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keekz91 Yesterday I got particularly bad. The morning was amazing, and then later on I became convinced Reanne had no interest in me and she thought I was stupid and all of these horrible things. I was also convinced my coworkers were whispering about me and thought less of me for having wealthy parents (that never once treated me differently, I never knew THEY had so much until I was 23... I personally have saved $2,000 so far). Spells of rage where my heart races and burns and then the lowest of depression. My mind kept taking me to thoughts of dying (even though I would never), the thoughts wouldn't stop. I just wanted the pain to end. I began sobbing immediately when I got to my car after work... where I could finally let go and be alone. I was exhausted but forced myself to the gym out of fear of gaining weight and also because after the gym I have more mental clarity than at any other point in the day. I faked being nomal to my parents. Her texts right before bed though helped me come back to reality. I'm just hoping the delusional thinking has subsided and today can be less painful. It's nearly impossible for my to focus when I take even low doses of xanax. I'm seeing my med provider Monday and switching meds. I like the energy wellbutrin provides but I am nowhere near stable anymore. #mentalillness #moodswings possibly #bipolartwo #bpd #depression #anxiety #adhd #agony 10min

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_simplythin_ Odd selfie from the other day lol. It's 6am and I'm still awake. A lot on my mind haha. Just trying to relax though and watch Netflix with my love. But alas, my mind keeps wandering back to my weight and If im gonna loose or gain from my semi b/p .. I guess we will have to see.
#ana #anorexic #anorexia #anorexianervosa #anamia #mia #bulimia #bulimic #binge #purge #ed #ednos #eatingdisorder #starve #starvation #starving #skinny #fat #scale #anxiety #anxious #bipolar #bpd #deb #depressed #depression #ocd #suicide #suicidal
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g_irlinterrupted Your speed doesn't matter, forward is forward. ️😙 {wrong way mr turtle....} #recovery #mentalhealth #selfcare #bpd #depression #anxiety #turtle #slowandsteady #staystrong #ssri #forward #keepgoing 56min

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  •   emerald300 Hi I'm not sure if u r from or live in Dubai if so I was just wondering what area is beat to visit (scenery, night life and culture) for tourist and what airport is best. 16min

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melmelgirl76 regram @mentalhealthadvice
This is so important. You are beautiful inside and out, but you are so much more than a pretty face. You are your own unique person with your own passions, hobbies and memories, and that makes you incredible.
Keep fighting!
- Dani
#mhadani #mentalhealthadvice #mentalhealth #recovery #quote #bodyimage #beautiful #selflove #eatingdisorder #ED #anorexia #bulimia #BED #EDNOS #ana #mia #depression #anxiety #GAD #socialanxiety #suicidal #selfharmmm #OCD #BPD #DID #SAD #bipolar #deb #sue #love
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rude_gyal_1 My 2nd Picture Fi Instigram :) Self-Harm Emotionally Stable Personality Disorder Borderline.
#Emotionally #Emotional #Emotions #BPD #Stable #Personality #Disorder #Self_harm #Pain #Hurt #Borderline #Cuts #Blood #Sadness
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my.atelophobia Sorry for not Posting.
But I think, Nobody cares.

Everything goes wrong. Because I am wrong.

And: (!!!!!)
Please comment here if I should keep this Account. If nobody reads it, its useless like the owner.
If nobody is commenting in max. 7 days, I am gonna delete it.

Sorry for everything. Sorry for being such a loser.
Sorry for being false diagnosed. I am not anorexic and my selfharming is a joke.
Sorry for being a Bad student, Bad daughter, Bad in everything.
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please.let_me_die Have I ever: Attempted Suicide
Several times. I tried to hang myself twice at home, but was interrupted. While in hospital, I tried several more times. I haven't tried for a couple of months, which I'm proud of.
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areyousuffering deny all you want but you cried in class over me dumping you, and then got butthurt when you found out i openly admit i only dated you bc i was desperate, needed a summer fling, and consistently stayed high the entire relationship. i always say i don't regret exes bc it's a learning experience but i honestly regret the shit out of you. #fuckboys 2h

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mentalhealthadvice Today I want you to accept your body, be kind to it, nourish it, don't hurt it. It deserves love and acceptance, even if it's only for a day ~ Paige #mhapaige #mentalhealthadvice #recovery #mentalhealth #advice #ed #eatingdisorder #ana #mia #anorexia #bulimia #bed #bingeeatingdisorder #ednos #edrecovery #edfamily #depression #selfharmmm #selfhate #deb #sue #anxiety #gad #socialanxiety #ocd #bipolar #bpd 2h

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