morning, and kids I didn't even know or recognize were high fiving her and saying "Hi, Nella!" Last night we took her friend Janella with us to a special needs dance night at a restaurant, and Janella not only didn't bat an eyelash at any of the differences she saw, but she coaxed my girl to the dance floor where they twirled and danced holding hands until I had to drag them out ("Please! Just one more song!"). Throwing overwhelming gratitude to the universe today that this mother's wish--please let her have friends and be seen and valued--feels so beautiful and true right now...and using part of that gratitude to take tighter hold of my responsibility to be a friend, to see and value those who might feel unseen. ❤️️
User Image etst Posted: Jan 9, 2018 4:38 PM (UTC)

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I started the year with an "I'm not really a resolution girl" kind of attitude but somehow embraced several this past week that have inspired a lot of buried productivity and reignited so much creative energy. One I never thought I'd embrace...a capsule wardrobe. Wrote all about it on the blog today including before & after pics (my sister's too 😊) and a guide to what I chose (it's fun and colorful!).
User Image etst Posted: Jan 9, 2018 12:08 PM (UTC)

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For all three of my kids, I have vivid memories of Brett and I full-blown RUNNING to start smashing bananas and mixing cereal with their first wake-up yawn because our babies got the ravenous-bear-in-the-morning gene. It was like a ticking bomb, and we had about six seconds before they blew. This one hasn't changed a bit. Every morning, a groggy little shuffle in the dark to the fridge..."Bagel please?" Today I told her, "Give me a minute, I'm just pouring my coffee," and she answered, "But I said please." 😂
User Image etst Posted: Jan 7, 2018 2:31 PM (UTC)

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"Mommmmmmm! Come look!" Happy Sunday,
User Image etst Posted: Jan 6, 2018 10:02 PM (UTC)

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Cleaning, rearranging and freshening today, and it feels so good. My sister has inspired me to attempt a capsule wardrobe--going to try it with her for a little while, hoping I last for a month. Finishing all laundry, making final choices and putting the ENTIRE REST OF MY CLOSET in bins tomorrow to be stored away. Has anyone done it? Love it/hate it? Suggestions? 😳😳 I feel like what I choose to wear is super dependent on changing moods, so I'm a little scared...but excited about easy laundry and closet management. @carcryder
User Image etst Posted: Jan 5, 2018 10:31 PM (UTC)

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Just rearranged her room blaring The Greatest Showman soundtrack which I've been listening to all day...and then I just really listened to the lyrics of Tightrope and they undid me: "Some people long for a life that is simple and planned
Tied with a ribbon
Some people won't sail the sea 'cause they're safer on land
To follow what's written
But I'd follow you to the great unknown...
It's all an adventure that comes with a breathtaking view..."
Dear Lord.
User Image etst Posted: Jan 4, 2018 3:57 PM (UTC)

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Did the A.M. hustle this morning, packing lunches, dropping kids off at school and then came home to stand in my driveway, waving goodbye as my mom's car drove away. The awareness of this middle place, so intense today. ❤️️
User Image etst Posted: Jan 3, 2018 10:30 PM (UTC)

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Spending our last night of vacation tonight all cozied up on one of the coldest nights our town will get this year (fire in the fireplace, hot cocoa, and my mama's here making a homemade chicken pot pie 🙌🏻). Never thought I'd say this, but my holiday sentimental heart is wrung out and needs some routine and normalcy 😜. I put my categorized New Year's inspirations on the blog today, if you're looking for something in between specific gung-ho resolutions and nothing at all. 😊