marcusleepowers Ten years ago, when my dad died, I slowly but surely formed a fear of heights. Bridges terrify me, and I can hardly look out the window when I fly.
After my mom died, I went through a series of emotions at a rapid clip. Friday, it was shock. Saturday, overwhelming sadness and guilt. Sunday, a bit of numbness with a longing to go home and get back to a routine. Monday, at my mom's service, a bit of grief but mostly relief. Yesterday was the first day I felt any sense of normalcy. Last night, I got the first full night of sleep I've had in a week.
Today, as I was flying home four days and a death later than I had expected, I found myself staring out the window complacently, just sort of staring at the clouds. It hit me suddenly that I didn't have that normal fear of being so high up, above the clouds, with nothing below me but air.
Maybe I'm just so ready to be home, the heights just aren't phasing me. Maybe I'm just so exhausted that it didn't occur to me to be scared. Or maybe it's something more than that. I don't know if my fear of heights is gone (I doubt it), but I still think there's a certain sense of cyclical poetry about that moment.
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marcusleepowers When life hands you lemons... ride roller coasters.
Or something like that.
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marcusleepowers Godspeed, Mom. Tell Dad I said hello. I love you both. Always have, always will. 6d

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marcusleepowers The @haymerchant Monday TV dinner was everything I wanted and more. Smothered pork chops, baked beans, cucumber-tomato salad, cornbread, and peach cobbler?! I'm in made-by-grandma heaven. #Houston #HoustonFood 1w

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marcusleepowers I mean... who cheats on Beyoncé?! #Lemonade 🍋 2w

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marcusleepowers When work has a black tie gala. 3w

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marcusleepowers Celebrating @spahouston at our gala. Fancy AF. 3w

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marcusleepowers So these two may not be biological siblings, but they're adopted siblings. And they act like every other brother and sister I've ever known. Plus, they're insanely adorable and bring their dads lots of joy every day. #NationalSiblingsDay #Cats #GraceAndTheo 4w

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  •   lmoore281 That's the most Houston thing I've ever seen. 4w

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marcusleepowers Kite festival + 72 degrees = excellent Sunday. 1mon

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marcusleepowers Grapefruit La Croix, bread, prepared salads, wine, and a copy of @bonappetitmag. Either that's a yuppie's basic Whole Foods trip or the makings of a fine Sunday picnic at @hermannpark. Or both. 1mon
  •   bekahmax @marcusleepowers how do you like the Grapefruit La Croix?? I love coconut and orange but haven't tried that one yet! 1mon
  •   marcusleepowers @bekahmax It's delicious. I don't even really like grapefruit itself, but this is delicious! 1mon
  •   erynsoup I recommend adding tequila or vodka and a big ole squeeze of lime 1mon
  •   marcusleepowers @erynsoup We did Hendrick's gin today. Delightful. 1mon

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marcusleepowers Butter chicken kolache and madras coffee. 🏼 Saturday. 2mon

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marcusleepowers #TBT to Monday at Paulie's, where I was all "IDGAF about your rules. I'm drinking my rosé wine with a straw." 2mon

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marcusleepowers I'm a bluebonnet-pickin' rebel. 2mon

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marcusleepowers Stop it.
It's too early.
I can't handle the cute.
2mon

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