rebeccacaridad Because sometimes I post photos that are not of my baby. So excited to show off the rest of this Dunton Hot Springs wedding! #manzanitaphoto #duntonhotsprings 18h

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rebeccacaridad I think there was a small part of me that thought when I became a parent it would totally change who I am. I thought I would suddenly do the laundry every day, and the house would be clean, and I'd find more time to read. I would pay the bills on time and have a savings. I would always do my hair and make time for hikes and walking, I would drink more water. I guess when you imagine something for long enough these silly expectations sneak in. Dustin and I always joke that we are like 20 year old bachelors...but we are married. Chores go undone, we forget to switch out the clothes, we realize its 10pm and we haven't eaten dinner. Baby O is definitely shining some light on these areas that need a little more attention and it is humbling. Of course to watch this all unfold, to watch Dustin become a father is worth a little discomfort. Baby O claps when he gets home from work, he runs over to him and wraps his arms around his legs, his face nuzzling into his thighs. I've looked forward to watching Dustin become a father for almost eight years and to see it here, now, everyday this way is warming. And so maybe we need a little more time to figure out the day to day things but It's all these little things that we take for granted. He likes how I decorate our home (happy to let me paint everything we own white and rearrange our home once a month), he knows after editing for hours I need a shoulder massage, we want to watch the same movies, we eat the same foods, our ideal day is spent exactly the same way, and now most importantly that we are learning to be parents together and so far we are on the same page, a team, a new reason to keep loving this man. #lovingbabyo #fostertoadopt 20h
  •   alyssaleane @ncontestabile ️ read this please. Love you babe! 19h
  •   fiveclementines I couldn't agree more. This sounds so much like me, a mama of five. I always feel like I should have things way more together than I do. 19h
  •   fourka Your comments are everything 🏾19h
  •   lindsayhthomson This gave me so much warmth. Thank you for sharing such a tender, real part of your life with us. 19h
  •   hallie.beth I love your honesty and real talk with this list. As someone who is starting the process foster without a partner I feel like I'll never be ready. Reading this was so encouraging. 18h
  •   ninephotography It's a great feeling to allow yourself to be an imperfect parent. Our son is now 14 and letting go of all those perfect parent expectations has let me enjoy motherhood and time with him even MORE. 18h
  •   loveciel1 What a beautiful photo....it's clear that you and your husband have tremendous hearts. 16h
  •   lindseyclare It's wonderful you mentioned being a team, because I think that's the most important factor for being great parents and still liking each other as a couple! Sounds like you're doing a great job 8h

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rebeccacaridad Only 4 more spots left in the calligraphy workshop I'll be teaching at @mooreaseal 's stunning shop while I'm in Seattle on June 1st. Head over to her website to buy your tickets! Can't wait to meet all of you! #manzanitacalligraphy 4d
  •   le_sook @rebeccacaridad what type of pens do you teach with? I'm trying to teach some little kids a basic calligraphy class and was trying to figure out which nibs and pens to use :) I wish I could take this class, but I'll be out of town unfortunately 4d
  •   rebeccacaridad @le_sook my favorite beginner nib is the comic zebra g nib! 4d
  •   le_sook @rebeccacaridad thanks! I hope you do another workshop in Seattle sometime :) 4d
  •   rebeccacaridad @le_sook thanks! I might! I'll talk to @mooreaseal about it:) 4d

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rebeccacaridad Thanks to the Boulder Community Garden for holding their annual plant giveaway. Baby O and I left with a few boxes of veggies that him and his papa will have a lot of fun planting in the garden this year. #lovingbabyo 4d

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rebeccacaridad He wants to be held more, always with a hand somewhere on me. Yesterday I climbed into his crib with him (because I'm insane) and he chit chatted to me for 20 mins in his nonsensical language that I think sounds like a mixture of French and Mandarin. I wonder what he is saying and what he is thinking. I wonder how he will remember this time, in snippets of feelings or flashes of images that will be painted by all these photos I take of him. Everyday, the more I learn about him, the more moments we share, the more I love him. It just keeps growing and it completely overwhelms and shatters me. Soak it up. Teach him to breath. Take photos. Kiss his face. Hug his little body. Show him how to be gentle. Love him to death. #lovingbabyo #fostertoadopt 5d

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rebeccacaridad Today we spotted an eagle on the side of the road taking the long way home. The bird just hung out in the tree even while baby O was loudly yapping away. Nice little memory with my little family. #lovingbabyo #fostertoadopt 5d

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rebeccacaridad Print available in my etsy shop by @shopgrain 6d

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rebeccacaridad One on one calligraphy lesson this morning with this sweet woman️ thanks for coming out @kathleenpeachey ! #manzanitacalligraphy 7d

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rebeccacaridad Today I woke him up and he was all smiles as soon as I walked in the room. He put his arms up high for me to lift him out and when I put him on the changing table I said "mama?" and he said "mama." and poked me in the heart. 🏾#lovingbabyo #fostertoadopt 7d

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rebeccacaridad It's been about a year since I quit my day job to be a full time photographer/calligrapher. I've been able to travel around the world, the country, and this beautiful state of mine. I've had a son and lost my sweet soul mate dog. It's been amazing and hard. I get paid to do something I truly love. Feeling grateful for my life today as I look back on the last year. Thankful for my beautiful clients who trust me to be creative for them, thankful for my industry friends who make this wedding field funny and inspireing, and thankful for this whole social media thing that keeps me connected to so many old friends that I would have otherwise lost touch with and with all you new friends who are a constant source of encouragement, thank you, thank you, thank you #manzanitaphoto 1w
  •   heatherthegray I love you, sweet friend. So happy to have witnessed your amazing first year full time. You're so inspiring. 1w
  •   thelongipie Love you so much friend! You've rocked this last year with so much grace, love, and style. 1w
  •   alisonvagnini I lub yew. 1w
  •   callunaevents Such a sweet post @rebeccacaridad! So glad we are working together and collaborating so much this year! It's going to be an incredible one! So grateful for you! 1w
  •   _carolineyoon Such a great post! So happy for you🏻 1w
  •   kitzel it's just the beginning of such a grand adventure. 1w
  •   alchemypowderroom You are so incredible, beautiful, talented and all around so deserving of this! Congrats to you! 7d

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rebeccacaridad And then the rain came pouring down on us a few minutes later #lovingbabyo #fostertoadopt 1w

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rebeccacaridad Hello old friend #crochet 1w

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rebeccacaridad Getting to know him is the most interesting thing I've ever done. This week I got my first taste of the "hard" part of parenting that everyone keeps telling me about. He is getting comfortable enough to start testing our boundaries and pushing up against what we ask him to do and not to do. I had some of the best parents around, and maybe it's a generational thing, but I want to discipline my kids a little differently than how they disciplined me and my siblings. Looking into different forms of disciplines is daunting, there are so many opinions and studies and blah blah blah. I guess I thought I would just feel it out once situations came up, but I do feel a little lost sometimes. I want him to be accountable and respectful and I also want to give him space to scream and freak out and have his feelings. I'm sure it will unfold naturally over time and most of the time he is the sweetest, smiliest, and happiest little boy. We got real lucky with this little guy, so happy he is ours. #lovingbabyo #fostertoadopt 1w
  •   julieafflerbaugh I am so taken with the journey into parenthood that you are sharing so beautifully here on Instagram. I hope we can meet one day. I'm in boulder. I found your work through the lovely @heatherthegray xo 1w
  •   chrismannisto I feel lost daily sometimes. As some of the other girls have said it is always changing. My sons are 3 & 7 and even the two are so different in personalities I am learning new styles. I find if I can "find the calm" and be very mindful with a firm tone I get results. You will find what works with him. The best thing you can do is love him and show him you love him. (You are already doing that) Parenting is not for the weak at heart there will be GREAT days and tiresome days! It is worth it! (Oh and remember even those "supermoms" have those days they just hide it) 1w
  •   jenniferlittle I always feel lost. Trust your instinct, and if something doesn't feel right, change it. You'll do exactly what you're supposed to do. 1w
  •   dafodil_ I follow your IG from a while and I never commented yet but your post is a good opportunity to do it now. I'm really glad for you and your baby boy! . Yes, parenthood is so wonderful and so difficult at the same time! I suggest you should read books by Thomas Gordon, I can't tell you the titles cause I read it in french, but it is really really interesting. He definitely changed my vision of parenting! 1w
  •   rebeccacaridad @dafodil_ thank you so much for commenting and for the suggestion! I'll look I to his book :) 1w
  •   laurendartt We really like the choices part of love and logic and feel like it empowers frances while setting boundaries which she needs to feel safe. I also tend to just sit and hug her or sit near her when she's having a meltdown and keep calmly asking if she wants to talk or suggest feelings like "you are scared because your room is dark and you're sad that mom didn't go in first". Both of these have worked best for me. you are doing great already just by considering your options! 1w
  •   dafodil_ I totally agree with you, @laurendartt ! 1w

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rebeccacaridad For my little Sadie#sadiecaridad 2w

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rebeccacaridad "I wondered if my smile was as big as hers. Maybe as big. But not as beautiful." Benjamin Alire Sáenz 2w

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rebeccacaridad This woman. When I really think about how lucky I am to have been born into the world with this woman as my mother I am overwhelmed. Thank you mom for be the best example of woman, I owe so much that is good in my life to you. Most importantly thank you for bringing our son to us. If wasn't for your example of fostering to adopt my two beautiful sisters, if it was for your connection to baby O's birth family, if it wasn't for your endless support and faith through out the waiting process I wouldn't be the thing I wanted to be most! Happy Mother's Day to my beautiful mama! And to all the mamas who are waiting to meet their children I'm thinking of you hard today. I only wish you have someone like this woman to reassure you when you are sad or doubtful. Love, love, love! 2w
  •   nennyxsunshine You always say the bestest things. And I love following your journey as a momma. I love that you acknowledge and praise the fact that there are so many paths to motherhood. 2w
  •   nennyxsunshine My little heart wishes you all the happiness in the world. Happy Mother's Day! 2w
  •   roseannbathphoto I thought I was done tearing up over Mother's Day posts. Nope. 2w

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rebeccacaridad Happy Mama's Day to all you sweet ladies!! Thanks for raising such good humans#manzanitacalligraphy 2w
  •   sparrowsspatulas Aw, super sweet! The Peace Corp's motto is: the toughest job you'll ever love. I'm pretty sure a mother somewhere said it first! HMD to you and @ginaschlosser @risafriedman @craftsmanandapprentice @savor.this who take a creative and artful approach to motherhood! 2w
  •   risafriedman Happy Mother's Day! @sparrowsspatulas 2w
  •   ginaschlosser You too @sparrowsspatulas! Such a wonderful group of mothers here on IG 2w
  •   wildflowertara You have been on my mind all day. Maybe six months ago I put something in my calendar to remind me to connect with you this week in celebration of Mothers Day, before you knew O was coming to you. I have always recognized and respected the heart of a mother that lives in you and it makes me tear up to see you put that to beautiful use with your sweet boy! Here's to you, sister. 🏾 2w
  •   rebeccacaridad @wildflowertara thank you for all your love and support through out everything! You and @heatherthegray were the first two mamas I wanted to share my news with when I first found out and I am so grateful for you! Love love love to you sister! 2w
  •   rebeccacaridad @wildflowertara oh and duh, happy mamas day, Jude man is one lucky little boy 🏼🏻 2w
  •   modernmaven Thank you dearest lady! This is such a thoughtful message. I am so excited for you to be on this amazing journey of motherhood. Big love and hugs to you 1w

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rebeccacaridad I wasn't the little girl who fantasized about her wedding day or the man of her dreams. I was the girl who dreamt of being a mother, who wondered what kind of parent I would be. When it became clear that wouldn't be as easy as I always expected it would be, it was definitely the hardest thing to come to terms with. It was a disappointment that shook everything, made me question my marriage, my goals, my priorities. Tomorrow I get to celebrate my first Mother's Day because of this little guy and I don't have words to explain how it feels to finally step into this role. Getting older has come with a lot of reality checks for me, coming to terms with all the things I didn't even know I had expectations for not being what I wanted. I had more expectations for what it would look like to become a parent than anything else, I had no idea it would look like this and it is better than I could have ever imagined. Love him #lovingbabyo #fostertoadopt 2w
  •   sugarplusbutter This is all so true and heart warming. You deserve this more than most! 2w
  •   catherinecachia Happy Mother's Day! What a sweet one the first one will be for you. Congrats! 2w
  •   mariaconfer Words so close to my heart! So happy for you! 2w
  •   snotface___ I hope you have a fantastic first Mother's Day @rebeccacaridad thanks for sharing your wonderful journey with us all xxx 2w
  •   suz82179 Ahhhhhhhhh. We are MoMs! 2w
  •   kyra.avb Happiest mother day! congratulations! So happy for you! 2w
  •   fostermoms Word. 2w
  •   sparrowsspatulas Happy, happy, momma's day! Enjoy it fully! 2w

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rebeccacaridad My @jordangraceowens bag was perfect for carrying this little poog around when it started raining today #olivecaridad 2w

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rebeccacaridad Snack with @selkskin 2w

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