i_will_fight_till_i_fall Life update for anyone still paying attention.

I'm in therapy, I get help and no I'm not great, jet. I haven't self harmed in over a year and I have lots of friends that knows what's up and they care for me and love me. Does my brain still tell me lies? Yes. Do I still believe them? Some. But I am so much better the I used to be,
Since last time I tried to kill myself, and you have no idea how happy I am that I'm not dead. I got diagnosed with depression and ednos, I'm in recovery but every day is still a battle, and I guess it will be for the rest of my life.
Another thing I'm learning right now as I am opening more and more up about this is how many people actually go through this kinds of stuff. So many of my friends have been through or are going through a hard time.
But the most important thing I want you guys to get out of is that letting go and telling someone and getting help, is the best thing I have ever done. You might wanna go Back to being in control (although you never were, your illness was) once you get past that you'll be so thankful. Life might not be great, I'm not gonna give you false hope like everyone did to me, but life is worth it. All the people I have met and all the new memories I have now, I couldn't thank God enough
4mon

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  •   jindseylardine Ok...I normally don't do this but, I've seen your photos because I'm trying to delete all of these followers through my sister Tay Jardine that I have because I need my fucking privacy. I have to go to each persons page to do it so I noticed your photos. So sorry if I block you BUT, I really wish you weren't so low, you are beautiful and I understand why you do what you do (especially at your age, we all have our lows) but you DO need help. Please talk to someone, getting this sort of attention on Instagram isn't going to do you any good, really.. Self hate is the stupidest shit, you're better than that. Fuck being skinny, BE HEALTHY! I know Tay wouldn't want to see any of her fans like that, so please go get help. There's resources out there for you! Take advantage of them! Be strong 2y
  •   driveawaydontcry So question, what makes you think hey lets post this even though self harm is really serious. Then what makes you think LETS HASHTAG IT. Me being an ex self harmer you make me angry how you make it for people to give you pity. Self harm doesn't belong on Instagram. Yet you hashtag it. People like you are the reason why the World is so horrible. No common sense whatsoever. Get help, instagram isn't the place. And no you can't post what you want. Instagram has a report button for people like you. This isn't even venting. Ugh. 6mon
  •   froekenloechen @driveawaydontcry Oh my gosh ok i Get That this makes you angry and all, but you of all people should be able to se that she is sick, no you don't think straight when you are sick. If you don't like this report her report every picture she has on this Instagram, but don't. Don't fucking go tell shit to her about it, I think she is bad enough already 4mon

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  •   hobbits_ Ok please stop this it isn't good I think maybe you the talk to someone about this, I mean self harm leads to dark roads ahead so please stop if you think anyone likes you or your not beautiful, you are! God made you like this! Your a work of art! A miracle! Every person is a miracle! A gift from God! If you need someone to turn to turn to God 3y

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  •   _erin_ann Please stop you are beautiful every time u get a meed to cut just sing a feel good about u song like beautiful by Christine agulra 3y

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i_will_fight_till_i_fall I think this might be the deepest I've ever been #deep #selfhate #ednos #ed #caretomuch #help #hate 3y
  •   _erin_ann No u have to stop please dont go any deeper you could hit a vain and die please stop!!!!!! 3y
  •   rebecca_watson Please don't go any deeper!! It makes me feel terrible when I see people who cut their self!! 3y

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i_will_fight_till_i_fall I'm sorry for being here, I'm sorry for existing #harmself #ed #ednos #hate #selfhate #help #tears #cry #broken 3y

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i_will_fight_till_i_fall After I cleaned them. Excuse my fat arm #fat #ugly #harmself #hate #help #gross 3y

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  •   i_am_infinite_ Hey, I'm just searching through tags and I want you to know that I care. My kik is i_am_infinite and I am here if you want to talk<3 3y

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i_will_fight_till_i_fall I'm so sorry, I was almost at five weeks clean, but I just couldn't take it anymore. I hate myself! #harmself #cutter #hate #help #harmself #selfhate #ihatemeself #ihateme 3y

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  •   ksuelu ;o Follow me 3y
  •   monstersareinourheads Ik how much pain it is I've experienced it you just have to talk to someone you trust they can help you... 3y

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i_will_fight_till_i_fall I just wish my scars would go away for a little while. I'm going on hollyday with my family and my mom is totally going to tell me to take my bracelets of, and I don't want her to see my scars #scar #scars #cutter #cuts #cutting #help selfharm #selfhate #monster 3y
  •   princessleighh Please don't harm yourself anymore, there are people who care about you. 3y
  •   theroadtonowhere You are so beautiful you don't need to do this. Kik me anytime ashley_a22 stay strong<3 3y

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i_will_fight_till_i_fall Music. The only escape from this fucked up world we are all living in #selfharm #help #escape #selfhate #ed #ednos #cutter #music #love #free #fuckedup 3y
  •   deadpinkgurl There isn't a tag called selfharm anymore because of stupid new IG policies so of you're posting a photo now, tag harmself. We have a right to vent on here on a place where we shouldn't be judged! If you agree repost tagging #harmself or tagging harmself on your pics of you selfharm 3y

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  •   _radicalbabe You're beautiful, stay strong <3 3y
  •   ziallss Stay strong, love. I know you can. 3y

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i_will_fight_till_i_fall Both my mom and my best friend asked about these. I told them a cat did it. I hope they bought it #selfharm #help #lye #selfhate #cuts #cut #cutter #ed #ednos 3y

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i_will_fight_till_i_fall They always get so red when I cut with a knife #selfharm #help #red #cutter #cut #cuts #deep #selfhate #ed #ednos 3y

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