yogitoes123 For nearly an entire year, I held onto something that no longer served me. Holding onto that moment in my life brought me nothing but pain and misery. I relapsed into substance abuse, started smoking cigarettes, and was having five to seven drinks a day for months. My heart felt heavy when I would step onto my mat and I began to lose flexibility in my shoulders/back. One day I nearly kicked a cabinet off the hinges when I was in a drunken rage... And realized I had sunk into alcoholism once again and that it was time for change. My thoughts were scattered and frantic. All I would think about and obsess about were the would've, could've, should've possibilities of what I clung to so tightly. In the last few weeks and months, a complete shift of my thoughts has occurred and sometimes I realize it has been days since I last thought of what I used to think about in every waking moment. I no longer wake up from night mares and no longer feel I need to drown myself in alcohol to sleep. I no longer feel trapped by my thoughts and feel like my mind is very emptied of thought, other than school and yoga and sleep. My life feels simple and easy. I FEEL happy, clean, and at ease. My practice grows stronger everyday and I don't feel tightness restraining me. I have learned to breathe deeply when I feel my demons want to play and have learned to acknowledge, but sternly ignore, my desires for substance abuse. All you have to do is breathe in deeply, exhale, and repeat. #namaste #inrecovery #drugsarebadmmmmmkay || love my sports bra by @sychofitapparel ️ 6h
  •   destineelove26 Awesome job! 5h
  •   divinei Thank you so much for sharing. You spoke to a deep place within me. So glad you are in a much better place now namaste 5h
  •   thewalkingasleep I feel somewhat like where you were is where I am stuck at right now. It's so encouraging to know that you're doing well and achieving your dreams. It gives me hope for myself. Thank you for sharing. 4h
  •   drunkenyogini Thank you for your honesty! #bravesoul 4h
  •   mrs_knowles Amazing. Stay present...be your beautiful self! 4h
  •   palomas12 Thank you for sharing . It truly inspires many of us whom struggle with the same issues 3h
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yogitoes123 Now that I've gorged and eaten an entire head of cauliflower in about three and a half minutes, it's time for tea and some relaxing stretching ️ I've gotten a few emails/comments over the few days asking how I balance school/working out/yoga. Make a schedule! The thing that works best for me is doing the same thing over and over and over. So everyday I get home, have a snack, make tea, relax for a few minutes, light a candle, and get my butt on my mat. #yogaeverydamnday P.S. Just cause you have a full time job, kids, are in professional school, etc... Doesn't -- let me repeat: DOES NOT -- mean you can't have time for yourself. You deserve at least an hour (I take two and a half) hours away from school a day for working out and yoga. 1d
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  •   bu2fulll Ty for the advice 1d
  •   knuperknees Absolutely! I have two kids (one a newborn) work more than full time and just finished my masters. It is sooooo important to make time for yourself. I wish I could get that through to more people! It. Can. Be. Done! ️ #loveyourself best of luck. 1d
  •   jaychlo Beautiful release 1d
  •   om_yoga_love Preach girl! This is beautiful U are beautiful 1d
  •   juliekogen You tell them! From your mom on her mat. 1d
  •   jonnaroseball I took down my earlier comment because I was sounding #preachy and #crankypants. I am #inspired by your #dedication and #alittlejealous of your beautiful practice :) 20h
  •   yogitoes123 @jonnaroseball lol. It's all good. I've said much much when I'm cranky and I'm evil when I'm hungry keep on trucking momma! You'll figure everything out ️ 10h

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yogitoes123 What I do before the sun ️ comes up ️ chest to wall handstand is something that was very scary for me two months ago but now my face/belly/chest is completely touching the wall and I feel my belly engage. To come out I pull my right hand a few inches forward and twist to the side. #happyhealthyyogis #yogaeverydamnday 1d

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yogitoes123 Cause love's such an old fashioned word and love dares you to to care for the people on the edge of the night and love dares you to change our way of caring about ourselves ️ #underpressure #FavoriteTransition for #happyhealthyyogis @shauna_harrison @_kariooo @hippie_heathen @yogaracheal @dovclothing1990 @sychofitapparel @randy_dizon 1d

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yogitoes123 Every morning is beautiful here. There was a cloud of fog floating right by me today ️️ while I played in the grass before I got ready for school. I never imagined that I would be living next to a mountain range ️ here's to extremely dirty mnemonics, another day of hardcore studying, and another 5am alarm set for tomorrow morning 😴 #yogaeverydamnday #ruraltennessee #nosnoozebuttonsallowed 2d

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yogitoes123 This is my view... How can you not feel peaceful seeing that?! #yogaeverydamnday #Tennessee #rural #iliveinthemiddleofnowhere 2d

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yogitoes123 I interrupt my yoga feed to bring you #ryangosseling 😬 just kidding... I wanted to tell you guys about this horrifying foot cramp ("Charlie horse") i got last night at about 3am. All of a sudden, I woke up in extreme pain, the muscles in my foot were spasming hardcore, and I jumped out of bed to try to stop the pain. This morning after I worked out, I googled about Charlie horses. I was drinking about 7 liters of water a day before I moved, on top of coffee and tea. Now I'm drinking around 4 liters of water, along with my coffee and tea, so that I'm not peeing 15 million times a day. But I'm dehydrated, especially because the humidity here is like zero percent. So here's my #publicserviceannouncement of the day... DRINK MOAR WATER 2d

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yogitoes123 Finally got home and into bed from nearly three hours in the anatomy lab with my study group going there on a full stomach wasn't my best idea but lots of work got done. So here's my #happyhealthyyogis post for day 23. The theme is #KitchenYoga 🍋 what I would do for a home cooked, HOT meal right about now... I literally have only eaten raw vegetables/fruit, nuts, Greek yogurt, and quest bars for almost three weeks so my kitchen goes sort of unused, other than for my daily tea ritual and coffee😬 oh and the bag of edamame + sweet potato that I made last week.. @juliekogen please feed me! I promise I'll do the dishes and take the garbage out! I. Am. So. Hungry. All the damn time.... But there's no mom making me food haha. Show @_kariooo @shauna_harrison @hippie_heathen @yogaracheal and me your #KitchenYoga for day 23! Don't forget to tag the sponsors @sychofitapparel @dovclothing1990 @randy_dizon 3d
  •   drnelk Designed but never printed a t-shirt with the caption "I smell like dead people.... All the time" 3d
  •   masoudm1340 nice 3d
  •   juliekogen Funny how moms all over the world are called upon to cook with the promise of help with cleaning up when their little birds fly the nest and go hungry. Jackie just packed a 4 day supply of Roma noddles because she's going to a rural place with no stores. 3d
  •   juliekogen The bright side is that your kitchen is clean. 3d
  •   yogitoes123 @juliekogen FEED ME TAKE CARE OF ME!!!! DONT LEAVE ME MOMMMMMMMMMY 3d
  •   yogitoes123 @drnelk I need that shirt i get on my yoga mat after school and I can't stand my lab stank. I wash my mat nearly every other day now! 3d
  •   sergiovelazquezvazquez Your awesome️ 2d
  •   drnelk Would you actually wear it? Do you think other med students would? If there was interest.. 1d

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yogitoes123 Since I'm no longer allowed to touch the thermometer in the gym, my heater finally gets to turn on time to practice since my apartment is now warmed up to 82 degrees Fahrenheit #iwearthreelayersandlongsweatstothegym #floridanbloodinmyveins 3d
  •   jeianya19 "No longer allowed"? What have you been doing?? @yogitoes123 lol plus why would they care if you do it during off peak hours? 3d
  •   yogitoes123 @jeianya19 I was turning it up to 79 in the gym... There's a girl whose room is actually in there so she might've complained that her room got to hot. Eeeeek oh well... Now I just wear a shirt and two long sleeves or a sweat shirt I feel like I'm gonna rip something when I first wake up but such is life 3d
  •   kethysk @jeianya19 lol. I was about ask the same thing !! "No longer allowed"… @yogitoes123 doll, I doubt you were allowed to in the 1st place . I'm glad you found a solution! I love your pics, mostly because I'm fascinated by how you juggle med school and fitness !!! Crazy! 3d
  •   yogitoes123 @kethysk lol!!!! Yeah.. Prob never allowed to but rules are made to be broken... Right? and thank you so much! It's def a juggle and totally exhausting but so worth it️ 3d
  •   eunjungs I'm confused, possibly because i don't live in the states and aren't familiar with temps and weather and etc of different states but why do you turn up the temp? Is it warmer where you used to live or do you just like working out in higher temps? (I also think it's amazing how you juggle everything!) 3d

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yogitoes123 In the past I would get REALLY offended and visibly angry when a man (or woman, but more commonly man) would make a derogatory about my lack of clothing in most of the pictures I post because, at the end of the day, I know that I'm a "good Jewish girl" and am actually VERY modest/conservative. But I practice yoga, less clothing makes asanas easier, and I'm totally comfortable with my body + feel that all women/girls should love their bodies. So, this week alone I've been called a stripper twice and was asked "hey, you're that girl on Facebook that has no clothes in any pictures, right?" And so I say back: yup you're right! Because anger doesn't serve me and just like I have an opinion about what I do, so do other people -- whether it is positive or negative. Always remember.... Opinions are like assholes. Everyone has one and they all stink so take what upsets you as a grain of salt and don't rub it into a wound that doesn't have a need to fester. #namaste #butruleoneistotakeyourshirtoff 3d

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yogitoes123 My day consisted of a 5am workout, nearly three hours of solo studying, three hours of group study, and an awesomely super sweaty yoga practice. I can't wait to pass out and do it all over again...😴 #plank #happyhealthyyogis #iloveyoga #5amwakeupcall 4d

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yogitoes123 This morning when my alarm rang at 5am, I was startled awake. I was woken up from a dream that I was home in south Florida and, for a moment, I couldn't figure out where I was. When I talked to my mother she told me she had a similar dream that I was back home. Needless to say, today I felt unsettled and off balanced. I notice in the moments that I feel off balanced and uncentered, that I am breathing shallow and not staying present. Taking a few deep breaths and feeling my body full of oxygen instantly made me feel centered and more present. Don't forget to breathe... 4d

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yogitoes123 I'm posting for the lovely @hippie_heathen since she is sick day 21 of #happyhealthyyogis is the theme #HybridYourAsana 😎 what I love about yoga is that so many asanas can be changed/altered into new, cool hybrids that are both challenging and different. This is one of my favorite hybrid postures that is tricky because it involves shifting the weight waaaay to one side. ️ show @_kariooo @shauna_harrison @hippie_heathen @yogaracheal and myself your favorite hybrid asana! Tag the cohosts and sponsors @sychofitapparel @dovclothing1990 and @randy_dizon ️ 5d

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yogitoes123 Practice and all is coming... ️ it's only 8pm and I'm falling asleep😴 #medschool #alwaystired #ineedcoffee 5d

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yogitoes123 After standing over cadavers since 1pm, the only thing I want to do is backbend! #whatsthatsmell #ohhhitsme #anatomylab #medschool #sotired #myeyebagshaveeyebags 5d

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yogitoes123 Let thy food be thy medicine and thy medicine be thy food. I've been eating mostly raw veggies/fruit the last few weeks and have never felt better, more alive, and healthier. My skin looks better than ever, I sleep like a baby, and I'm able to concentrate amazingly. this was part of a eight pound care package my momma sent me of sprouted beans/seeds. She's the bomb I've been studying since 2pm and just hit my mat... Eek! The RA said I'm not allowed to turn the a/c past 70 degF in the gym... But she didn't say I couldn't turn my room up to 83 degF on heat #bringiton #ilovesweating #yogaeverydamnday #letthyfoodbethymedicine #preventativemedicine #futuredoctor #myprescriptionpadwillhaveagrocerylist #lookatdatsexysalad 6d
  •   juliekogen You can take the girl off the farm and into the mountain. But you can't take the farm out of the girl. I'm happy to be your bomb. 5d
  •   yogitoes123 @juliekogen love you mommmmmy️️️️️️️️️️️ I miss you come take care of me! Being an adult is no fun 5d

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yogitoes123 Post 530am workout stretch session #theflexible 6d

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yogitoes123 Have a grateful day ️ #deadhead #studytime 😬 6d

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