kellyportnoy $15 and two boxes later I'm a shiny brunette again. Bye 🏼 years of bayalage colors. Also my consignment store steal! Brand new, tags on $126, Ralph Lauren jacket I got for free with my store credit. This is business Kelly and she means business.
So here's the thing, if you click to read more on this caption you will realize why I'm posting this photo. You also feel the dilemma of choice whether you want to take the time to read this long caption. Undoubtedly, this completely superficial photo will get double to triple the likes to my photo yesterday (20 likes)This photo that speaks nothing of my true heart and eternal soul will be peppered with nice comments about my appearance and perhaps inquiring about hair color used. That's how we like our social media. Light and easy. Don't make me slow my scrolling and dear God don't make me think or feel.
Yesterday's post was raw and honest about the ugly parts of my inner self. The parts where we connect as humans and lift one another up with words that bring life to souls. That's where true community is forged. By linking arms in our brokenness and running hard after our healer and perfector of our faith. That's life on the vine together. Ryan and I always sadly chuckle any time I dare post something "deeper". Always I lose a chunk of followers and crickets in the form of "no likes" happen.
I marvel. Did I make you uncomfortable?
I truly could care less about likes or followers. God determines our spheres of influence and it is His name I want to make famous in my life time. My feelings are not hurt In the least. I think I just get so sad how much we crave the comfort of being voyeurs into the superficial parts of others lives and tip toe awkwardly away from anything that is soul refining. Can we not get our hands dirty together?
Maybe it's the fact I'm a couple months from 40 and I feel a restlessness to stop playing around. You've been warned.
*everyone is throwing my count off on yesterday's photo now by liking it It was 20 likes when I made this post. Don't ruin my point people! )
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  •   sarahalden80 Broken down porch but also... Hair goals. I'm with ya. Keep sharing 'cause you are probably the most honest, relatable person I follow on social media and I appreciate you! 13h
  •   jocelynmurphy Girl 🏼 preach. 13h
  •   hmcheatham Truth. 12h
  •   mom_to_jthegreat @kellyportnoy can you share with me more about the ifgathering you mentioned in a previous post? 12h
  •   dikolabragg Yes to the hair...the RL jacket....you know that's my designer favorite...and have kinda seen that same point as I use instagram more. So...heart my superficial side...and read my short but meaningful post. I gotta message for ya:) I love your love for our Savior! 11h
  •   sarahetorrence I only like your photos when you look pretty and/or you use under 5 words to describe it. #drawbacksofasuperficialandaddfriend 11h
  •   75nathans You will no doubt crush 40, then 41, and so forth. 8h
  •   crystalbjones The long ones are my favourite, to be honest. Because I don't have time to keep up with actual blogs! 5h

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kellyportnoy The undone places of our home feel like a constant metaphor for my spiritual walk with my gracious Lord.
There are days I obsess over the torn up laundry room floor that we don't have finances to replace. Six months of walking through it dozens of times a day. You know....the room I have in my house solely dedicated for laundry. Or the fact our porch is slowly falling apart with missing railings and rungs, mold taking over and the stain chipping up. I sit on my wrap-around porch and sigh at when and how are we ever going to afford to fix it.
Both of those spaces are pure luxuries and I can hardly discipline my mind to enjoy what the MAJORITY of the world wouldn't even dare dream of owning. A laundry room or a porch. I know better. I know the statistics on poverty. I feel the poverty of my own soul in those moments.
I've been humbly reminded this morning in my quiet time how I obsess over my flaws and shortcomings. I miss the sheer luxury of being the daughter of the King. I grow defeated and glance at my spiritual weapons I am commanded to gird myself with against the enemy, and shrug them off. What's the point? I roll out the red carpet for the enemy to take me deeper into self analysis, discontentment, resentment, self pity...all the usual suspects.
Today I was struck by the familiar passage of Ephesians 3:16-19 in a fresh, almost ️bolt sort of way. Like a Beautiful Mind moment where words start jumping off the pages alive with thumping heart beats "rooted and grounded", "power through HIS spirit", "wide, long, deep, high is His love", and "to KNOW THIS LOVE that SURPASSES KNOWLEDGE-that you may be FILLED to the measure of ALL the FULLNESS of GOD"
Filled with God in perfect love. Love beyond what I can comprehend. Without end. Without needing to meet a criteria first. The torn up floor of my heart is welcome in the kingdom to receive this love simply because He mysteriously wants MY heart.
Nothing earth shattering about this post. Maybe someone needs to be reminded, like me, that you can not use up bottomless love, outrun His mercy, not be granted use of all spiritual weapons or have the Indwelling Christ deny you His grace. #cometothestillwatersanddrink
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  •   kkstrandinteriors @kellyportnoy I love to watch the Holy Spirit do his thing. He's working within you, girl! 1d
  •   kellyportnoy Thank you @erob77 for connecting @kkstrandinteriors and myself! These are always my least "popular" posts which both sadden and perplex me. People throw their "likes" around on superficial crap like they are getting paid but whoa to you if you write from the heat or use Jesus name too much. It's hard to stop your scrolling and reading when someone opens up apparently. I always appreciate those that take the time to read and you are one of those that do that. AND you encourage and connect. I like your soul Elisabeth! It's a purdy one. 18h
  •   skippertribe Love love love this @kellyportnoy thanks for being vulnerable. 14h
  •   hollister82 I needed to be reminded. It was for me and my torn up floor of my heart. 13h
  •   cgilbreath Beautiful---You always speak right to me, friend! 13h
  •   pruethegoodtwin Crickets? Here's a cricket bat and ball for you. ;-) 🏏 13h
  •   kkstrandinteriors @kellyportnoy you are so right on so many levels. If I mention Jesus in a post, I lose followers and my likes plummet. Then I remind myself that God likes me and I don't need those silly likes. And, @erob77 has the prettiest soul. You are correct! 12h
  •   jldnickerson I missed this post. So true! We have a bunch of holes in the ceiling, sub floor in the bathroom & lots of patchwork that all need to be fixed. I have to constantly remind myself how blessed we truly are and maybe one day they will get fixed. 10h

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kellyportnoy Favorite day of the week! I ️ Indeed my soul is singing in praise of my mighty God. Blessed assurance JESUS IS MINE! 2d

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kellyportnoy IF: Rustburg, Virginia in full swing! Five decades, four different churches, strangers become soul sisters all crammed in my living room. Going before the throne room together to learn what it is to truly live like Jesus. Grateful for this precious weekend. #ifgathering2016 #rustburgvirginia 4d

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kellyportnoy In honor or @ifgathering kicking off tonight (please register for the live simulcast today!) I'm remembering one of my most favorite, unexpected moments when we ran into @annvoskamp behind the convention center in Austin and in a twist of fate I got to lay hands on her and pray for her! 🤗🏽. Such an honor. So excited to gather with a very diverse group of women this weekend crammed into my living room from many different churches, life stages and experiences. Beautiful picture of sisterhood in the body. #ifgathering2016 #RustburgVirginia 5d

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kellyportnoy Oh Virginia! You fickle weather beast. 65 degrees today the week after a snow storm. Who can keep up with you? This kid is addicted to shorts so any excuse to put them on and play...done! #virginiawinterfashion 1w
  •   honeyhushfarm Right??? I'm all in for the shorts & snow boots style 1w

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kellyportnoy Flipped the calendar today to see my little baby turns 5 next week. FIVE!!! Man it just gets better and better!
There is so much sweetness with the little squishy stages but I love how much fun we are having and the conversation depth happening now that they are all getting older.
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  •   aimeeblanks So handsome 1w
  •   britt.coop.port Awesome picture of that handsome boy! 1w
  •   cgilbreath My goodness he's a cute one 1w
  •   thetwizzler22 Is this a current pic? He looks so young and squeezable!! 1w
  •   kellyportnoy It's fromAugust so not super recent but not that long ago!! He's really small for my kids. 30th for height and 20th for weight. It makes him seem younger than he is. He's very squishable still @thetwizzler22 1w
  •   thetwizzler22 Well he's adorable!! 1w
  •   kellyportnoy I agree @thetwizzler22 he's gonna seem huge to you this summer seeing as he had just turned three when you left! Hope looked a million years older to me this summer and that's after 1.5 years away. Can not wait to see you all the summer!!!! 1w
  •   kristie922 That face and those cheeks and dimples!!!!! Wow, already 5?!?!? Cant wait to squeeze him!! 1w

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kellyportnoy Bennett went to the best bday party at #snowflex First time snowboarding and he did great. I literally think he strutted in like a peacock he was so proud of himself and so full of joy.
It's really some of the sweetest moments of parenthood when your children feel so fulfilled. Bennett loves sports and trying new things even though he's shy and quiet. Makes me tear up.
I don't want to over spiritualize things but God does Indwell every part of our lives. There are thing that make us uniquely ourselves. Talents, abilities from the Father who gives good things. When we have moments that we are using those gifts or abilities I believe it gives God pleasure just like we feel such soul satisfaction.
Bennett gets in trouble A LOT. It breaks my heart that he chooses so poorly, so often and without regard. It does my heart so much good to feel tender joy at his satisfaction from learning a new sport.
And that's the ying and yang of parenthood. Hair pulling frustration and soul exploding joy that God chose that child and their precious heart for you to raise. : Gretchen Cook
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kellyportnoy Cancelled bball game means a Saturday morning home!
Gave myself permission to flip through a magazine over a billion cups of coffee this morning. ️ In my five years of having a @countrylivingmag subscription this HAS to be their best issue ever! March "makeover" issue. Also @nick.offermam contributing a column is a cherry on top #parksandrecforever
My brain is clicking with ideas. 🤔it's fun to dream and scheme.
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kellyportnoy Rhett's first time giving valentines and he is taking it very seriously. It has been a slow and adorable process of him explaining why "so and so" is going to LOOOOVE the animal he chose for them. He doesn't lack in confidence. Ever. 2w

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kellyportnoy I am feeling a bit paralyzed by fear as @the_good_story moves forward at a steady and beautiful clip.
I just want to run away and work for an employer with a predictable job description, benefits, and blame anybody but myself if I don't like how my day went. Aren't coworkers and bosses the best scapegoat if we weren't "happy" that day?

It is astounding the amount of energy, time and thought it takes to build something ground up. It's not even our first time being entrepreneurial but this is different, this is a burden so dead center on my chest I know I couldn't possibly chose a different life. We were called to start @the_good_story
This is what we were made for. But fear keeps breathing it's hot, lying air on my neck and the tears are falling hot and fast.
Let these pearls of wisdom bring water to your soul from this pillar of the faith, Corrie Ten Boom She is speaking to my weariness today:
*Never be afraid to trust an unknown future to a known God
*Worry does not empty tomorrow of its sorrow; it empties today of its strength
*its not my ability, but my response to Gods ability that counts
And so I will keep laying down these fears before my Father as I work today. Praise music on, breath prayers as my inhale and my exhale and letting God hold me a little tighter today.
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  •   chrissy_mascaramission Amen amen amen. Love this, Kelly. Thanks for being so transparent. 2w
  •   skippertribe This speaks so much to me right now @kellyportnoy. BJ and I have a vision and God keeps taking people from it and it's terrifying the crap out of me. But BJ said he feels like Gideon, numbers being whittled down so all will know who did it. Praying the same for you, friend!!! So excited for you and Ryan and how God is using you. 2w
  •   skippertribe And the heart of @the_good_story it's really amazing 2w
  •   leenjean Needed to see this today. 🏼🏼🏼 2w
  •   rachelmahan Thank you for sharing. It's hard to move sometimes! God is weaving together a theme of encouragement today through friends on Insta like you & @worship_artist right when I need it. 🏻 2w

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kellyportnoy Remember that one time we were in #budapest and leaving that castle and there was a guy playing a didgeridoo, drum and cymbal? Remember? Yea...that was real.
We were given one six hour block of free time and we logged almost 7 miles trying to see everything we could. Budapest is in my top three cities ever visited. Complex, historical, beautiful and desperately needing Jesus. @the_good_story
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kellyportnoy Rhett Portnoy...impressing ladies with his dimples, charm and feats of strength since 2011. This boy is 2w
  •   jldnickerson He looks so big here! 2w
  •   kellyportnoy @jldnickerson nope he's actually a shorty but he has HUGE feet! One size shoe difference from Bennett and they are three years apart! He may be our dark horse for tall but for now he is 30th percentile 2w
  •   jldnickerson That's tall for us! Ha! Our boys are only in the 10th! 2w

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kellyportnoy Real camera equals better moments I'm convinced. I've gotten so lazy about shooting our family just being our family. Not today.
These two horsing around endlessly after sledding. Double scoop of love
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kellyportnoy We be survivin'! Questionable hygiene️house looks like a Goodwill drop off center️kids fighting on and off and talking much too loudly for my delicate ears️ already caved to watch a movie️ brewing second pot of coffee️snow clothes in the dryer so we can shove them out the door again️ hot lunch in their bellies(go me)️ first half of the day done️still love each other #jonas 3w

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kellyportnoy #jonas ....bringing families together in joy and harmony
1- I have strep throat
2- Bennett has an ear infection
3- Rhett is on day 8 of nasty cough
BUT WERE TOGETHER IN OUR MISERY!!! @ryanportnoy definitely at hero status taking care of us all. It's going to be a long, no doubt fun and equal parts tough, snowy weekend. Three cheers for amoxicillin, Tylenol and a gas fireplace!! ️🖥🛌
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  •   dustmadebeautiful @kellyportnoy laughing (probably ) way too much at this!! Oh my goodness! That's not the ideal "together-ness", is it?! But, I sure appreciate your sense of humor3w
  •   dustmadebeautiful @kellyportnoy btw...do you know Dave & Katrina?! 3w
  •   kellyportnoy @dustmadebeautiful sure do, they were one of the first weddings we ever shot many many years ago when we were getting started. Not our finest work but a sweet couple 3w
  •   dustinheigh We're with you. We've been sick ever since we moved. Spent 3 hours in the ER last night for a whole lot of nothin'. Bronchitis, influenza, lung infections, AWESOME!! 3w
  •   dustmadebeautiful @kellyportnoy really?! I've seen those photos Here's a fun bit of trivia: we used to live in Lynchburg (for 7 years), we met @katrinamarple at church (she was an LU student) and we quickly "adopted" her! She was part best-babysitter-in-the-world (we had 3 little ones at the time) and part adopted-sister3w

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kellyportnoy This morning is one of those days I sit smack dab between the tension of self and motherhood.
This year Rhett is in pre-k two days a week. Twelve whole hours to be home by myself.
If I'm honest, it feels like the lottery most days after almost a decade being home with kids seven days a week. An extra spring is in my step on a Tuesday or Thursday morning knowing for six hours I can structure my day, to do list, work on @the_good_story whatever I darn well please. I can say YES to coffee dates, mill around a consignment store lost in my own thoughts, read for an hour or just clean our house uninterrupted listening to sermons or dance music. However the wind blows... But whoa to me when a child is sick on one of MY days alone. I can't believe the petty anger that bubbles up in me. I wrestle with such guilt at my resentment as I watch my agenda slip though my fingertips in this forced yielding to a completely different one. It's like someone kicked over my block tower.
After almost forty years of being an introspective introvert I have a pretty good grasp on who I am. Being alone refreshes me in a way I can't explain. I have felt like a much better mom this year in the patience department. My hygiene and home cooked meals are at an all time high (can I get an amen @ryanportnoy )
I guess what I'm trying to say is I don't need to feel guilty that I don't slide down rainbows everyday of motherhood loving every second of being with my kids. I love and admire my friends who thrive on being with kids all day and invite my kids over to do fun things with them. My parenting strengths excel in other areas. This year has restored so much balance in my heart having some daytime margin away from my kids.
My anger isn't at Rhett for being sick it is that I have to be more creative to let my soul reset with the Lord in the midst of not being alone. The Lord is gracious and I'm learning to be the same way...towards myself and my children. #allthemomhashtags
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  •   chrissy_mascaramission Oh man do I get this. For me, I still have Maggie home but it feels close to being alone when Jane is in school. Babaha! And she is sick so often these days that I get so upset when I'm trapped inside for days on end. I feel suffocated. I am outgoing but the older I get, the more I realize that I crave alone time to rejuvenate. It's ok. And it's ok to feel overwhelmed when you don't get that me time. But the Lord is gracious and when we are willing to self reflect, we learn so much about ourselves in these times. Love your transparency friend. Miss you. Mommy hugs! 3w
  •   mollymari Mmmmm, mmmm, mmmm 🏼 3w
  •   fourmylovelies I get you. This is the story of #infjmotherhood in my experience... Love your rugged honesty. Praying you find peace as you "reset" AND that your sick one recovers quickly! 3w
  •   dustmadebeautiful @kellyportnoy i felt this EXACT way last week with 2 sick kids (while my husband was out of town, of course ) honest, candid, and lovely ️ the words "poured out as a drink offering" came to mind as i was reading your words, but then God also reminded me of these words: “...God’s love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us.” (Romans 5:5) 3w
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  •   kellyportnoy @dustmadebeautiful and @fourmylovelies Totally an INFJ thing and it's freeing to know and understand it's not that you are trying to escape your life (sometimes perhaps) but it's to restore balance and order in your mind and heart to be much more present and able to serve WELL in the kingdom and not keep puttering through on fumes. A full tank and full heart go a long way to filling others tanks and hearts with joy and abundance!! 3w
  •   lauren.m.hayden Thanks for sharing this Kelly. I'm pretty sure I'm an introvert too, and I really like your perspective and honesty. 3w

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kellyportnoy #tbt #1994 Cruise Edition take two.
I personally like how I still tried to wear my cover girl pressed powder over my sunburn that is clearly two shades too light.
Also over my dead body am I wearing that pirates hat over my perfectly teased bangs.
Dad was ahead of the #harrypotter glasses curve. Overall we look thrilled to participate in this cruise dinner tradition. ☠#wesweptthe90s #upstateNYrepresent
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  •   ypcouch Teased high & hair sprayed to perfection 4w
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  •   allisonrhodesmorgan I still wear Cover Girl, Classic Ivory. Promise you'll tell me if it looks too light?! 😬 4w
  •   rhughes1234 So many things I love about this! 4w
  •   kristie922 "We did it K, we did it🏽🏽🏼"-Steve from Virginia. Wow oh wow...those bangs and those hats. Always classy those Hemeons. 4w

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kellyportnoy JCrew clearance store for the win today! Scored this collarless Madewell chambray shirt for $10 and my super fun neon orange JCrew necklace will be on heavy rotation. Huge red tag section happening (additional 50% off) 30% off everything else in the store. Yea for random drop in today. #givemeallthediscounts 4w
  •   tenderbranch Cute!!!! 4w
  •   tayhungerford Why did I move!!!!!! 4w
  •   luvasos3 It must be nice to enjoy spur of the moment shopping without your toddlers running around the store and people giving you a weird look as they ask "is this your baby?" 4w
  •   kellyportnoy @luvasos3 well I did have my youngest in tow but he's almost five so much easier stage to show with. Believe me he was playing hide-n-seek in all the racks probably annoying other shoppers but whatever. I still shopped! 4w
  •   sweetlavenderbakeshoppe Love it 4w

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kellyportnoy This kid is addicted to Uno. Warning: He will stab you in the back with a draw four , all with a smile on his face and evil laugh, before you can take a swig of coffee. I have to put in at least 30 mins a day #overit #ruthless #cardshark #betterthancandyland #onedayitwillbecatan 4w
  •   johnnbarrick @kellyportnoy My boys are addicted to Avengers Uno and they definitely show no mercy. It's kind of the same as regular uno except you can block draw 4s and draw 2s. And the looks on their faces when they think they got you but then you block them is priceless! 4w
  •   laurynegalloway Has he ever played mexican train dominoes? Reminds me a lot of uno! 4w
  •   kellyportnoy @johnnbarrick sorry for lake response time. Ok that version sounds awesome. His bday is in a few weeks so I'm going to keep my eyeballs peeled!! 2w

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