missaj89 Look what i just found!! One of the first videos i took of baby Marta! I'm tearing up just looking at this.. (and hooray for 2007 cellphone quality..!) 3d

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missaj89 Happy Friday everyone! Raise your hand (or paw) if you gonna sleep all weekend 6d

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missaj89 Fordi, når livet er ekstra sårt, er dette helt lov. Det er faktisk en uskreven regel det! 4w

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missaj89 What anxiety and depression does to you; Steals all your energy, refuse you to sleep, kicks you in your stomach and makes you hyperventilate through several panic attacks. And when you're finally calm again, sadness takes over and fill you with so much self hate, trying to convince you that you deserve to die.
It's been days since i had the strength to even take a shower, just because i'm too exhausted.
The reason i'm posting this shameful rant is because i want to share how it really is, how bad days are. I've often been told to "think positive. Go outside, socialize with people. You're being over dramatic." Or the one that hurts the most; "you've got at least try to work with it/make it better". Like i like to live like this. Like i'm glad i'm wasting my life, and will most likely never have a "normal life".
All i want is to just try to explain this. I'm not lazy, i don't lie on the couch all day sleeping. From the moment i wake up in the morning i start working. And when i finally fall asleep at night, that's when i get off work.
Don't judge me. Because here i am today, alive. And that achievement is something that no one never can take away from me!
Family, friends; Thank you for your patience with me. I love you
1mon

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1mon missaj89
Normal AnnJ .25y. Norway
missaj89 Excuse me you weird creature, but is it possible to ask for some crumbs..? 1mon

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missaj89 A picture that describes my entire weekend!. It's almost a brand new week with a clean slate, and a long and stupid week can finally be put away. It has been a week filled with a lot of pain and hopelessness, with minimal of sleep that has worsened my dissociation. I almost got admitted couple of days ago because I was too sick to be left home alone, but after a few hours at the e.r, i could luckily go home. It scares me more having to go back on the closed ward, than actually having to stand through this. I really want to handle this myself. Working with post traumatic disorder is a shitty job. But for each day i manage to get through, the faster it goes until I can get well and healthy again.
So I'll try to treat you better, new week.
2mon

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2mon missaj89
Normal AnnJ .25y. Norway

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missaj89 Happy new year to all my wonderful followers! Hope you all had a great day yesterday Poor Marta was so anxious and so stressed the hole night because of the firework.. But she's much better now after hours of cuddling How does your dog(s) react to fireworks? 2mon

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missaj89 I can't wait till christmas and new year's eve is over.. not a favourite holiday for my mental health! 2mon

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2mon missaj89
Normal AnnJ .25y. Norway
missaj89 Wish you all a merry christmas! Love from Marta and mommy 2mon

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