msanonymous Me and my bestfriend who have done everything together for as long as I can remember got in a huge fight over the person who made us fight in the past I'm just so pissed off because I've always been there for my bestfriend and now when I'm trying to talk to her it's like she doesn't even listen and it's not the first time this girl has tried to ruin are friendship anyways today I took a shower and just cried I let it all out like I was crying about losing my bestfriend and I was crying about how people have it worse than me and I shouldn't be crying and I was crying about all the people who have committed suicide and sat there and really focused on that one thing because idk why I just always think about myself doing it and how I've even gotten knives and sat in my bathroom crying before but I can never bring myself to do it only because I'm afraid someone will think it's there fault and it would be like passing the pain off to them and I wouldn't want to do that to my mom or dad or sister I wouldn't want to see them go through the pain I used to cut but it was my little secret every time I got into an argument with someone or some stupid little thing I would lock myself in the bathroom and cut myself and the I would just stand there and look in the mirror at me crying another thing I thought about in the shower is my body image I've never been rlly fat but I'm not like the girls at my school who are stick thin the sad part Is whenever I went shopping my mom knew never to ask me to try things on because I didn't like looking in the mirror especially at my thighs o would always have meltdowns and then have to leave the store and while I was in the shower thinking about all this and crying I just wanted to be in warm comfy clothes and have someone hold/hug me I wouldn't have cared who it was I just needed someone to sit there and hold me for a while but no ones that I go home and cry and I don't understand why I'm always so depressed when I have everything I mean I have a nice home I'm pretty popular at school my parents love me i honestly don't know what to do anymore 5d

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msanonymous It's a secret who I am but I decided to make this account to vent about my feelings and for anyone to come here and do the same 5d

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