Willow Jennifer Michelle Tanner-Ciani
jenniferciani My whole world & all I ever need Moments like this make life worth living #daddyandmadisyn 1d

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Willow Jennifer Michelle Tanner-Ciani
jenniferciani Another day... another transfusion #bloodtransfusion #irontransfusion 1d

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jenniferciani This is one of my favorite pictures of my beautiful Momma So full of happiness, so full of life. I miss her so much. #myangel #angelmom #missingyou #rememberingmomma 1w

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jenniferciani What support & love truly looks like 1w

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Video Jennifer Michelle Tanner-Ciani
jenniferciani Her facial expressions get me every time 1w

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jenniferciani This girl & her ABC's 1w

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jenniferciani Most days, I try to stay positive. I try to not compare my struggles to others, because it could always be worse. I try to be thankful and grateful for all that I have. I try to believe that all of this will pass... but somedays are harder than others. It's hard to accept that your body isn't capable of doing what other's bodies can do. It's hard to accept that you may have to give up a dream you have had since you were a little girl, just to make yourself healthy. Most of my days consist of pain, sickness and dictated by an illness that doctors cannot seem to understand and I still don't have full answers for. It seems that with every new avenue tried, a failure shortly follows and I am back to square 1. One of the only options left is a big decision. One that could change my life forever. Being so far away, having no friends and family near, having a husband always away has not been easy and has left me feeling isolated. I try to see the light at the end of the tunnel, but today is hard one. How do you know which decision to take? Do you take the risk and put your own health in jeopardy to possibly fulfill your dream of carrying a baby or do you start accepting that the only way to hopefully be healthy and "normal" again is to let that dream go?... 2w
  •   junkstyledesign Keep the faith... 2w
  •   uglysofa Hang in there. I understand. 2w
  •   suedukehayman I'm sorry for your health issues. Prayers for peace, good health, contentment and joy. 2w
  •   shellaned Praying for you 2w
  •   shiningstarsboutique Thinking of you and sending prayers!! 2w
  •   tcfenton Thinking of you and sending lots of love and prayers your way! 2w
  •   pretty_lil_diaries I have chronic debilitating invisible illness. I completely understand. I only have one child and am thankful I was fortunate enough to have him. If you have an opportunity to be normal! I'd take it! I didn't get an option and am ill for life. Take care! 2w
  •   proverbs31rhoda I was presented with a situation where carrying another child could cause death for me and baby. My heart screamed to push against what the doctor recommended, but my husband finally made the decision stating he needed me more than risking death for another life. He needed me to be able to be a mother to our children and not risk all that. He told me God has more than one option in growing me as a mama. Lord bless you in your trial and keep your heart open to all you cannot see. He is with you. 2w

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jenniferciani Our weekly Sunday afternoon at the park 2w
  •   kim9610 Looks like a beautiful park! 2d

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jenniferciani Valentine's Surprise for my little valentine 2w

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jenniferciani Camping out in the living room movie night @sugarshacksteepees #sugarshackteepees 2w

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jenniferciani No store bought Valentine's over here... Maddie Grace said to me "Mama, I make pretty cards for all my friends at school." I then asked "You don't want to buy "let it go" ones from the store?" She then replied, "No Mama. I make dem cuz they special. I love my friends at school." 👭👬 #heartmelted #mysweetgirl #proudmommy 2w

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Willow Jennifer Michelle Tanner-Ciani
jenniferciani I went from refusing to ever take any medication, even for a headache, to now THIS being my daily routine... and there will be even more to come once the fertility medications start. Headed back to the doctor again this morning for an emergency visit due to further complications. It's hard to wrap your head around the idea that you may never have a "normal" life again. It's hard to accept that this is my new "normal". From here forward, my life will consist of testing, monitoring, doctors visits, OBGYN appointments and seeing fertility specialists. Without medication my body is unable to do what a "normal" body does. My thoughts and suspicions were validated with my diagnosis & the possibility of another baby is highly unlikely (although I will continue to pray) if at all possible. I am hoping to one day feel at peace with this diagnosis and to be able to live a "normal" life without being controlled by the symptoms of this disease... 4w
  •   hambyhomedecor Sending prayers your way of peace and healing 4w
  •   costreko Sending prayers. 4w
  •   zazzhole Thoughts and prayers your way! 4w
  •   maddiegeorge2 I will pray for you. What was your diagnosis? 4w
  •   calilove31 This too shall pass. God has a plan for all of us. Your in my prayers. What is your diagnosis and how common is it? 4w
  •   bjsdshanahan Hopefully I am not assuming too much but I follow you on Pinterest and saw all your PCOS pins. I also have PCOS and had to do IVF for my twins who are almost 4 and a FET for my 10 month old. God has a plan for everyone and without having infertility, I most likely wouldn't have my twins and they are such a blessing (as with their little brother) 4w
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  •   lorustique Praying for you! Feel better lovely! 3w

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jenniferciani Happy 4th Anniversary These past 4 years, we have lost my mother, gained a daughter, have been separated by training and duty, moved from one coast to the other, endured the stress of recruiting duty (which is no picnic), have faced 2 years of infertility and have gone through surgeries and health complications together. Life has thrown us some unexpected challenges, but we have conquered each one. I couldn't ask for a better man by my side through it all. 01.29.11 #happy4years #4thanniversary #weddingday #married4years 1mon

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Nashville Jennifer Michelle Tanner-Ciani
jenniferciani 4 bags later... I am so thankful for my wonderful Husband who has been back and forth between work, home and the hospital along with taking care of our daughter. For amazing neighbors and friends who have come to visit and also have helped step in to care for our Maddie Grace. Being sick and living away from family is never easy, but we have been blessed with a new Southern family It takes a village.. 1mon
  •   shiningstarsboutique Oh goodness! I hope you are okay ~ Many prayers being said for you and your family! Hugs!! 1mon
  •   sawyerleighboutique Wishing you the best! Feel better soon! 1mon
  •   mamapeggy8 Big hug and prayers to you 1mon
  •   girls_gone_junkin Feel Better Soon! 1mon
  •   cremedelagems Get better soon, sweet girl!! 1mon
  •   julianne_lawler Prayers sent your way! 1mon
  •   stephaneinmein Get well soon! ️ I know it's hard to be away from home with the little ones. Hope you're back to the usual in no time. 1mon
  •   nicole_gulick I'm just seeing this prayers to you call if you need an ear in always here for you 1mon

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jenniferciani Admitted into the hospital, Going on 12 hours in and at least 3-4 more bags to go. Just praying for answers and a solution after 3 years of suffering. It's hard to face the world and accomplish daily tasks when you have a condition that is invisible to the rest of the world. #bloodtransfusion 1mon
  •   suedukehayman Best wishes to you. I wish I could donate blood, this is why it is such a gift to do so. 1mon
  •   decorcreateur Hopefully you get answers soon and start feeling better 1mon
  •   bostonstreetboutique I hope you feel better soon! 1mon
  •   hayleyfitnesscoach Sending prayers girl 1mon
  •   datgypsygirl_ Sending my love 1mon
  •   calilove31 1mon
  •   kristinekanani I'm so sorry you're going through this, but I know it must be a relief to have answers. I hope that everything turns out okay for you! 1mon
  •   jkprince777 Prayers your way hope your OK! 1mon

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Willow Jennifer Michelle Tanner-Ciani
jenniferciani Waiting on a blood transfusion 1mon

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Video Jennifer Michelle Tanner-Ciani
jenniferciani Happy 3rd Birthday baby girl! #madisynturns3 2mon
  •   kim9610 love her sweet lil smile!! Can't believe she is 3! Love u! Call me tomorrow morn 2mon
  •   goutes Love her cute and sweet little grin! 2mon
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jenniferciani Bare with me while I have a "mom moment"... As I think back to 3 years ago today, I had endured 28 hours of intense labor, I was at my limit. I looked around the room and broke down in tears. It was that moment that every single emotion hit me. I realized I was going to be a Mother in just a few more short hours, I realized that the man standing beside me was calm, collected and was the best supporter I could ever ask for, but also in that moment, I realized that my Mother was not standing on the other side of me, where I always dreamed she would be. After my Mom passed away, only 3 months earlier, I denied my grief. I focused on what lay ahead. It wasn't until I was at the point of exhaustion in my labor that it hit me. "She's really gone". I was excited, depressed, scared, nervous, & exhausted. I breathed through the next few hours of labor and finally at 2:23am on January 5th, I looked into my baby girl's eyes for the first time. I held in my hands the life that I created & the greatest gift I could ever receive. The room went silent and for the first time, I felt a presence of warmth around me. I truly believe that the connection between a Mother & Daughter is un-breakable even in death. Holding my own daughter in my arms felt as if everything came full circle. Since that day, our little miss independent has kept us on our toes! There has been joy, laughter, challenges and accomplishments. Now, on the eve of my miss. Maddie Grace turning 3 I couldn't be more proud of the little girl she is becoming & cannot wait to see what THREE has in store for us! #madisynturns3 #januarybaby #hellobabygirl 2mon
  •   tara_x0_hailee 3 .. Lord help me already and it's only been a month! Happy birthday Maddie! 2mon
  •   jenniferciani @tara_x0_hailee haha! I hope 3 is the opposite of 2! Two was challenging to say the least! Just in the past week I have seen a HUGE change in her and she has become a whole new little person! She is so independent and always wants to do EVERYTHING herself. Being two she had so many frustrations because I don't think she was really able to be "independent" like she wanted to be. Now that we have inched closer to 3, she is able to communicate more and is so much more self reliant which has made a world of difference! I'm hoping this is all a change for the better. She also is switching over to the pre-k building at her pre-school this week and will be challenged more, which is what her teachers are saying she especially needs compared to many of the kids her age. If she isn't being challenged enough she gets bored and becomes frustrated. Sometimes she is TOO dang smart! I feel like some days I have a 15 year old when her little "sass" comes out ;) 2mon
  •   tara_x0_hailee Omg lucky you! Hailee is testing me like no other. 2 was a piece of cake.. she says EVERYTHING I say down to when I'm having a conversation on the phone! These toddlers want to do everything on their own.. good at times Lol .. definitely a run for my money! You're going to see so many changes in such little time because I already see a huge change in hailees vocabulary! I don't want to see what 15 looks like. 2mon
  •   leftylex Can't believe that she's THREE!!! Happy birthday, MG! 2mon
  •   sweetbabychloe Baling my eyes out!!! I'm so close with my mom and I was lucky to have her with me for the birth of my daughter. Thank you for sharing your story. And Happy Birthday to your sweet beautiful girl!! 2mon

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jenniferciani Could there be a more gorgeous handmade doll out there?! I think not!! @cottoncandydollies you seriously are amazing! Can't wait to see the look on my daughter's face in the morning! #cottoncandydollies #handmadedoll #buyhandmade 2mon

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