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comiakim_ #tb to the day My son #ACE picked his #bestfriend #ASHURA #APBT #BLUENOSE both #fatso 3h

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theothermartina Me this week. I don't know what happened. One minute I was happily flexible dieting, and the next I wasn't tracking and I was stuffing oreo's into my face for breakfast. I don't even like sugar tbh. I went fully off the reservation and only trained once this week. Thing is, I'm struggling ATM. I'm struggling to fit everything into my life between working, keeping house, maintaining personal relationships, gym and nutrition. I'm no Mary Poppin's, I can tell you. When I get down I bottle it up and try and cope. It spirals out of control and I self destruct. I sent my coach an SOS today explaining that I do indeed need a lobotomy to sort my issues out. He had the patience of a Saint and sent me a new plan so I wouldn't feel so overwhelmed. ####
My reality is I'm fat. Like, not just competed and now I've got no striations fat, like I've put on 10kg and 4 inches around my waist. I've NEVER been this size before - I just spiralled out of control the last year and didn't follow the plan from my previous coach. I'm so out of shape. This isn't my natural body shape at all anymore. I've been hiding from all social situations as I'm embarrassed by my body and I only have 1 skirt that fits for work now! #####
I detest the gym tbh. I feel so alone there. All of my fitness friends are online as we are all spread so far out. I see you bitches with your BFF doing cardio and I'm so jealous! I even contemplated moving house to be closer to a gym my friends train at! But this is my own battle that I have to face and I really need to pull my bloody finger out and do so. Easier said than done when you're unable to get out of bed. Depressed, lazy and unmotivated. This isn't who I want to be. I dish out so much advice to friends and just wish for a second I could find it within myself to do what I need to right now. Wish me luck!
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  •   theothermartina You made me laugh out loud! You have to enjoy those post comp donuts!! First thing I ate after my show! @emiliat86 5h
  •   theothermartina Omg I'm the same. Crying that I'm fat and eating a pizza for dinner! It's that bloody fish and a rice cake diet that fucked me up. Struggled to be alright with food after that. We will do it in the end!!! @xcarlygoodridge xx 5h
  •   allykarlss Been there doing that lol were only human and we put our expectations so high xx Had a crappy weekend but thank god we get tomorrow and the next day 5h
  •   rebeccasales1 Ah Hun your not alone!! Lots of people go through it- I had a horrendous time after my first competition- I got so fat so quickly my skin hurt from stretching! .be kind to yourself, set small goals and eventually you'll come out of it! xx 5h
  •   theothermartina Yes. Let's start tomorrow on the right track! @allykarlss xx 5h
  •   theothermartina I feel like that now! I'm going to take it each day at a time and see how I go. Baby steps right xx @rebeccasales1 5h
  •   charliebikini @theothermartina your not alone this happens to so many people! Hopefully you get your mojo back soon but if you don't it's not the end of the world the more you feel you have too the more you won't do relax one step at a time 5h
  •   theothermartina That's the catch 22 isn't it! It's a vicious circle. I will get back. I just wish I didn't take the fucking back roads every time! @charliebikini xx 4h

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ash0655 Battle wounds from trying to pull hanging poop from my constipated cat's butt. Could have been worse. #fatso #kitty #notalwaysnice #catmom #doodies haha 6h

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  •   dylanodyien My brother would be eating chickpeas instead. Maybe he should take Bullet Beans gig. 5h
  •   looxofficial @dylanodyien that is a very interesting offer. Health is a core component when choosing head model here at Loox. We'll look into it. Thanks! 5h

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Brannan Kristina Beden
cristine.9 Debel kuži :D #fatso #cute #dogie #fatdog 7h

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world_of_naruto_ Good morning minna



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  •   zarkhaiz Dnt mess with the fatty lol 9h

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