thebleugardenia Tomorrow will be our first wedding anniversary. I love this man more every day. How he himself is broken , he continues to carry me. It's a blessed occasion, but one little person and big piece of our hearts are missing. 43min

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thebleugardenia There are no words. Nothing anyone can say. For me just being there is enough. I don't have words for how I feel, or how I supposed to feel. I am told I am not grieving. That I am trying to mask the pain. I don't have the capacity to grieve , let alone can't some else. I have never felt so hopeless in my life. 4h

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thebleugardenia It only gets worse before it gets better .... 4h

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thebleugardenia Things that we should be taught but words are so seldom few.for what happens when you're told that you're nine months pregnant six days shy of giving birth.no longer has a heartbeat. Collapsing outside of a hospital because of the pain I felt being ripped out of my body.going into labor on the way to the hospital. And a very well-known hospital at that. Waiting five hours to finally get an epidural enduring the most excruciating pain I have ever felt in my life other than the heartbreak I am dealing with right now. Going through all this and having nothing to show for it but horrible tragic memories in my mind that will never go away. Life can be so cruel but it can be so beautiful at the same time. The outpouring of love and support from my IG friends my family even my beautiful furry babies. I will carry my beautiful son Brando with me forever. 19h
  •   jeweledspirit We are soul sisters-I am sure of it. I hope with all my heart that your beautiful son, Brando, has found my beautiful son Alfred and that they will play together in the Eternal Garden that I can see so clearly from here. <3. Jewel 18h
  •   signs_of_libra ! My heart swells for you. I'll keep you in my thoughts n prayers-pray for your solace and understanding 18h
  •   leahjoee @thebleugardenia no words from me could ever ease your pain and heartache but at least know my thought and prAys and Many Blessings are with you Darling 17h
  •   savethelastsun Some babies are to beautiful to walk this earth and are flying the heavens creating beautiful skies♡ all my love to you ♡ 17h
  •   vickylavine_ My heart breaks for you sweetheart, sending so much love♡wish I could take your pain away :-( xxxxxxxx 11h
  •   mrssugarcain 10h
  •   kerrencebun @thebleugardenia much love, hugs & healing light xxx 9h

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thebleugardenia It so hard to breath, it's so hard to get out of bed, it's just to hard to do anything. Bleusivorytower feels like it's collapsed . 21h
  •   biscuit_987 Sending a hug your way 21h
  •   tracyporter_poeticwanderlust Thinking of you xx 19h
  •   jeweledspirit Sending love. Thinking of you each day. It's ok to do nothing, my friend. Listen to your body it will tell you what it needs and the day will come when the smallest bit of energy will return to you. And then you go from there. Hugs. <3 18h

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thebleugardenia Shut the Fuck Up! 21h
  •   mrssugarcain There is no room in your life for those that minimise, mock, ignore, or belittle your grief. 19h
  •   thebleugardenia @mrssugarcain I was told today by a relative that it's not like I had cancer. I don't know how some people can be so heartless 19h
  •   mrssugarcain Damn it, I had a feeling it was a relative. It's always relatives that fuck this up! I am so sorry that they were so heartless and thoughtless in saying such a hollow and cruel remark that they deemed appropriate. It they can't respect your grief now, they never will. Shield yourself and your husband from those that don't understand. 19h
  •   jeweledspirit I am sorry for the pain others will bring you with their ridiculous comments. It is mind boggling! I agree with @mrssugarcain -- she is so right about shielding yourself ! I wish I lived close ,M, I want to hug you and help you through this. Would you DM me your snail mail address(only if you feel comfortable with it) I would like to send you something. Xxoo 18h
  •   paranormalsceneborneo *hugs*.... 14h
  •   vickylavine_ Can NOT believe someone would say that to you..stay away from negative people you don't need them in your life xxxxxxxx 10h

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  •   jenkmiller75 so true, but so hard. hang in there, doll. 2d

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thebleugardenia “Second star to the right and straight on 'til morning. ” ― J.M. Barrie, Peter Pan 3d

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thebleugardenia Still no words, resting has become a slight bit better, with the help of magix pills. Beyond heartache now. 3d

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thebleugardenia My heart is just a void 3d

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thebleugardenia Buttercup is keeping me and kitties company. 3d

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thebleugardenia “Some people believe in angels. I held one in my arms.” 3d

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thebleugardenia Back there again..... 4d
  •   oseirf5 i know the feeling 4d
  •   ms_alexander_amenity Omg I just read all your posts, I'm really sorry about your experience but I pray that you and your love regain strength, happiness, and peace. It's sad to me (even though we don't know one another) seeing that you're down when I'm usually seeing the amazing pictures you would post but I truly hope and pray things turn around... 4d
  •   thebleugardenia @ms_alexander_amenity my heart is touched by your words, but we have always had connection。 4d
  •   ms_alexander_amenity you're welcome, and it's definitely great to have 4d
  •   lavenderdoll Whatever you need. Every little bit helps xxx 4d

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thebleugardenia No_greater_grief_than_to_remember_days_of_gladness_when_sorrow_is_at_hand. 4d

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thebleugardenia To watch this beautiful man that I chose to spend my life with hurt. My heart breaks more. He is always so strong, my protector, my secret keeper. Who breathed new life into my heart. I can't take away his pain. I inflicted it and I feel so guilty. His heart is broken along with mine. But something about a man loosing his son.all I have in my mine is the forever picture of him Holding baby Brando. I still feel so blessed he and I found each other's . Love madly always. 4d
  •   kerrencebun @thebleugardenia you didn't inflict it, it's not your fault. Love is wonderful & much needed in times of sorrow. Big big hugs & an abundance of twinkling healing light to you both xxx 4d
  •   lavenderdoll You didn't inflict it. Hold each other close always. 4d
  •   swansongvintage Not your fault XO 3d
  •   stellarfairy83 Lots of hugs and peace in your heart my darling... 3d

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