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the lake is calling my name.

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User Image paulritter Posted: Sep 5, 2017 2:29 PM (UTC)
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Right now it feels like most days are bad days and the days that aren't bad days are still bad days that are slightly less bad. It's a pretty depressing way to live and outlook to have when you measure everything in a negative way instead of a positive way. That's how my brain works - always focusing on the negative, regardless of the positive. I have so much to be thankful for and appreciative of, but it's so hard to think about those good things when it feels like I'm being weighed down and overshadowed by negative thoughts and feelings. I am and have always been a glass-half-empty kind of person, and while not by choice, a habitual and intrinsic thought pattern of negativity can be extremely difficult to change. For me, it is frustrating to feel like progress has been undone. Like if I feel a little better one day but worse the next, it feels as though I've taken a step back...that I'm not as okay as I was the day before. I know that thoughts and feelings are not linear, and I know that I still need to give myself the time and space to be okay with not being okay, but it is just so emotionally and physically exhausting to constantly be going back and forth between these varying degrees of sadness, hopelessness, and loneliness. It has now been several weeks since I've felt anything like myself and I'm beginning to wonder if I'll ever get that feeling back again. The assistance that I've been getting through psychotherapy has undoubtedly been very helpful, but at the same time, it's not a mapped way out of my labyrinth of tortuous emotions. I realize there is often no such thing as a simple solution when it comes to matters of the mind and of the heart, I just wish such issues weren't so painful to go or work through. There's a lot of negativity on my mind right now, but I did manage to enjoy a few minutes of snuggles with Mister Gizmo this morning before I left for work, so that's the positive thing I'm going to try to focus on today. Maybe the real secret to my happiness is as simple as bringing my cat with me wherever I go? I mean, he's basically a service animal for me at this point anyways. Cat jokes aside though, I'm just trying to weather this storm. ❤️
User Image paulritter Posted: Sep 5, 2017 12:20 AM (UTC)
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I hope you're all having a good long weekend! I spent most of my weekend hibernating and playing video games...I wasn't feeling great and the weather was pretty crummy too so it has been easy to just stay inside these past couple of days. There's something really unfulfilling about being unproductive for an entire weekend, at least for me. I hate feeling unaccomplished but lately I've been occupying my time with activities that aren't productive, like watching television and playing video games. It creates this sort of lose-lose scenario in my head where, if I have fun but don't get anything done then the day was unproductive, but if I get things done but don't have any fun then really what was the point at all? I know it's all about finding balance. At the same time, I know that these feelings are just a result of expectations I have of myself, and that I am the only one who is in control of those expectations and how I deal with them. It's hard, you know, to feel like you see the problem but don't know how to go about fixing it, if that makes any sense. I guess I'm struggling to find the right balance for me right now.
User Image paulritter Posted: Sep 4, 2017 1:23 AM (UTC)
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The laziest of days 😻❤️
User Image paulritter Posted: Sep 3, 2017 1:34 PM (UTC)
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Do you ever notice how sometimes the weather seems to play off your mood? Like if you're sad, it rains. Or if you're happy, it's sunny out. But maybe that's not what's happening. Maybe what's happening is that we feel sadness because it's raining, or that we feel happiness because it's sunny out. Either way, I think it's neat but also strange that there seems to be some sort of connection between the weather and how we feel. Life sure is weird sometimes, isn't it?
User Image paulritter Posted: Sep 3, 2017 1:23 AM (UTC)
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It wouldn't be Caturday without a picture of one of the furballs! Gracie has been super snuggly lately which has been so nice 😻❤️
User Image paulritter Posted: Sep 2, 2017 3:38 PM (UTC)
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Good morning friends! Thanks again to everyone who has been so supportive and encouraging these past few days. It can feel really good to be open about things, and maybe being open on Instagram is something I'll try to put a little more effort into, too. I spent most of last night out experimenting with astrophotography! I've always been fascinated by the night sky but unfortunately my work schedule does not often align with the proper weather conditions and therefore I haven't had a lot of opportunities to do it so far, but it's something I definitely want to spend more time learning about. For me, when it comes to learning new things about photography, I am very much a learn-by-doing kind of person. Photography blogs and how-to videos are great resources, but in my opinion and experience, they are no substitute for real-world practice. Last night was a very useful learning experience for me in that regardless of whether I end up with any usable shots or not, I now know a number of things for next time that I didn't know this time. I have my own vision of what I'm shooting and how I'm shooting it, and sometimes it turns out the way I want it to and sometimes it doesn't, but either way I always learn something and, as far as I'm concerned, I'm a better photographer for it. Making mistakes is often not fun or fulfilling, but it often is the best way of learning. In a world that demands perfection from everyone all of the time, making mistakes sometimes doesn't feel like making progress. But it's how we learn from our mistakes that we become better. So don't be afraid to make mistakes, to experiment, to learn, to try, to fail - these are all parts of the human journey that we're all on together and while they may not be easy, they're worth it!
User Image paulritter Posted: Sep 1, 2017 2:27 PM (UTC)
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Thank you very much to everyone who has reached out to me with messages and comments of support and positive thoughts recently. I really do appreciate it. Everything is about as okay as it can be at the moment, and I'm doing my best to simply keep my shit together right now. I don't often get all preachy on social media because frankly there's more than enough of that on the internet already, but if I can offer one piece of advice here and now, it's to never take your mental health for granted. How you feel is important. YOU are important. If you are ever struggling, please, talk to someone about what you're going through. Whether you talk to a friend or a parent or a professional or all of the above, please do it. Seeking help does not mean a person is weak, it means they are strong enough to realize that they cannot overcome an obstacle on their own. We live in a world where we have access to an almost infinite amount of information at our literal fingertips, and yet, there is no Googleable solution for how you think or the way you feel as an individual. I'm admittedly not very open about my personal life on social media, but as someone who has gone to both counselling and psychotherapy, I can say that having an opportunity to be open and honest with someone you trust is truly invaluable. So please, if you or someone you know is struggling mentally or emotionally, I strongly encourage you to reach out to someone about it. Remember, it's okay to not be okay. That's where I'm at right now, but I'm trying to get better and that's what I'm trying to focus on at the moment. And on that note before I start to sound too much like Dr. Phil, I'll leave you with a quote from one of my favourite professors, Albus Dumbledore: "Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of places, if one only remembers to turn on the light." 💡
User Image paulritter Posted: Aug 31, 2017 12:46 PM (UTC)
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User Image paulritter Posted: Aug 31, 2017 1:30 AM (UTC)
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Sorry it's been awhile since I've posted on Instagram, I've been dealing with some personal stuff recently and took a brief break from social media. I'm slowly getting back into the swing of things, but for now there are lots of pictures of Mister Gizmo that you haven't seen yet ❤️😻
User Image paulritter Posted: Aug 30, 2017 12:48 PM (UTC)
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Finally starting to see the light again ☀️🌲📷🇨🇦
User Image paulritter Posted: Aug 21, 2017 3:00 PM (UTC)
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What I wouldn't give to trade lives with Mister Gizmo for a day...ugh I love this little furball so much ❤️😻
User Image paulritter Posted: Aug 21, 2017 1:08 AM (UTC)
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Sitting on the dock of the bay watching the tide roll away ☀️📷🇨🇦
User Image paulritter Posted: Aug 20, 2017 4:34 PM (UTC)
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Snuggles and Stretches feat. Gracie (new album dropping soon) 😻❤️
User Image paulritter Posted: Aug 19, 2017 4:22 PM (UTC)
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Some of my favourite mornings are spent at the lake, just me and my camera and my thoughts ☀️🌲📷🇨🇦
User Image paulritter Posted: Aug 18, 2017 12:45 PM (UTC)
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Friday is finally here! Only t-minus seven hours until the weekend begins! 😻❤️
User Image paulritter Posted: Aug 18, 2017 12:37 AM (UTC)
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As Far As The Eye Can See 🌲☁️📷🇨🇦
User Image paulritter Posted: Aug 17, 2017 12:45 PM (UTC)
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Beware the little lion hiding in the bushes 😻🌿❤️
User Image paulritter Posted: Aug 17, 2017 1:22 AM (UTC)
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Saying Goodbye To The Sun ☀️❤️📷🇨🇦
User Image paulritter Posted: Aug 16, 2017 12:25 PM (UTC)
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Good morning from Mister Gizmo and I, we hope you have a cat-tastic day! 😻❤️
User Image paulritter Posted: Aug 16, 2017 1:33 AM (UTC)
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Summer Reflections - reflections are one of my favourite things to photograph! What are some of your favourite things to photograph? 😊🌲☀️📷🇨🇦