fakelimanpayne this makes me very very very sad. 21h

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fakelimanpayne I just found a website where I can be a researcher for some internet companies and get paid as if I'm working a full time job and make a couple hundred a month just for researching online and sending them to the person asking for it. 1d

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fakelimanpayne It's been 1 year and almost 8 months since I lost my voice. In that span of time, I have learned who I am. I'm currently in remission, but I know it won't stay like this forever and eventually I will have a relapse. This is a big deal for people like myself because we were born with a voice, and then we suddenly loose it, and when we get our voices back, it's honestly one of the greatest feelings in the world. You guys do not understand nor can you comprehend how good it feels to have a conversation with someone and have them understand me. To actually feel your voice coming out (before when I would talk, there would be no vibrations on my throat.) is such a beautiful thing. When I first went into remission I started crying and blubbering because I haven't felt vibrations in my throat in almost 2 years! This year is almost over - around this time last year, I could not utter a single word because my voice was completely gone. This time around last year, I wasn't diagnosed so my voice just kept getting worse and worse. This time last year, I contemplated suicide so many times because I was scared and alone.
But this time this year, I am alive. And I am here. And I am talking. And I don't know for how long, but damn does my voice feel like liquid gold.
2d

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fakelimanpayne IM BLEEDING OUT OF MY VAGINA IS THAT WHAT YOU WANT TO HEAR MY UTERUS IS SHEDDING ITSELF AND THE RESULT IS BLOOD COMING OUT OF MY BABY SHOOTER SO YES I AM GOING TO TAKE MY BAG THAT HAS MY PAD THAT I STICK TO MY UGLIEST PAIR OF PANTIES BECAUSE GOD FORBID ME WEARING MY GOOD PAIR AND GET BLOOD ALL OVER THEM OR MY TAMPON THAT I SHOVE INSIDE MY ALREADY IRRITATED BLOODY VAGINA AND WALK AROUND WEARING THEM ALL DAY BY ALTERNATING AND CHANGING THEM ON A HOUR BASIS UNLESS YOU WANT ME TO BLEED ALL OVER THE FLOOR MY BAG IS COMING WITH ME TO THE BATHROOM. 4d

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fakelimanpayne Harry makes me want to cry and shove myself in a mailbox and mail myself to Antarctica because I cannot deal. 4d

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fakelimanpayne omg was I the only one who was super embarrassed when I had a male teacher or substitute and had to go change my pad or tampon and there they were being all strict like NO YOU CANT GO TO THE BATHROOM and you have to tell them it's a female emergency just for them to shut up and the rest of the class would look at you like wtf why this bitch taking her bag and you'd just give them the ugliest look like "don't try me I'll kill you" 5d

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fakelimanpayne I guess this is the part where I insert some sad sob story on how proud of One Direction making it to 5 years I am. I've been here since 2012. I went to three tours. Up All Night. Take Me Home. On The Road Again. I have been here from the downfall of five to four boys. And I won't say I'll be here until the very end, because I know better. Because I know that people grow out of bands and that people grow and change their music and people grow older and they forget. I will say, I will be here until my time is done. I'll be here until I feel I can no longer be in this fandom anymore. I do not know how long that will be, and how long that will be for. But that day is going to happen, eventually. And I am not prepared. I love these 5 guys. Whether Zayn is in the band or not, I will love and support him endlessly. Harry, Liam, Zayn, Niall and Louis have shaped me into someone who is versatile to music. They have helped me meet so many new people and become stronger with my real life friends. One Direction are a part of me and even if I stop liking them, I know they will stay with me forever. Happy 5 years to these five beautiful boys. #5yearsofonedirection 6d

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fakelimanpayne No speech. Happy 5 years. #happy5yearsonedirection 7d

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fakelimanpayne I shouldn't have laughed as hard as I saw this but I laughed and I'm still laughing why is this even funny. 7d

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fakelimanpayne So......
I'm in full remission now.
1w

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fakelimanpayne One day, Niall is going to fall in love. He's going to know everything. He's going to know what name she doesn't like to be called, and call her that anyway because he knows he can. He's going to know her parents names. He's going to know how old she was when she first rode her bike, and crashed into the garbage can that very same day and scraped a giant piece of skin and rode like nothing. He's going to know her first dog she got when she was six when she accidentally left the gate open and the dog escaped and she cried all day thinking the dog was gone until it showed up at her door step dirty. He will know how much she hated school. And how much she couldn't wait to graduate. He's going to know her hidden scars, and all the hidden secrets buried beneath them. And when she shows him, he doesn't say anything but smile and rub gentle soothing movements into her back. Because to Niall the best kind of relationship is the kind where you can sit in silence, even after finding out something you didn't want to know, and still love that person even more. The kind of silence where there is nothing uncomfortable. Niall is going to know all her strengths, weaknesses, laziness, energy and mixed emotions. He's going to fall in love with the way she drinks, talks, walks, sleeps, smiles, chews, fidgets and kisses. He's going to know her bad habits, facial expressions, and he'll know her laugh like it's his favorite song. He's going to know, and get annoyed at, then accept, that she always thinks she's right - even when she knows she's wrong, Niall lets her have her glory anyways. He'll know her food orders, how many sugars she wants in her coffee, how many scoops of ice cream she wants. He's going to know how she feels without her even looking at him, and how she's crying without her shedding tears. He's going to want to protect her from everything, despite her always protesting she doesn't need the protecting. He's going to know all of that and more. Everything. Her, from top to bottom and inside out. From learning, from sharing, from listening, from watching. He's going to know every single thing there is to know, and you know what else?

He is still going to love her.
1w

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fakelimanpayne okay but 5SOS are actually really good live like I actually enjoyed the concert tonight and Michael is so cute and Ashton and Calum have potty mouths and Michael too and Luke is just an awkward tall kid and it's honestly just so cute how they are on stage with their fans and I saw ADAM from Teens React on YouTube and it was amazing and I just had so much fun and I got cute 5SOS socks and one is black and the other is white and my sister got a bracelet and honestly fuck I love Disconnected it's my favorite song thank you for playing it I love you Calum baby daddy I had fun oh my I can't feel my legs I'm going to sleep they were carding people who bought alcohol and I laughed because ummmmm really how you gonna card them there but I don't get carded at the liquor store I totally should've drank a beer but I had my sister and I knew I couldn't get drunk ahhhh man I love 5sos night everyone I love 5sos and one direction and I love one direction more but 5sos is good too and add me on snapchat uuniqua if you wanna see vids from the concert. 2w

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fakelimanpayne HES ON TEENS REACT 2w

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fakelimanpayne they're playing she's kinda hot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 2w

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fakelimanpayne I came home and I got my free sample box!!! I am soooo happy because I wasn't expecting it AL ALL! I didn't even know I got approved so now I have a snack, spray on lotion, nail polish, hair styling cream and facial wash!!! YES TO SUMMER BOXES 2w

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fakelimanpayne I'm going to 5 seconds of summer tonight and it's a rainy day here so idk what's gonna happen but I'm taking my 6 year old sister so I got us really high seats because j didn't wanna mess up her ears by sitting in the floor but my seats are section 305 row g seat 42/43 so if you're in my section and you wanna say hi feel free to do so!! 2w

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fakelimanpayne I'm probably the only person who doesn't care about the drama but still comes online just to see what new drama is Poppin off and just sits back like "I don't trust anything that comes out this fandom" so therefore I don't believe in ANYTHING that drops. Probably the only one. Must've rolled my eyes 10,000 times today because really never trust anything that comes out this fandom. 2w

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fakelimanpayne "There's currently a member missing. Louis Tomlinson, we need an Oh NO. If you haven't got one you're not cool." *4 days later #ohnolouis*

Liam called it. And he jinxed it.
2w

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fakelimanpayne HEY THANKS FOR LETTING ME KNOW ITS A RUMOR DAVID THANK

Update:
Welp… this rumor is officially a joke
some fun facts about david walliams: - he is associated with both BGT and Comic Relief, both of which One Direction have been associated with for years
- he was also apart of that joking twitter fight with Louis and JK Corden (Who’s on the lips who’s on the hips) - After meeting David Louis tweeted “@davidwalliams 2 years ago I was a normal guy from a small town now David Walliams is embracing me, I can’t thank you enough.” which is actually what prompted the twitter fight (James said “I love Louis Tomlinson he is my hero” and David replied “Get your grubby hands off him. He’s mine!”) In the end the pair – well David- decided: “James Corden can have you every other Thursday afternoon. Other than that you are MINE…!” With Corden adding: “I’ll share with David! Who’s having lips? Who’s on the hips?!!! X” - David knows Louis quite well and I would be very shocked if he didn’t have insider information on him. I do not think he would be making any sort of a joke if there was a chance this would be true.
2w

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fakelimanpayne my dad calls 5 seconds of summer "5 scents of sunscreen" like he literally thought that was their band name......my dad is weird lmao 2w

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