fakelimanpayne They came into my life when I was 18....Jonas Brothers were that fuckband that came into my life when I was 16 and I told everyone I would love that band forever and I'd get the JB logo tattooed on my hip because I was SOOOOO in love with them. Look at me now, mom!
How old were you when you first got into One Direction?
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fakelimanpayne If I had cancer would you guys treat me differently? but anyways, I've been thinking a lot and I've got so much to say and so little time to convey it all. I really wish I could see the boys in September but I have to focus on my health but whatever. To all those people who have yet to go to a concert, I SWEAR YOULL HAVE SO MUCH FUN! I saw them twice (up all night tour '12 / take me home your '13) i wish I had a friend who could FaceTime me the whole entire concert but I hope you all have fun at your concert and I'll talk to y'all soon! Night everyone! xxx 3d
  •   emilie143_ @gossipdirectioner same here 3d
  •   fakelimanpayne @gossipdirectioner I've been through it before, but I was able to talk and everything and it lasted no more than 6 months and hasn't came back again. But now I'm going through so much and they don't know what's wrong with me so I'm just preparing myself for the bad news 3d
  •   gossipdirectioner @fakelimanpayne I am so sorry i know what it feels like and it sucks so much! if you need anything please feel free to contact me! I hope you get the best news of everything, and if you don't, we'll all be here for you! I hope for the best with you! 3d
  •   hayleyrueger I've loved you since I followed you two years ago, when I couldn't tell Liam and Harry apart, I'll love you til the end. You are beautiful. 3d
  •   melissa.copeland I don't know you all that well, but if you had cancer, I wouldn't mind. I would obviously want you to get better, but I wouldn't change my attitude around you. 3d
  •   reyrey_ann No i would never treat you differently...i love you so much stay strong goodnight 3d
  •   flaviacavalcante3 i love 2d
  •   emily_beseris i would never in a million years treat you differently ilsm 2d

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fakelimanpayne Gooood morning everyone! It's Monday! I haTE Monday! And I can't go back to sleep today because I'm gonna watch the new doctor who episode at my dads. HOPE YOU ALL HAVE A GREAT DAY AT SCHOOL.....wait, have any of you started school? If so, when did you start? If not, WHEN do you start? Isn't it already time for school? Idk, I haven't been in school for a year so it's all different to me now lmfao. Liam Payne is a giant kid ur argument is invalid goodbye 3d

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fakelimanpayne I was going to post this then I fell asleep lmfao. ANYWAYS, I'm going away for a cheer game today and we have to be there 2 hours early AND UGH KEEP HAVING DREAMS ABOY ZAYN BUT IM NOT A ZAYN GIRL SO THAT MAKES NO SENSE???¿ 5d

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fakelimanpayne HI EVERYONE I LOVE YOU ALL PLEASE DONT WORRY ABOUT ME THIS RELAPSE IS ONE OF MANY BUT I WILL BE FINE AND I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH AND I WISH I COULD MEET YOU ALL BUT AS OF NOW IM TOO SHY AND EMBARRASSED TO TALK TO ANYONE SO I WONT BE GOING TO THE CONCERT ANYMORE MY HEALTH IS MY TOP PRIORITY AND I DONT WANT TO WORRY ABOUT THIS RELAPSE AND I DONT WANT ANY OF YOU TO WORRY EITHER I LOVE YOU THANKS FOR YOUR SUPPORT LIAM LOVES YOU TOO HE TOLD ME LAST NIGHT WE LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH xxxxoooooo 7d

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fakelimanpayne For anyone who even cares, I went to the doctors today. All I was told was I relapsed and I had to see another doctor who specializes in vocals. He was like "I'm sorry but we can't help you here. You relapsed a month and a half ago and it's no longer in my jurisdiction to help you because I don't have the special tools that you need. You need stronger and better affective tools and we don't have them." So I relapsed apparently and as of now I'm a lost cause. 7d
  •   xperfectharryx I.cant.function.properley 7d
  •   jasminloves1d I'm sorry to hear that, but no matter what, you'll never be a lost cause 7d
  •   hithereimclare you're are. not. a lost cause. you never will be. I'm sorry to hear that you have to go to another doctor. I love you very much. 7d
  •   louis_tomlincakes I'm so sorry, but hang in there and just know that we're praying for you and we love you. Stay strong babe. 7d
  •   adairpattillo That sucks. But know that you are not a lost cause and to stay strong7d
  •   kelseyhoose @maddy.lankford 7d
  •   abby_the_weird You're not even close to a lost cause. It's like the butterfly effect if you didn't exist the world would be so different without you. Just please know that and stay strong, you can do this 6d

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fakelimanpayne MY HEAD HURTS MY WHOLE ENTIRE BODY HURTS DISNEY HARRY MAKES ME HURT ALL OVER I CREY. 1w

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fakelimanpayne NOT TO ALARM ANY OF YOU OR ANYTHING BUT I GET TESTED FOR CANCER (yes, again. I literally go every month.) AGAIN ON THURSDAY BECAUSE ITS MANDATORY AND IM SCARED AS HELL AND I DONT WANT TO TELL ANY OF YOU IF I HAVE IT CUS I DONT WANT TO BE TREATED DIFFERENTLY SO IM SORRY IM INACTIVE IM JUST PREPARING MYSELF FOR THURSDAY ITS THE FINAL INSTALLMENT ON MY VOICE AND IF I NEED SURGERY AND IF I HAVE CANCER IM SO SCARED 1w
  •   monica_castillo12 You will be in my prayers! and if people treat you different bc of that, Wth is wrong with them! ill be here for you 1w
  •   paynefulnights you got did baeeeee 1w
  •   unnusedd praying for you bby! I'm always here for you, you know that 1w
  •   k.k.hhim YOURE BIO. ILL GIVE YOU PROPS FOR THAT LMAO 1w
  •   k.k.hhim and I hope that you have no cancer 1w
  •   weyheyjody Praying for you, we're here if you need us 1w
  •   abby_the_weird praying for you stay strong 6d
  •   saachiwalia praying for you always 6d

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fakelimanpayne ALL THESE DISNEY REFERENCES ARE MAKING MY HEAD HURT I JUST CAME ON TO HAVE A GOOD TIME AND IM HONESTLY FEELING SO ATTACKED RIGHT NOW 2w

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fakelimanpayne I'll do ships tomrrow. I don't feel too good right now. -
favorite year of one direction? mine is probably this year, or maybe 2013.
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fakelimanpayne If I started doing ships again would anyone want one? Just comment yes or no and I'll start doing them again if I get more than 10 comments
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ALSO!!!! Is anyone going to see One Direction on the 12th of September? I have to go that day now bc my sister has cheer on Sunday and so we can't go to the one on Saturday the 13th bc she's got something for cheer Sunday
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fakelimanpayne I wanted to write something inspirational about Zayn like I did Niall and Harry, but I'm kinda stumped lmaoo. -

So is it true that Zayn and Perrie called off their engagement?!
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fakelimanpayne what 3w

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fakelimanpayne There's certain things that your parents warn you about. They warn you about drugs, and alcohol and sex and how addicting they can be. They, don't warn you about the boys with hearts of gold and eyes that burn into your soul. They warn you about both, the good guys, and the bad guys, and how even though the guy can be good, he can be a complete jerk to you. Or, how the guy can be bad, but be the biggest Romeo you've ever known. Harry Styles. Harry is the type to know what heartache can be like. To watch two people who are madly in love, fight all the time. Hell, even he knows now what they had, his mom and his biological dad, was never love. And he never wants to put his future partner and kids in that place. To feel what he and his sister felt, to feel what his mom felt. What his dad felt. He doesn't want to be portrayed as a bad guy, because he isn't really. But bad guys aren't no good, and good guys aren't no fun. Isn't that how the saying goes? And Harry tries his best to be the good guy with pure good intentional needs. He puts people's feeling first, well before his own. He's polite and very protective (in a good way of course) towards the women he cares about. And it's not because he wants to get into their pants, but it's because the way he was raised. And maybe Harry is the type to have a gold heart and eyes that can X Ray right through your soul, but he also has a tough exterior that is hard to knock down. He's a tough guy, despite his cupcake personality. Harry wants to be loved and he wants to be in love. All for the right reasons. Your parents never warn you about true intentional love of a good man. They never sit down and tell you, "Before you give your heart away make sure that he's a man." They want you to figure love out for yourself. Harry has his mind made up on love, hell, it's going to take one big huge miracle to open his mind, his eyes and his heart. But when Harry is open and vulnerable to love, he will give it his all. They don't give your warnings about love in school. Your parents don't have steady talks like they do about sex when you turn 13. Your parents never talk about guys who are broken and good like Harry. 3w

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fakelimanpayne There's this kid Niall Horan, you might know him? Yeah, well when he laughs I swear the twinkle in his eyes can light an entire galaxy and set it to flames. When he laughs and smiles and talks, I just want to laugh and smile and talk with him. Because it's like, wholesome and so homey and so beautiful and god like. That kid Niall is somethin' and if you don't know him you're missing out. His eyes are like the whole entire ocean, I don't know which one, but if you can name the clearest brightest ocean or beach in the entire world, his eyes? Yeah, that's what they are. And when he laughs he does this thing where he tilts his head back and forms crinkles by his eyes. And it makes you wonder, does he like the way he laughs? Or does he hate it? He's contagious, and infectious and very addictive. You see, your parents always warn you about drugs on the street, and this isn't going to be that one quote "my parents warned me about drugs on the street, but never about a guy with blue eyes and a heartbeat" because no, your parents warn you about drugs and sex and addiction, but they never, warn you about love. Ain't that somethin? You live your whole life with your parents ridiculing your every move and warning you about the bad and praising you about the good, but not ever once did they warn you about love. And how addicting, and infectious, and contagious love can be. Love is a drug. Niall Horan? He's my drug. The one drug my parents never warned me about. Except while he takes me in small doses, I take him all at once. 3w

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fakelimanpayne i have a $50 amazon gift card and idk what to buy?????? might buy stuff for a giveaway like I've done in the past (I gave away an Up All Night cd in 2013 and a one direction cartoon iPhone 5 phone case in 2013) might do another giveaway of either our moment, that moment or you & i perfume since I already have an album and phone case away I might just do something different with like the perfume or maybe do a gift basket full of fun stuff but idk if anyone would enter so yeah I might just end up not buying anything yet lmao idk yet. anyways I'm doing ok with my voice but it's still gone and yeah love you all lemme know if it's a good idea for a giveaway if I get more than 10 comments from different people I'll see what's up and I'll maybe do it as a back to school bag thing idk yet 3w
  •   itzellovexo I would enter 3w
  •   grace.gilbert25 I would so enter 3w
  •   fakelimanpayne @mimmii_xx thank you. I understood al the words and for someone who's first language is not English, you wrote it pretty well! Unbelievable is a word :) all this support I have from ALL over the world is just mind blowing and I couldn't thank you as much as I wanted to because I'll be saying thank you every single second! Much love! x 3w
  •   mimmii_xx Thank You :) You really deserve all this support and I'm really looking forward to hear about you. xx 3w
  •   kalalabear_ I would definitely enter if you did it 3w
  •   1dtommohoran I WOULD ENTER 2w
  •   _jillpatriciacz_ @ryebread49 I CAN'T EVEN ONFG 3d

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fakelimanpayne Do you guys believe I'll get better? That somehow I'll get a miracle and I'll be able to wake up and I'll be able to hear my real voice, something I've been longing to hear for half a year. Do you guys think I'm selfish because I think there's a miracle maybe? I want to think I'll get better and be able to talk like any regular person, but today has to be a day where I don't believe that. Is that selfish? Is it selfish I believe I deserve this? I don't know what selfish means anymore. I, don't know who I am anymore. I need friends who'll help me find me and don't care what I sound like. 3w
  •   thatsostyles Selfish is taking someone else's happiness for yourself, it's not wanting something for yourself. Everyone wants something, thats human. And wanting something like that, for yourself. That's in no way selfish. You don't deserve what you're going through, no one hardly ever does. I'm not going to say I know what you're going through, because I can even begin to imagine how it is, but I do know what it's like to feel hopeless, like nothing is going your way. But hope is something no one can take away from you. Hope is there, it will always be there, in everyone, and maybe you don't feel it right now, but it's there. You're strong, look at all you've over come so far. I believe in miracles, and maybe it won't be the miracle you've been hoping for, but sooner or later there will be a miracle in your life and you'll look back on now, and you'll have gotten through this. I believe in you. 3w
  •   thatsostyles Can't * 3w
  •   mikaelcliff bb, u'll get better. i believe in you. i miss and love u so much! 3w
  •   take_me_to_pasadena Is he wearing socks cause nigga damn @angelbanks445 and YOULL GET BETTER I BELIEVE IN YOU DONT GIVE UP 3w
  •   louis.w Pray. 3w
  •   tromb_bomb14 I am always a friend to talk to if u need it and I am always someone who will pray for you and bb your not selfish your hopeful and we need more people like that, people that hope and believe in miracles because they always seem to happen even if it's not what you were expecting them to be I love you stay strong and you may not know who you are but I do ur a strong beautiful person who is passionate and hopefull and that is always a great quality in a person 3d
  •   tromb_bomb14 Dm me 3d

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fakelimanpayne Do me a favor. Look in the mirror. I don't care if you're a suicidal teen, or just a really fucking happy person. Look in that mirror. Tell me what you see. You have lips. You have a tongue. You have eyes. You have a mouth. You have a nose. You have ears. You have a smile. You heard me right. A smile. We are all human beings. All joined by the same things. We laugh. We cry. We get mad. We get sad. We smile. We die. One day we are all going to die. Tell me what do you see in that mirror. I see, though I do not know you, I see someone remarkable. Primarily to those who want to give up everyday. Look at you. You're alive, aren't you? Isn't that something to smile about? You are a - live. If you're not smiling because you're alive then I don't know what is wrong with you. Maybe I do. Okay. Nobody commits suicide because they want to die. They do it because they want the pain, the sadness to end. I know this is a long shot, but if you're looking for a sign not to kill yourself, this is it. This is a new year! Smile. Dance. Cry. Hold yourself. Do everything you've ever wanted. Just don't kill yourself. It's not worth it. Believe me, it's not. You are amazing. And you need to realize how amazing you are. That's why I want you to look in the mirror. Poke your cheeks. Lick your teeth. Bite your lips. Stick out your tongue. Touch your body parts. You feel that? You are alive. Place your hand over your heart. Do you feel that beating? Do you know what that means? It means you are alive. Your heart. It's beating. There is one sole reason to stay alive. I want you to know that you are alive. And that's one big privilege! Smile. Fucking smile. Put down that razor. Back away from it. And smile. Because you are alive. And there's one person in this entire world who cares for you. This is a new year, start to live it the way you want to. Take care. You do not know how valuable life is until you almost die. When death knocks on your door, you go hide in the corner while I go greet it. Until it's your time to die, continue being alive. IF YOU'RE LOOKING FOR A SIGN NOT TO KILL YOURSELF THIS IS IT. (Forever reposting this caption I wrote!) #harrystyles #onedirection #harrythirst 4w

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fakelimanpayne I haven't taken my medicine in three days and that's why I haven't been on because I haven't been so much like myself and my voice is annoying me and I'm so ashamed and embarrassed and so scared and so lonely and I don't know why the hell this is happening to me and when it'll stop and if it ever will and I just felt like apologizing for being such a bad owner I know a lot of you hate me because I hardly post anymore and I lost so many unfollowers and I'm sorry I just have so much going on and I can't keep up with my life anymore and I just wanna give up but I won't and I love all my friends on here very much so if you don't hear from me in days I'm probably okay but I'm also probably not but yeah I love you all stay fab. There's so many more people so if I didn't tag you I still love you I just can't remember your username and I can only tag 20. I love you all and I also love Harry and his stupid fedora hat bye. 4w

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fakelimanpayne I don't have cancer, but I am not in any clear. Currently I'm taking two different kind of meds. One in which I can sleep my whole day away and the other I can't eat or drink before I take it. My vocals are still swollen and my throat is still red. In a couple days it'll mark half a year since I lost my voice. 6 months of not being able to talk. I can't go to school (in which if I were to I would be going back in a couple of weeks) I can't drive because the medicine makes me sleepy and I can't work because I can't talk. If I don't post for a few days, please understand I'm going through a life changing event. Speech therapy didn't work and my doctor is really puzzled on what's happening. I have videos up on what I sound like so if you don't believe me scroll around and listen to my voice. I will make another video tomorrow. I have good days where I can be heard and I have bad days where my voice is gone and my throat hurts so bad. Of course I'm scared, no one knows what I have. It's a rare form and they haven't even fully diagnosed me yet. I spend majority of my day sleeping now or trying my best to gain strength in my voice again. I've been in so much pain lately and even when I open and tell someone there's nothing they can do because they don't know what it is so the pain has to go away on it's own. I don't know what's happening to me and that's the scariest thing. Not knowing if or when you'll wake up next. And the sad part? I haven't even begun to live my life yet. I've only just started because I had this same exact problem a year ago and it put me on hold for the longest time. My life as I know it? Nonexistent. I'm sad and confused and lonely and I need friends who won't leave me like mine have done in the past. No one wants a friend who can't talk and sounds like batman taking breathing breaks every minute just to form a few words at a time. 1mon
  •   mia_carlson Aw I'm so sorry. You are so strong! 4w
  •   gallery1d Stay strong 4w
  •   sydneyryan_ I WILL BE YOUR FRIEND!!!!! I'm so sorry love... Kik me anytime if you want: ideksydney. Keep your head up. 4w
  •   alteadq Hahhahhahahahahahhaha 4w
  •   motherofmuke I'll be your friend, love!!! dm me anytime ya want 3w
  •   winterdarlin You're so inspirational, and it's amazing that you're so tough and confident through this all. I'm so proud of you, and I barely know you. That has to mean something, right? Even strangers look up to you. Thank you so much for doing your all. You push for the best every time 3w

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