meredithadelaide we are golden, and we've got to get ourselves back to the garden

Never would have guessed where the thought path of this series would lead--I still think there are a few more things to explore before I wrap it up. This photo was inspired by a recent conversation on one of the other photos. As always, feel free to join in the discussion!

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  •   meredithadelaide @findyara oh my gosh I totally felt that same way! I couldn't even look at myself nude until sometime the year before last...I've been kind of forcing myself to do this as a kind of therapy. Keep going, even if you have to take photos of yourself while hiding--be true to how you're feeling and remember that you're always in control. I'm really excited for you :) 9h
  •   findyara @meredithadelaide thank you for taking the time to talk to me! And for all the advice. 9h
  •   meredithadelaide @findyara well thank you <3 keep in touch 9h
  •   avaluna_22 Great picture 9h
  •   stefaniabarr You have an incredible talent. Photographing a naked, female body in a completely non-objectified, artistic, human way... Vulnerable but powerful at the same time. Not showing a face, but showing a person and emotion, nonetheless. This series has been very thought provoking...very surrealistic. The censorship is a really interesting thing...without that one little detail, all of a sudden the photo doesn't seem "dirty" or sexual. It makes me realize the perception I have of the female body (including my own). How unfortunate that our culture trains us that our bodies are "bad" or "wrong." How unfortunate that so many images of women's bodies ARE objectifying and don't show people, but, rather, show parts... Very inspiring work. Thank you for sharing. 8h
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  •   meredithadelaide @stefaniabarr thank you for your thoughts! Do you mind sharing your realized perceptions here about the female form and of your own? Also, in what ways have you found the feelings of having our bodies be considered "dirty," "wrong," and "bad"? To reach further, I'm also curious to know whether you feel it's simple to discern what types of images are objectifying versus those that are not. 2h
  •   cereaza Wait... Where's the belly button? Did it do something wrong? 1h

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meredithadelaide the cycle of control within limitations

I'll be writing about my thoughts on censorship on my site once this series is finished. Can't wait to share what I'm discovering--this topic in particular has more layers than I initially thought.

I want these posts to start conversations, so please feel free to share your own thoughts, or if you're more private (like me) don't hesitate to get in touch. I don't say thank you enough to everyone who chooses to participate (silently or otherwise), so: thank you for being here.

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  •   ronaso Adam and Eve covered their privates out of shame after they've sinned. Before that, they were perfectly fine being butt-naked, and basked in its perfection. I'm not religious, btw. It seems like if we're committing a sexual act out of lust, we are sinning and therefore should be shameful. That implies these body parts have their specified purposes, namely reproduction. 3d
  •   ronaso So if in a photo, a breast-feeding woman's nipple is exposed, is that more acceptable? 3d
  •   meredithadelaide @ronaso I've had to re-train myself to not feel uncomfortable looking at nudes or intimate moments in front of others (censored or otherwise), but I wonder why I felt uncomfortable in the first place? I'm not sure I agree that it's hardwired. I think outside influence plays a rather big role. I think having things withheld creates a natural desire to go towards them, but in the case of nudity, I'm fundamentally at a loss--the parts of us we did not ask for but were given are the things we are suggested to hide. Even showing my own body has been a huge step, but I don't think that choice should be difficult because of censorship. It makes me wonder why not censor our eyes? Our voices? Our thoughts? Truly those are more threatening, intimate, and/or sacred than a nipple or genital. Truly the "privates" should have to do with our own individuality and not our physical appearance.

    And that's not even getting into photos or other depictions of these parts in artistic vs. objectifying approaches...so, to ask many questions all at once, why are we spending time hiding, and quite poorly so, the nipple and the butt crack and the penis and etc. and why does this continue on and on? 3d
  •   ronaso That's exactly what I mean! Why is it our natural inclination to shy away from intimacy or sex? What is motivating that? Shame?. 3d
  •   meredithadelaide @ronaso and what I mean is--I don't think it's our natural inclination 3d
  •   ronaso beautiful photograph, by the way. I really liked this. 3d
  •   ronaso I kept trying to respond, but I think my message is too long. I'll email you I supposed. 3d
  •   jpinthedarkroom this entire series is amazing and inspiring. 10h

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meredithadelaide raised with rules to play in

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meredithadelaide the threat of intimacy

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meredithadelaide what's a game, girl, if you never lose

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meredithadelaide we can all feel it, we can all feel it, we can all feel it

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  •   meredithadelaide @kogoeruyoru for why I do everything: to talk about it 5d
  •   kogoeruyoru In my opinion, a bare chested woman can be a sexy yet simultaneously earthy and ethereal thing. To remove the nipples seems to throw an odd, unnatural aspect into the photo, and I don't find it thought-provoking or interesting. It merely seems like your nipples are gone. Is that what you were aiming for or are you just trying to circumnavigate censorship? 5d
  •   kogoeruyoru @meredithadelaide Then talk. 5d
  •   meredithadelaide @kogoeruyoru I agree--we can be sexy and earthy and ethereal without nipples, but with this photo in particular that's not what I was going for. Most all of my self work stems from a mood I feel about something--in this case, censorship is the topic, and circumnavigating that is actually required to release it on this platform. But--at the same time, I actually *want* to censor myself. I've chosen not to reveal the part of me that other's would choose to simply draw a line over. I'd be interested to hear what your opinions are of the others I've chosen to show, as I began by presenting the topic and now am working in real-time to discover my own opinions about myself and this minute issue. Thank you for sharing your thoughts--I really appreciate it. 5d
  •   rawgrain Great shadow work . Personally I like to see the female form with all its beauty intact. Lovely images but I think the censoring of the nipple can detract from the total. Hope that makes sense 3d
  •   meredithadelaide @rawgrain it does make sense, thank you for sharing. Glad I got you talking because I agree, censoring the nipple can indeed detract from the original image. Though, in this case, the censoring was intentional. 3d

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meredithadelaide "...make a poem that does not disturb the silence from which it came." from "How To Be a Poet" by Wendell Berry

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meredithadelaide could be the last of me this time

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meredithadelaide see you on the other side

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meredithadelaide is this trust?

@ryanmuirhead and I found and entered a very short and intense shift of energy in this kitchen. The mood pulled me so quickly from jovial to suddenly having tears in my eyes. I've no clue what it was, but it was there, and it held.
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meredithadelaide Back to Portland on Monday. I've a few open dates for shoots and/or meetings, but otherwise: holy crap it's the holidays already!

Photo from when I was making self portraits, shot by @ryanmuirhead at the sou'wester #wormshromp
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meredithadelaide I think it's time to admit I've too much hair

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meredithadelaide When my friend @thedavidkeller photographed me in @dannijo last winter after those huge snow storms. Brr!! There was snow on still cars on my walk home last night, and everything was quiet. I'm still in awe of this whole place. 2w

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meredithadelaide taught myself to see, now show it to me

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meredithadelaide from beneath you, it devours

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meredithadelaide I'm reaching out to jewelry designers who might match my aesthetic to create images for, using my self portraiture to interpret their work. I would like to ask you, my dear followers: Are there any on your radars you feel may fit? Anyone you really adore that I should look up?

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meredithadelaide Myself, the form, and you, the function

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meredithadelaide changing shapes, in the bend of your arm

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meredithadelaide and when you found me

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