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te_amo_delilah After a long day all I want to do is cuddle with my #hearttohold. I place it on my chest and wish with all my heart that this precious 5lbs 10oz was my snuggly baby. I try to push away the painful thoughts. I'm tired of reliving that day over and over. I'm tired of having painful memories come popping out of nowhere. I'm tired of being jealous of other babies, babies that lived. I'm tired of being jealous of other pregnant women who are so blissfully unaware that it could all come crashing down so fast. I am so damn tired. Is there light at the end of the tunnel? Of course there is. It's moments like this when I try to find peace within myself. I tell myself that it's going to be alright, even if maybe I don't believe it right now. Some day the sun will shine, and I will be the better for it. 4w
  •   latoya_aloha You realize how vulnerable you are... That you can do everything right and still have no control. Through the pain eventually you surrender and in that moment a glimpse of light will appear 4w
  •   annieclau I understand how you feel too @te_amo_delilah . I have lost my little Mathilde almost 9 months ago and the pain is still there, time only makes the edges less sharp I would say. It's so unfair that we have to go through this. Big hug. 4w
  •   mandyxmoo @te_amo_delilah you have perfectly said exactly how I feel. I wonder the same everyday and ask myself if I will always feel this way. For me, the jealousy is the worst and I hate myself for it. 4w
  •   alongcameollie Another bereaved mama (who lost her baby 23 yrs ago and still has her moments of sadness) said to me "you can be bitter or you can be better, choose better." Its soooo hard some days but we will find our peace and we will smile again. They may be in heaven but theyll always be ours and we'll see them again. Hugs mama 4w
  •   jaimirobison ♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡ 4w
  •   xmama_babyx I am so sorry for your loss. I'm seriously crying my eyes out looking through your pictures. Its seriously not fare how things like this can happen to such an innocent precious life. Praying for you amd your family. My condolences 4w
  •   xmama_babyx And* 4w

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te_amo_delilah My last post garnered a lot of attention. Much much more than I expected. And much more positive than I expected. I thought most would see it and say "you need to stop dwelling on the past" or "it's not healthy to keep focusing on this". Because maybe that's what others have said or maybe that's what I've ended up telling myself during this messy confusing painful journey. But instead I've received this outpouring of love and encouragement and I'm SO grateful I have this outlet. But here's what I really am. I'm just a sad mom cuddling my #hearttohold. Cuddling this precious 5lbs 10oz and wishing my baby was here instead. Just glad that I've made it through another day. 1mon
  •   itizzme Wish I could do more to help you. You are amazing and I'm glad to have yiu in my life, wish I saw you more. You need to do whatever helps you. Delilah is a beautiful angel. 1mon
  •   its_just_judy6711_ @te_amo_delilah my dear..I read your story..a very painful story that brought tears to my eyes..I saw your pictures and I can't imagine what your going through..I have watched my parents pass away..and that was horribly painful. Take one day at a time..be gentle with yourself and one day it will all make sense..I wish you Peace in your heart..mind and soul. Take care of yourself my dear. Xo. 1mon
  •   nikkisnipz You do anything that makes you feel better!!!!! No matter what people say!!!! Only you know! 1mon
  •   romi88angel I found you on the popular page... And i just want to tell you that you are a very strong woman and that i admire you.... You will be your hardest critic, and for that i just want to tell you -dont be so hard on yourself... Believe in your strength. I am so sorry for your loss. 1mon
  •   mrsflickmyvic You are such a strong woman I cant imagine all this pain you are going through. There is no words that will comfort you just know that your baby is always with you 1mon
  •   _wdow_ Im sorry for your loss. I know is hard. In your eyes I can see your pain. Her memory you will forever treasure and never forget. 1mon

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jamiejgordon New post on the blog this morning. My prayer is that it will encourage you in whatever season you are in! #lifeafterloss #angelmom #angelbaby #nicu #miracles #season #love4chi #bringtherain #healing #AngelOutfitters #mollybears #hearttohold #nicumom #preemiemom #25weeker 5mon

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amgraf86 A few weeks ago I posted a article about a company called A Heart to Hold they make pillows for grieving mothers. My step mother saw that I liked it and her mother went and made me my own for my angel babies. This is the most thoughtful gift I have ever received I can never thank them enough. #hearttohold #angelbabies #love 5mon

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m_estrela_11 I got my #hearttohold today! It weighs 11 ounces, just a little more than he did. #ripMatthew #holdyouinmyheart 7mon

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lisadavis2011 Got my heart to hold in the mail today it weight as muh as remi#hearttohold#infantloss#stillbirth#stillborn#daughter#heart#love#babygirl 1y

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montekita Making weighted heart pillows for those who experienced pregnancy and infant loss. Remembered my older brother Jose Pompeyo Montemayor who died after 1 day. #hearttohold 1y
  •   goesbysabri That is amazingly sweet of you guys! Love this 1y
  •   montekita @goesbysabri I texted you because I wanted to find out if I could make a pillow in memory of Tristan. We will probably do this again in October. 1y

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  •   aliciastarr89 Aww honey. sending you lots of love and hugs!!! I would be furious too!! He was not doomed babe, he has his purpose in his short life. He still matters!! He is beautiful and he is a person. A person is a person no matter how small. @laurawcr 2y
  •   aliciastarr89 I'm going to make you something special and send it to you once I can afford it... ... love you gorgeous!!! @laurawcr 2y
  •   aliciastarr89 Sending you lots of love and hugs all the way from the USA!! @laurawcr 2y
  •   corinnaalexis I ordered one about 3 weeks ago, how long did it take to get yours?? 2y
  •   aliciastarr89 @corinnaalexis it only took about 4weeks. Did you get it?! Sorry it took me so long to respond. 2y
  •   corinnaalexis It's ok, yeahh I just got mine like a week ago! I'm so happy I hold it like 24/7 lol 2y
  •   mrscoy Do you know where I can get one? 2y
  •   aliciastarr89 @mrscoy_lvcj I forgot the exact Web address but google: a heart to hold 2y

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Normal ⠀❖ ﹌﹌﹌﹌﹌♛║Megan V║♛﹌﹌﹌﹌﹌ ❖
l0v3always With love, I'll give you my heart to hold, so long as you don't give it away. Please don't leave it broken and cold, and I'll let you keep it someday. #love #heart #hearts #truelove #silhouette #shadow #sunset #afternoon #vibrant #lovely #hearttohold #giveaway #broken #cold #brokenheart #keepsafe #keep #someday #day #dusk #iloveyou #iphoneography 3y

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