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marlboro824 Hi. I just want to fade away. I suddenly understood why I want to die.

I don't know who I am, and what I want. I want to recover, so badly, from these negative thoughts, but when I start to get hopeful and optimistic, life fucks it up. And the misery hits twice as hard. When you're sad, you're numb. And you feel like you have this shield around you. To keep yousafe from unexpected and unwanted feelings. I want it both ways, you see. I want to be numb, but not lonely and sad. But being numb means cutting it all out and that goes back to being lonely and sad.

Honestly, I don't know my constant. I don't know who I am. I pushed everyone away and now that I'm here alone, I miss them so bad. I'm forgetting how badly they treated me and this just sucks. I can't stay rational. I can't learn how life works. I don't know how to protect myself. I mean, really REALLY protect myself. The way adults do. I'm already nineteen and I'm so afraid at what life might just throw me now.

So, I'm so eager to find a constant. And at the back of my mind it says: death. I'm so tired. (Please dont report. I just need to get this out.) #sadness #depression #edsoldier #ed #edfamily #sendhelp #starving #idontknow #doesitgetbetter #idontthinkso #why #pleasedontreportme #death #suicide #suicidal #ana #mia #anamia #fightingforrecovery#recovery #edrecovery #aa #aafamily
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nicoledoane I mean really - does morning hair get any better!? Sorry to brag, but I feel that since I posted the "ghost" picture and everyone hated me for it, it is only natural to keep the haters hating and post another. I'll be honest, there's been many a day that I could have rubbed it in your faces, but I've restrained until now. #morninghair #truth #mondaymorning #doesitgetbetter #curlsthatlast #blondelocks #blonde #loosecurls #hair #doneright #youknowyoulovemyrubbingyourfacesinit 6d
  •   chadcorbett I'm liking this photo, not for the actual picture, but for the commentary that goes along with it. Bringing the swagger early in the morning..... 6d
  •   nicoledoane Haha! Starting Monday off right @chadcorbett :) 6d
  •   ldvond Perfection 6d
  •   vivifyhair Super! 4d

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shalott Blurry progress #doesItGetBetter ? Trying to channel the power of @laurenesab 1w
  •   laurenesab Get it girl!! It does get so much better - I'd rather do 15 miles tomorrow than a single run I did my first 6 months of running! So proud of you boo! 1w
  •   shalott 15 miles?!?? It took me 30 minutes to do 2! 1w

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bchollow I'm tired and hormonal, cold, tired, sad, and falling apart.... Someone give the boy a hug #shots #shotandbeer #beerandshot #crying #barlife #bar #jack #IPA #gay #gaynyc #gaylife #Gaylove #gaybeard #nycgay #nyclife #nycrazy #nyc #itgetsbetter #doesitgetbetter #life #day #lsats 1w

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amy_darlingcake Super over gray skies and cold weather. Adding some #color to the dredge of #ithaca #winter #ithacaiscold #cookies 1w

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markbailey411 You've got to admire the pure beauty of this job. @ocean_elements #daysail #ionian #doesitgetbetter #dinghyschmem #sailing 2w

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monkeeking Happy birthday Q-Dog. #family #friends #doesitgetbetter? 2w

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Normal In pυrѕυιт oғ eхcellence.

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__beccamoore Nothing better than heading to the beach when it feels like lifes getting just that little bit too hard #feelshit #ugh #beach #linkinpark #alonetime #canttrustanyone #trustonlyyourself #doesitgetbetter #feelimghopeless #help :( 2w
  •   love_alanaa It gets better beach is my favourite place to be to breathe., 2w
  •   __beccamoore I hope so, sometimes I feel like I take 1 step forward then like 7 back :( yeah its good to just think peacefully @love_alanaa 2w

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