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steviejayymikey When you mom sends you this in a message saying "I didn't want to clean out the craft room, because I find stuff like this."
Makes me so sad. The night mom got the call she was in her craft room "crafting" she made Aria bows, big amazing bows. She made her burp cloth for ever outfit. Her name was on ever blanket she had.

Mom hasn't been in her craft room to craft since. I've wondered why. Makes me sad she wasn't able to go to the one place she loved. There are so many memories! Good memories but hard to understand.
This is a puzzle mom Got Aria in December of 2012, 2 not ha before she passed away. It was suppose to be for her first birthday.
Now I'm gonna paint it and put it on Aria's shelf for Sloan to play with!! #aria #Ariagrace #stillborn #itstillsucks #infantloss #missingyoulotstoday #ariasangels #purpleglitter
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molecularbear Peep game #doi #LetsGoRoyals I'm so sad. We had season tickets or something of the such and we were going to paint her baby belly like a huge KC royals baseball and try to get in the huge screen at the game. I keep coming across little baby boys wearing royals stuff and it just kills me and breaks my heart. I was looking forward to being a daddy more than anything in my entire life besides spending my life with the worlds most beautiful beautiful breath taking woman alive. No one holds a candle to holly. And she had MY baby. I just can't believe she didn't give me a fighting chance and hey ghosted me forever. It's not fair. I'm still in love with her and no matter, I will always be waiting for her and Olivia. Olivia would have been an amazing older sister for the baby. I can't seem to get past the extreme heart ache. Especially since I have NO ONE to comfort me, hold me, hug me or anything. My own mother hasn't even seen me in 4 years now. As well as my father and brother. Abandonment at it's very best. I trusted holly not to do this to me when she promised me that I had nothing to ever worry sbout. The reason that she gave my mother on why she was leaving me were petty and you could tell that she fell out of love with me way before our trip to cloudcroft. I'm such a fool to have not trusted myself when I could tell and feel that she didn't love me anymore. Which is why she doesn't miss me now or even care that I've been suffering without her and Olivia. She doesn't love me anymore or even cry that she had ended a beautiful relationship. She doesn't care that I have slit my wrist and almos died and I wish I had bc waking up is the worst feeling ever. I hate have work days off bc I'm stuck right here with my thoughts and feelings. Where is my mom? Where are my friends? Where is my lover? Everyone that I truly need right now to comfort me from all the trauma and the painful loss of our baby?? It's not like she lost the baby during the first few weeks. It was the middle of her second trimester at 5 months!!! I heard his heartbeat and I cried out of happiness and kissed her forehead. I constantly was thanking her for giving me a family. #ourbelliesaretouching 4h

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haydens_dorkymommy Happy 11th Month Birthday, Hayden...I can't believe next month you would be turning one...its going to be real tough next month. I should be planning your first birthday instead I'm planning a little memorial for you. Life isn't fair. I miss you my sweet angel.
#haydenshope #happyelevenmonths #heartwarrior #heartangel #ihatechd #grieving #infantloss #angelmom
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roseandherlily Was able to tend to Lily Kat's special spot yesterday and took her a bouquet of fresh flowers I put together. The grave will never diminish my love or desire to mother her. #LilyKatherineAllenBall #stillbirth #stillborn #babyloss #infantloss #LilysSpecialSpot #LilysStone #MemorialDayWeekend #CrozetVirginia 5h

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jamie_b_brave For our first Memorial Day weekend without our sweet Bode; one thing we decided to do to honor him was CREATE a humble place in our yard to remember and think upon him. "Bodes' Garden" is essentially going to be a place for us to cultivate and nurture for many years to come. A place where we can feel him near. A place for continual healing. A place where we can see beauty all around. in Bodes'Garden #bodesgarden #memorygarden #flowers #vegetables #honor #humbleplacesathome #healing #infantloss #memorial #thebebravedearoneproject 8h
  •   billiards_wife Awwww that's so beautiful 8h
  •   amanda_a_jones You two are some of the greatest parents I know. Thank you for sharing your experiences with us. #youarebrave #BodeisSOloved 7h
  •   shan3ban This is so neat. You will cherish his garden. 7h
  •   aschiffman10 That is so great Jamie!! What a loved little boy 7h
  •   tkuuipo23 Love everything about this!! 6h
  •   findingsday What a beautiful idea 6h
  •   camiharb00 Cute idea!!! That will be nice to have a place to go to to think about him! 5h
  •   coralthadley I'm glad you're finding things to always have a remembrance of him! 4h

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danyelle.andrews #mayweallheal Day 24: Dreams. Since I was like 5 years old I have dreamed of being a mother. I used to have these triplet baby dolls that you would carry around on a belt, and I made my mom let me take them every where. There were 2 girls and 1 boy and you could feed them and change their diapers, and then of course, carry them on a belt. When we would play Life I would always try to rig my numbers so I could land on the square 'you had twins!' and would be able to fill my little car up. When I found out I was expecting the twins, I really truly felt so blessed- all my dreams were coming true. I was on this high of 'wow life can really be this grand'. My dreams have changed now, but really they haven't... I still dream of having a house filled with laughter and tears and chaos. I still dream of being someone's momma here on earth and seeing my sweet babies grow up, and to know I helped teach them about life... My dreams now come with more obstacles, more fears, more unknowns.... But they are still the same dreams I once had as a young girl, only now they include 2 Angels as well.... I remember when I was younger I always said I was going to have 5 children. As I got older I decided that was slightly ridiculous and unrealistic in our economy, and that number started to go down.... After the loss of Avary and Rylie though, I have thought once again how now I will likely have and want 5 children... 3 that run and 2 that fly.... And I'm right back to that dream I had as a kid... Funny how that works #twinangelbees #twinloss #infantloss 11h
  •   liza378 I did the same thing with Life and I desperately wanted the twin cabbage patch dolls when I was little...my dream was always to have twin girls. We both have the most amazing little girl angels watching over us and hopefully they will watch over any future siblings! 11h

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five5souls Custom keyring for a special Mum whose little boy grew his angel wings to soon @sherralou77 #inmemoryof #angel #custom #five5souls #memorial #rememberance ##handmade #rainbowbaby #infantloss #sids #angelbaby 15h

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daaniebanaanie Hello little butterfly....believing it's my little boy saying: hi mommy I'm doing fine #preemie #infantloss #butterfly #angelbaby 15h

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jamies_jewelry $29 plus s&h available in my etsy shop along with many others!! Check them out at www.etsy.com/shop/jamiescreativespot or just click the link on my profile! Also happy to take custom requests at any time!! 22h

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steviejayymikey I love my hubby!!! at a #scaredsidless benefit!!! We have had yummy food and loads of fun!! #infantloss #lifeafterloss #sids #raiseawareness 1d

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mommashaunie I have to get a better picture for you all, but had to share that I was able to plant my princess' mini garden today! So happy! #StMiriamRose #marigolds #cosmos #dustymiller #johnnyjumpups #portulaca #colorful #princess #yellow #pink #purple 1d

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