merniemern From a moving car, #California in all its unfiltered glory using my #sonya6000 -- getting it real good. #desert #sky #cloudporn 7d

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merniemern Upon meditation and prayer this morning, I asked a question and the thought-answer was presented to me with itself being an example of the answer, as well as presenting another question, which again was the totality of the answer so on, so forth (wow, imagine if I were stoned, right?) Here it is in illustration.
The "question" on the left seeks to align itself with the "expectation" of understanding (or, answer) on the right (the points being a line, both before it and after, you remember geometry, right?). The space of the triangles encompassing the question and expectation are our current understanding (so when we seek to understand, we are seeking within what we already know) The circle, is our potential (a greater understanding is beyond ourselves and what we've already learned). We can expand into the circle which is inclusive of science and theory and spiritual enlightenments, but we can't expand into what is unknown because, hello. It's unknown. Even if we ask God "why?" why, why, why, the answer is the totality of everything and also lives in spaces we don't have the capability of understanding. I might be late to board the train of this understanding, but dang, it was pretty cool to see it all come together in mere seconds.

Anyway, I enjoyed my #coffee and the birds this morning and I am happy. #God is the #AlphaAndOmega #EverPresent #Life and #IAm #Thankful
2w

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merniemern In 5th/6th grade I choreographed and performed dances in my living room, with leaping jumps and awkward bony waist thrusts to your music. You made me feel free.

In highschool, a 17 year old boy and I kissed in his mama's kitchen to "the Beautiful Ones" and I knew he'd be mine forever.

I spent all my money at Tower Records buying all of your tapes. Even the weird ones.

Then, I finally got to see you and feel your music all over me in a private three hour concert and I studied every move you made and your smile imprinted in my heart and I can replay that moment over and over and over again.

I am not sad yet. I am still in denial. Don't you take anything away from me yet ... my #Prince #thedaythemusicdied
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merniemern I love on a scale that uses the tips of my being, my highs are highs and lows are lows--every cell radiates; you are processed in my brain, you are magnified in my sight, you are a victim of receiving everything in one serving, mouthfuls and earfuls and constant explosions of my ever evolving and constant wonderment. I love from the edge of my seat, a rush of an almost continuous falling, an almost ending, an ever expanding universe kind of love and you are strong enough to let me.| the way I #love 3w

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merniemern #midnightblue was my favorite crayon.

I said something very infantile at a recent meeting with a designer and a client. And, the only reason it stuck with me was because I felt awkward when the designer smirked and said, "favorite crayon huh?" I mean, she's a veteran designer who's worked on million dollar homes her whole career and I, I mentioned a crayon!
Anyway, it's part of who I am when I share frivolous information about myself, or make a small joke or give a sincere compliment to someone and it has always made a working environment more pleasant. But, this time I actually felt silly for being so, I don't know, silly. And then I felt like maybe I should shut up. Whether I am likeable or not, whether the experience is personal or not, I get paid the same.
However, what is this thing called life if I can't reach out and touch your soul, -- and give you a piece of mine? #namaste | #words about #life and #crayons (actual #paint swatch photographed and edited)
3w
  •   johannaminassian I think ur comment revealed more about every her desire to elite herself more than anything. I'm surrounded by people who were given million dollar projects to "practice on" to grow their resume. Whether it's real estate, business or start up. Let it go... Be grateful 3w
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  •   merniemern @johannaminassian It was such a small moment and I think it's interesting how **we reveal ourselves with what we notice in others** 3w
  •   merniemern @axmbakes brick red is pretty awesome too 3w

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merniemern Make #art of yourself. Be that #strange thing you know you are.
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"There is no excellent beauty that hath not some strangeness in the proportion." #FrancisBacon quoted several times by #EdgarAllenPoe
4w

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merniemern I love this accidental #photo. It reminds me of the time the #hightide at #ZumaBeach took me under and treated me like a dirty sock in the washing machine. I was tumbling in the water and couldn't find my way up. It was very slow motion and I could hear the ocean, it sounded very much like my own thoughts, and I felt peaceful. I was not near death or anything like that, but my limbs were free and all over the place and the sun was piercing through the water like it was lending me a hand to come up; she knew I was down too long. It happened so long ago, I wonder if I've romanticized the entire thing in my head. Sometimes I wonder if my memories are all that twisted part of me that sees everything beautiful. | #art is what you are willing to see and almost always has a #story -- 🏼️ps, I'd like to give a shout out to the three lifeguards who saved me? #ocean #poetry #writer #words #photography 4w
  •   ness_sita @merniemern that same thing happened to me 25yrs ago when I was 6mos prego, swimming in the ocean, rip current came in and spun me around like that. At the time I did think I was gonna die but after I felt washed by the sea. It was ethereal under those waves. 4w
  •   merniemern @nessa_sita yep, ethereal is a good word for it. I can't believe you were with child! 4w

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merniemern "Irony"
We don't have a lot of photos together at this age. It almost seems like a dream that this kind of love existed. I think I loved him like that for about a year, and then it evolved into different types of love for the next 25 years. | #younglove #throwbackthursday #dreams #words #poet #introspection
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merniemern I have been struggling this year with such confusion about myself --
I have been trying to categorize myself this whole time into something that fits the mold of reaching maturity, peace and success. I have been waiting for the moment where I let go of certain things about myself because it would fit an identify better. I am ridiculous, how could I possibly be serious? I am wild, how can I possibly be spiritual? I am an artist, maybe? Or strategic, or both? I am a mother, but not all the time. I am a writer, or maybe photographer, an entrepreneur or an employee, I am amazing one day and not the other, I am I enlightened, but why then do I ask and continue to ask and ask and ask? And today, God my God, today. Today in the most peculiar way, I trace the words I've heard before, but didn't really take, "I am limitless." It's why I don't quite fit in...
And I can stop trying to find a space for me, and just be. | #words #poet #life #photography #me
1mon
  •   merniemern @thatdudekellz just think about that, no limits. YouTube Jim Carrey's commencement speech at MUM 2014 listen to the whole thing (yes all 26 minutes) -- there's a part he said, "I have no limits" that literally pierced right through me. He was ok with being everything and anything. So powerful. 1mon
  •   merniemern @bruinfoodie so I can be a fool on snapchat AND be philosophical 🏼 and its ok! lol 1mon
  •   bruinfoodie That's right! Be Myrna that's all anyone should get and be happy with! 1mon
  •   thatdudekellz That's awesome Mern....it sounds like a your the embodiment of Whitney Houston's "I'm Every Woman" & I love that....life is to short to be anything less than your true self...whatever that may be...embrace every aspect of the person you are...you are so much more than a title or label....you are & have been a movement of 1 for as long as I've known you! Keep on living in the movement my friend! 1mon

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merniemern You can be a spectator in life, or a participant.

Driving by this building wasn't enough. Seeing the flowering tree against the hardness of the building wasn't enough. I wanted it to be mine, so I took it. And the extra gifts were in everything else I didn't see in the seconds of possessiveness, like the other tree and the tiny sign and the piece of light post and the dark corner, did I take it or did it take me for a ride? My overstimulated senses just become more finely tuned when I am a participant and the gift of every single day with its common things becomes an extravagant day. But also, under this condition, while the joy is true joy, the sadness is real sadness. | #mindful every bit of it is worth it. #life #words #live #photography
1mon

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merniemern I have to kiss the ground to reach the sky--sometimes I find I'm too weak to get back up with bright eyes, so I pray for anything, and time flys while my head is low, God I try, and in the clouds above me, no dry eye when it rains it pours--fire--Mt Sinai, I seek your commandments to stay right -- but damn how much can I take, before I break, my neck hurts for Christ's sake, and I'm a believer but the world 's a deceiver and I seek my reliever cause I'm catching a fever and I bet you didn't know I could flow. Well now you know 🏼️ | this #photo is called "Half a Prayer" | #conceptualphotography #halfarhyme #blackandwhitephotography #tattoo #photography #words #faith --------------------------"I'm a #artist and I'm sensitive about my shit." @erykahbadu #erykahbadu 2mon

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merniemern Eggshell Life | Walking on eggshells through life, making sure not to upset a sleeping giant, makes an otherwise beautiful day look like this. It's getting real easy to prance on a tight rope. #words #life #conceptualphotography 2mon

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merniemern #Hiding | #conceptualphotography #photography I've had this dresser since I was 5 years old. Sometimes, when I'm overwhelmed, I hide in my shell because I'm also a #cancerian, so I find comfort in home. I spend time with myself and center the chaos until it becomes small and I can take control of it again. I find that being introspective helps me connect my innermost vulnerabilities with particular things happening in life because once it makes sense, I can help myself. I also think that because I'm honest with myself about my own feelings, I can connect with people on a deeper level, maybe because I can shortcut right into their own vulnerable areas. It's a powerful thing that I only exercise with complete #love and #empathy-- and, if they let me in.
I've been looking at photography lately with a conceptual eye, and it's become as important to me as my writings. | #writer #poet #art
2mon

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merniemern How freeing is this? How liberating, how bold and crisp and good--and sadly, how have I never thought this before. | #internationalwomensday #prettyhurts 2mon

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merniemern she was called to a room
by its grandeur and opportunity
and she ran to it, her hair flowing freely.
she danced in it feeling light
like a ribbon and she noticed
ballet shoes on her feet.
she danced as if in the arms
of a whirlwind,
and she noticed the children watched.
the littlest one twirled around just once
but remembered she didn't even walk--
silver shone brightly on the edges
of sharp things
brought in by the ancients,
an initial fear struck the heart--
but a saved one's testimonial,
long hair, tight red skin native chief
cried out with thanksgiving, it is God who did this for me! And I
cried with him. thank you, thank you
thank you.
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I have vivid #dreams and wondered if I could write them as #poetry. This is rough and unedited because I wanted to #write before it slipped away. #expression #art #ancient #words #symbols #life #spirit #dream (tiny editing in progress, dash here, period there) do you read my posts or just like my pic?
2mon

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merniemern the pain seduces me
to call it names like
Electric.
it carves into my bones
its real name
that I refuse to pronounce.

I will shed this body anyway
to which it is attached,
and my real name,
which is said without sound,
will float freely in the wind.
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although we were all created with imperfections, some burdens are deep and hidden. be kind today, choose healing words, be the love that flows, and fills and rests in the crevices of broken things. | #healing #words #love #poet #IAm #poetry
2mon

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merniemern I am fortunate to have experienced excessive pleasures and ideas-- . you will say this and that about me .

I've run and intentionally pushed myself through walls I don't belong in,

you don't get to say who I am. #words ------------------------------------------------
there are some people who embrace your #crazy. hang with those people. #love you Romsicles @darpaisano
2mon

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