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j.noellelushie I just wanted to take a minute to apologize for being semi inactive. September is a bard month for me. On the 29 it will be 2 years that my daughters have passed and each day just seems to get harder and harder and I'm in a very dark place mentally right now. Even lush hasn't been able to cheer me up as much as normal. Thank you to everyone who still is following me and my new followers I really appreciate everyone in this community but I am having a very hard time dealing with their absence this year. #angelmom #infantloss #twins #lushie #nonlush #angelbabies 2h
  •   lushie_girl Someone who may know how you feel is @angelicasmomma (I'm not trying to put her on the spot) but she is the nicest human being ever and she also lost her daughter 2h
  •   lushchykas I love you bb 2h
  •   dkycutie780 Please know you are in my thoughts. Be strong. 1h
  •   mrs.jenisegroff Sending love strength and positive vibes your way sweetie in a time no mommy should ever have to go through you are in my thoughts 1h
  •   redsoxdiane Sending positive thoughts your way. I cannot even imagine what your are going through. I wish there were something I could do it say to help ease the pain. 1h
  •   ellelefleur My heart and thoughts are with you. 1h
  •   angelicasmomma Thinking of you love and @lushie_girl 30min
  •   singsforthethings I can't even imagine what you're going through, Jesse. My heart goes out to you truly. Sending so much love your way 15min

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ourrylee The only thing missing
is your little body sitting in
my lap. But, thank you for coming
to see your daddy and i this morning.
A sweet dragonfly just hanging out
on the porch with us.

#pregnancyandinfantloss #ryleemooncuriel #childloss #letsbreakthesilence #bereaved #bereavement #ourrylee #youarenotalone #iam1in4 #pregnancyloss #infantloss #miscarriage #infantlosssupport #grief #lifeafterloss #weareinthistogether
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jenmarink Today, a year ago, Grady waved to the camera! #thecolorblueandhope #infantloss #lifeafterloss #20weeks 3h

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liz10__ Here's a mock up of the wristbands. #babystella #starofthesea #infantloss #angelbaby 13h
  •   michelle_badillo_ Cute! It will match my pink bracelet I have in memory of my daughter. 12h
  •   michelle_badillo_ Oh and when I ordered mine, I ordered a bunch of adults and a few youth when I should have done the opposite because so many women have youth size wrists. So those went by so fast. So order more youth if you know more people ordering them have small wrists. Even men have small wrists. 12h
  •   liz10__ @michelle_badillo_ that is good to know! I was trying to decide what to get lol. They have youth and child size. I know the one I have is just a normal adult size and it's kind of big but it's perfect on my husband. 12h
  •   michelle_badillo_ I didn't know they had child size. That's nice to know for the future when I order more on my daughters one year birthday. Yeah the adult size fits my husband and his friends but I notice the men who are short in my family used the youth size. 12h
  •   missingemma2015 What site did you purchase the bracelets from? 12h
  •   liz10__ @missingemma2015 I'll have to look again and let you know. I went through a few sites to see what one had what I wanted and where was cheaper. 3h

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miraclemamayoga Opening up and letting go... The biggest lessons so far from Jack. Regram @therealflyingyogini 14h

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emmahansen [Part 2] […] As the months go on, and your friends continue to grow, it will always be hard not seeing you here growing with them, but deep down I know that you are. You were here today, Brittany and I felt it, and Charlotte certainly did too. We went back to The Sweet Factory and put your sticker on the sour key jar, and as we were snapping away the most beautiful thing happened: Charlotte put her hand on your sticker, stroked it, and smiled. It took everything in me to keep it together—you have a very special little friend in her, and I know she misses you too.

After we purchased our bags of candy, we made our way over to the elevators so we could get to Gap Kids and find a secret place to hide your sticker. When the doors opened, we walked in to find two women. They cooed at Charlotte, and asked Brittany how old she was. “5 months,” she replied. The ladies let out some excited squeals, and the older woman put her hand on the other woman’s belly and said, “my daughter is 5 months pregnant!” Brittany and I just looked at each other. You turn up in the most unexpected places, my boy.
Today was a turning point for me. While Brittany and I walked around, ate our candy and drank our smoothies, and talked about our babies, it felt oddly normal. I can’t explain it, but maybe it's because it was never God’s plan for the four of us to hang out earth-side. I can imagine it—that perfect plan—but it’s just a dream. You are exactly where you’re supposed to be and so am I. Today was always going to include tears as I watched Brittany be noticed as a mother, laughs as Charlotte squealed when we talked about you, and smiles as our whole day was centred around you. I miss you like crazy, baby boy, but just look at all you’ve accomplished in these 5 short months from all the way up in heaven. You’ve blessed us all with the nine months we got with you, and you’ve made your family and friends so very proud. I love you, Reid. Happy 5 months. #ninemonthswithreid
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  •   missyhipwell I hit send by accident! Anyhoo! Much love to you today and so happy you got to spend it with a good friend and candy of course 13h
  •   annieh910 I love reading your posts and re read your blog a few times and definitely cried each time I read your words. So beautifully written yet so heart wrenching. My deare 13h
  •   annieh910 My most sincere condolences to you and your family...but it brings a smile on my face seeing you doing better and happy birthday to Reid ! 13h
  •   lissajking Gosh, I dont know how you do it emma. My jealousy would certainly get the better of me in situations like this. I cant get past the pain of the general public having no clue that I actually am a mother. A mother with empty arms... 13h
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  •   sisilisko_ You are amazing. 11h
  •   lil_mommabird Happy 5 months Reid and love for mamait's nice to see you smilex 7h
  •   krltannr Happy 5 month birthday Reid!!!!!!! 2h

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emmahansen [Part 1] 5 months, baby boy. Fall seemed to have an early grasp on the west coast air this past week, the rain we’d been missing so dearly poured down for days. Then, today, the sun came out again. I think you would have been a summer boy. I can imagine you at the beach wearing neon swim trunks, ever the spitting image of your colour-loving father, with black curls peaking out from your sun hat as you sit thumping your hands into the wet sand. I don’t dream of a grown version of you very often, but I love when I do.

On your 5 month birthday inside me we went to Metrotown with Brittany and Charlotte—but we almost didn't make it there. Earlier that day we went to get the flu shot. I’d been debating it for months, and after reading every single research paper I finally decided that it was the best choice for us. I must've worked myself into a frenzy because seconds after I got it the room started to spin. The poor pharmacist who administered it ran to the juice aisle and stole a whole pack of apple juice for me. I sat with my head inbetween my legs, hands on my belly, as Aaron held the straw to my lips. In 10 minutes I felt better, and decided a little retail therapy could do me some good. So Brittany and I wandered around, stopping in Sephora and H&M, making all of the necessary purchases on our lists. But we really just walked the most direct route to The Sweet Factory, our favourite store. You and Charlotte gave us both a serious sweet tooth, and sour keys were a regular staple for me. Running on sugar, we finally gave in and went to Gap Kids. Our hearts always melted as we sifted through the impossibly small newborn onesies and talked about the outfits we’d dress you two in.
Today, we all went back to the mall, and today, I met Charlotte for the first time. Oh, Reid, you would have loved this little girl, and she would have challenged you your whole entire life—we joked she would have worn the pants in the relationship. She’s loud, like her mama, and has the same big round eyes and contagious giggle. Holding her in my arms made me realize that she’s not you, and seeing her smile up at me made it impossible to be upset. […] #ninemonthswithreid
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cristheweirdo "Haunt my dreams,
Do your best,
Rest in peace,

So peace in rest,
Sing to me a lullaby,
Strange to see an angel cry."
- Resurrection, @oneeyeddoll
Happy 3rd Birthday, angel baby. Missing you always
#happybirthday #childloss #infantloss #rip #babycousin #stillbirth #stillborn #cemetery #oneeyeddoll
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kathyluiphoto I've always loved the month of June. When I was little, I liked it because pearl is the June birthstone (I had an obsession with birthstones). Then since 13 years ago, I liked it even more because my dog's birthday fell in June. Coincidentally, five years later, our kitty was also born in June. So I've always seen June as a month of celebrations (anyone who knows me knows that I treat my fur babies as, well, my babies with fur). And then we found out that Evan's due date was in June, too, and I fell in love with that month even more. How could I not? I was going to have three June babies! And I do.

This beautiful handmade moon paperweight was a gift to us, a reminder of all our June babies. The celestial body associated with June is Moon and this weight contains ash from the 1980 Mount St. Helens eruption. It really is so pretty in person. I display it in remembrance of how meaningful June is to us - it will always be a bittersweet month.
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19h ourrylee
Normal kendra & max curiel

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ourrylee Max and I picked some
Sunflowers to bring home for
our baby girl. I decided to put
them right next to her ashes.
This little area in the living room
really makes this house a home.

#pregnancyandinfantloss #ryleemooncuriel #childloss #letsbreakthesilence #bereaved #bereavement #ourrylee #youarenotalone #iam1in4 #pregnancyloss #infantloss #miscarriage #infantlosssupport #grief #lifeafterloss #weareinthistogether
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