yeezus.tbh upset, distraught and not a single happy thought. you smiled at me today and it was the warmest feeling that hit me beneath my cold stare. you won't compensate for all that's happened; so please stop being cute towards me, i know I'm not the only one you do that to. all I wanted was a simple sentence and I got tangled upon my words instead. love you not so much... laugh with me.
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  •   orgxxm You're so perfect 2h

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yeezus.tbh blank bullet. anxiety resets. it could have been something, you would have changed and this time you would actually look both ways. a blank bullet but it had words all over, abstract emotions and you weren't even sober. you don't know what happened it's like a blank bullet. a pause between doubt and reaction. "don't play with fire, you'll get burned". people are not things they do not have cautious labels but you're hell. an all original fuck boy. call yourself an OG. I'm tired of shooting blanks next time the bullet will go through your head, it'll be my name and every time you hear it... your hearts going to burn, your body will fall and no one will make you melt more than I. who's better than who now?
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yeezus.tbh when I was around five I would take quick showers, avoid closing my eyes and run out because I was paranoid. I didn't know what of. I hated the dark, it scared me because I thought someone was always there ready to yell at me for all the wrong things I had done; I was only about five. one day my mom stayed in the bathroom with me and dried me off when I was done showering. I started crying and she asked why, I said mommy I'm afraid of dying. she didn't understand. I was only five but oh wow i had such a lively mind. she told me kids aren't supposed to think of those things, she told me kids are supposed to be happy and laugh over silly things. mommy, I'm not five anymore and I'm still paranoid of things unknown, I fear death. if kids are supposed to be happy, what are teenagers supposed to be like? you're an adult, right? do you become empty when you get passed your thirties? that's what you look like. mommy, will that be me too?
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yeezus.tbh before meeting you my words had become limited. I wanted to explore a fresh set of thoughts but got something unexpected instead. I wanted to love you, I thought you'd be so interesting the way you held yourself together. then I actually got to know you and disappointment fulfilled me like it was the only way I knew how to breathe. meeting you shut me down. I wanted you to be my inspiration but you just took my hope and tangled it up into maybes, like it was something you wanted to control. so now it's gone I have no hope, I have no inspiration. I can't help but to think you are the one who took it from me. you don't even have a clue, do you?
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yeezus.tbh They were living off a high of being happy and their drug was a person with a beating heart and a messed up mind. They looked at each other like everything in the world had no purpose without the two of them to commence troublesome. Some say love conquers all but they saw they were using love as an excuse to be happy and they thought that was okay and so it was. 
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yeezus.tbh remember when I said that night summer skies make me feel alive? I think I might've lied. last night, there were five different colors in the sky and the clouds spread apart like fluff that couldn't be put back together. I though, wanted nothing more but to cry. I wish you were beside me and that's sad. I wish you would take me and that's sad. I wish I could, just go... just run... be able to see what everything is like. I'm caught up in this scene where I'm twelve and the world is a search and destroy with nothing for me to find, except now I'm not twelve. I'm just scared and this time you aren't there. 
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yeezus.tbh it's a feeling that feeds me, it's a feeling I don't want to be eating. in this world we're all bulimics. we shove love down our throats and drown in the vomit of disappointment. we do not feel good enough. we are nothing but a malfunction. perhaps I should change "we" from "I" because it's me, isn't it? I'm alone. I'm fucking crazy. it's a distinguished idea that I don't know what I'm saying. you know when I'm really tired and refuse to sleep ooh babe I get so delirious. I laugh so hard and then I get so sad, I cry. I'm a little broken but I don't want to eat any of it. I rather pretend. like the food on my plate I put your lips close to my mouth but I start talking and I avoid it coming to me. I want it to stop. I don't want to eat it though, you'll make me sick. I'll be hurt and oh please let's allow the destruction again. 
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yeezus.tbh I've had more late nights than last year. I've had more people step out of my life than last month. I've had more disappointments than yesterday. I don't know why I'm here. to be lost is an understatement, I'm more scared than anything else. scared of not knowing ever, what I'm here for. scared more than ever than possibly doing it all wrong and what if I love everyone who I shouldn't, what if I just happen to not love at all? more importantly what if none of it even matters?
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yeezus.tbh Sometimes I enjoy long car rides because I see things that are much prettier than the people around me such as the sky. On summer nights the sun sets at eight pm and the reflection paints it a combination of pinks. I try to take a picture of it almost every time we drive by a perfect view of the skyline. The truth is that other than those drives I’m probably thinking about suicide. Not the way you think about it. Like I said I just think but never fully contemplate. I don’t think I’d ever do it because I just want to leave the life I live but I don’t want to die from not living.
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yeezus.tbh get high and tell me what it's like to think about me the whole time. I feel like it's nothing but a murder suicide without the crime.
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yeezus.tbh a fainted feeling between affliction and infliction. I wanted what lay in your hands, a touch so soft that could potentially show me what it felt to be loved.
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yeezus.tbh suicidal con, tells me he's afraid of being wrong. gun in hand I feel the aim and while it points to the head, your eyes look down. a coward after destruction, a coward with more than a few malfunctions. if I were you I would do it. I'd click it. I'd end it. you... you shake, you tremble and your actions stumble. you act like you've got it all, but really you know nothing at all. poor little heart of yours starts beating faster than I've ever known. you stop speaking, the fear crawls again, you thought you knew how to attack and now it's all coming back. so scream it, yell it because we're all fucking crazy. blow my brains out baby.
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  •   nguzmn @pvnk1d it's amazing 2d
  •   pvnk1d @yeezus.tbh no prob bae and I was trying to keep it a surprise but I'm playing around with this poem and making a song (still giving u cred of course) my friend just wanted to see the original poem 2d
  •   pvnk1d @yeezus.tbh and ily2 2d
  •   pvnk1d @nguzmn i TOLD U 2d
  •   nguzmn @yeezus.tbh helloooooo (it's weird using my personal, I'm going to follow ya on my acc @somedancestoforget ) and your poem it's perfect btw, I'm loving it 2d
  •   yeezus.tbh @somedancestoforget thank you so much it means a lot omg 2d
  •   yeezus.tbh @pvnk1d aw that's the sweetest thing ever I love you so much thank you if you ever finish it send it to me! I feel honored you chose something I wrote thanks 2d
  •   pvnk1d I love you loads Hamid! I'll deff send it to u when it's finished 2d

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yeezus.tbh all I wanted was you, actually to be honest that's not true. you thought you was actually cool. what I really wanted was innocence. I heard once it's gone you can't have it back but I refused to have that remain a fact. that's just how the world works, everyone eventually likes something they shouldn't. we were meant to want it like that. then there's a babe who acts like he's the summer news but really he's what got me stuck in summer blues. the ones you know break themselves before you can, hold hearts in hands to make amens but you're a contempt to the sensitivity others contain. you're the sky at night that still shows light but unlike it you don't perceive much of a sight. you are the fear of being boring and you are the concept of life lesson stories.
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yeezus.tbh I thought I was delicate but you, you fall apart easy and your weakness is your own self. so now who's better than who?
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yeezus.tbh you think that you deserve of being recognized as superb. you're just a silly little boy who doesn't know what really counts in this short life. if you're good looking you'll get far, we know. you however are just a cocky asshole. they tell you nice things but you expect more. you look down on the people who get what you're about. you get mad when they ask you what's going on, because you want to pull it off as being mysterious but I for one can see right through you. I'll tell you now that you are not as special as you sound.
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yeezus.tbh ...nobody asks for you but somehow you still show up. maybe not the best comparison but what the hell are you still doing coming around. everyone else knows your old news when will you too? you still do your swag walk, I know because I've been told and before meeting your eyes with mine you pause and prepare start with a lean and end with your hand going through your hair. it's all good honey you're impure, been touched all over what will people think once they know that what you did is against your holy ways. oh wow bad boy no just a dumb boy, please. stop saying hi because you're not top shit, you know it looks like the stress of not being pretty is getting intoxicated and spreading through your face. you're skinny jeans won't fit forever. what up though babe?
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yeezus.tbh if drugs make people happy then why do they seek you? if cocaine makes you hallucinate why do they need to hear your name? if you think you're the best then why do you speak? what the fuck is your deal... I was just being sincere.
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yeezus.tbh we talked about it and I thought about it a lot. you are the reason I can't keep calm and you are the irritating itch crawling my skin. you don't understand and neither do I but can you take a second to realize what the hell you're actually doing. I'm so upset, you make me feel that way. I just wish I was unaffected. I just wish I was the one you selected.
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yeezus.tbh I don't know why I type in lowercase when my thoughts are emphasized in my head. I don't know why I'm fixated with the idea that maybe we can be something wonderful. I don't know why well I don't know anything. I like you though, I like you and I'm falling apart. no one knows, no one cares let's leave a plant to die like the words that never leave my mouth when I talk to you. everything... I see you as everything. you are everything and I don't think you want anyone to have you. don't be such a big shot when the only bullet loaded is aiming at you.
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yeezus.tbh I thought you were going to be so interesting okay you seemed fucking cool, but you're just a mess. I want to scream at you but I want to hold your hand at the same time. I'm so screwed up and you told me you were afraid of saying the wrong thing in front me and god dammit you don't think I get nervous too ?
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