englexas #36weekspregnant and I can hardly believe that I'm already here! This pregnancy has flown by and I'm not complaining one bit! I saw the doctor for my 36 week checkup and I asked about how things were progressing down there, they told me "you have some work to do" which was actually a huge relief to me because I feel completely unprepared for this baby to arrive! I might be the only woman on the planet that actually WANTS to be pregnant for at least a few more weeks!
Things are coming together though...our church had a surprise baby shower for me on Saturday and it was so beautiful to be surrounded by so much love and care in these last few weeks...I'm currently trying to figure out what things we still need to buy and how to keep the older kiddos entertained this summer while I take care of a newborn and it's got my head kind of spinning! Here's to hopefully a few more weeks of these updates!
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  •   naturalhoneyb So beautiful mama. I am going in my 37th weeks today and I told my friend yesterday that I'm enjoying this time and that I'm not in any hurry. .he in there all nice and warm and protected I feel ya. With warm hearted surroundings and faith in God I feel lk 2h
  •   naturalhoneyb ....your summer is gonna be awesome ! 2h
  •   kirsive 36 weeks for me too and hoping for at least another couple but it's also my first so will probably go late! You're looking great 2h
  •   capillyagram 36 weeks! You look fabulous Debbie! 56min

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englexas only 18 months apart and these two couldn't be more different... my blonde haired blue eye freckled sensitive soul and my brown haired brown eyed olive skinned sassy girl...some days they play for hours together completely content, laughing and enjoying one another's company and other days they are each other's worst enemy and I can't get them to get along. it'll be so interesting to see which parts of them their baby sister inherits and what characteristics are all her own...we can't wait to meet our little girl! 6d

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Normal Gabriel and Debbie Mayes
englexas this whole pregnancy I've been frustrated about my birth options in Illinois...my younger two were home birthed in Arkansas and I looooved my home birth experience. I've been seeing a hospital birth midwife this whole pregnancy and the closer it gets to my due date the more I'm uneasy with the whole thing...I'm 35 weeks and she hasn't once checked on my babies positioning, I have to stay in the hospital for at least 25 hours, I have to get an IV, I can labor but not push in the tub...and many other reasons that I'm uncomfortable with a hospital birth, it really is true what they say "once you go homebirth you never go back"

yesterday we crossed state lines to meet with another midwife about our options and we finally have a plan that I'm comfortable with and I finally feel at ease about the birth of our little girl! It's so sad that women have to go to great lengths to get the birth they desire just because one state decides how they think birth should happen.
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englexas we've officially made it to 34 weeks and I can hardly believe it! After being sick for a couple of weeks I was feeling really crappy and really huge so I decided last week to get back to yoga and be better about what I eat. My heartburn had been almost unbearable and I've realized that my worst days are when I eat breads/pastas/carbs in general so I decided to majorly cut back on all that stuff and I'm feeling SO much better! I'm actually amazing how quickly it worked, I will be sticking to it for the rest of my pregnancy for sure! I'm definitely not heartburn free but papaya enzymes are helping too, they're so much better for you than tums! 2w

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englexas Surrounded by the lights of my life...Happy Mother's Day to all the mamas with full arms and those with empty arms, those whose children are grown up and far away and those who are waiting on babies...we are all mothers, even if our babies aren't present on this day.
We had a time of prayer at church this morning for those whose hearts ache on this day and my prayer is the same for all of you who feel sadness...that you would feel thought of, loved and surrounded on this day. We may not ever understand why our story takes the twists and turns that it does but there is and always will be hope and joy will come!
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englexas almost 11 years ago when my poor college-student boyfriend proposed to me with a "all he could afford" ring he told me that someday he'd get me an upgrade...marriage and children and financial ups and downs happened and it never seemed to be the right time. I was completely content with my ring, mainly for sentimental reasons and I never asked for an upgrade. At our 10 year anniversary the idea resurfaced and he expressed that he had always wanted to follow through with his promise to me and I started doing research on the kind of ring I wanted...he has worked so hard to make my dream ring come to life and I couldn't be more proud of him for all his hard work, for following through with a 10 year old promise and for sacrificing his own needs to make one of my dreams come true!
In all my research I ended up really enjoying other ring stats so for all you ring-enthusiasts out there, here they are: 1.04 carat H-SI1 oval diamond in a matte rose gold bezel east/west setting with cutout gallery and 2mm band and a 14K yellow gold full eternity micro pave eternity 1.9 mm band...diamond found through @enchantednyc and rings designed and brought to life by the amazing @studio1040
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englexas my little barefoot flower child is spending her days dancing around and filling her purse with flowers...we were made for warm weather! And thanks so much for all the prayers, I am finally feeling back to normal! 3w

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englexas this is my 32 week update from my sick bed...this week I've had on and off fevers and a cough that just won't go away, being pregnant and sick is officially the worst thing ever! My wonderful husband let me sleep in today after another night of coughing all night long so I felt a little more rested but it's all been pretty exhausting...at least I had my little man to keep me company today while the others were in school. I'm just praying that this doesn't last too much longer! 4w
  •   jodyehefner Yes! Prego and coughing and sickness is horrid! I feel your pain sister! Jesus please heal Debbie!! 4w
  •   jodygray Oh no!!! So sorry!!!! That's the worst :( adorable pic, by the way 4w
  •   englexas @lalabubaby thanks so much! 2w
  •   kirsten.redding love! 6d

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englexas we finally got seeds for our garden planted...couldn't have done it without my little helper! I'm not sure how our garden will turn out this year, the odds are against us with a fungus last year and a new baby arriving right at the beginning of the summer but we love having fresh vegetables so we're gonna give it our best shot! 4w

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Normal Gabriel and Debbie Mayes
englexas I love when I find these "in between" moments taken by the other kids on my phone...I've got to say that being a tomboy when I was little, doing hair didn't really play a huge role in my life but recently my girl has been really interested in having ponytails and braids and lots of other kinds of hairstyles and rather than dismiss her (which I had been doing for too long) my hubby encouraged me to get her ready a little early so that I can spend some extra time on her hair. I'm hoping these are the moments she'll remember...and I'm totally gonna have my hands full with TWO little girls to fix up! Oh boy! 🏻 1mon

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Normal Gabriel and Debbie Mayes
englexas I can't believe that I'm #30weeks pregnant already...this pregnancy has absolutely flown by and I'm super happy about that! We haven't gotten a nursery together or even a name yet but I guess that's 5th baby problems for ya...she's pretty much gonna be going with the flow! This past week I've had quite a few Braxton Hicks and the typical heartburn and back pain are showing themselves...nothing too out of the ordinary though. We're so excited to meet our little girl! 1mon

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englexas two weekends without daddy and this preggo mama is OVER it...I took this pic to document that we were dressed and at church on time this morning but it seems that we're still working on some cooperation! 1mon
  •   thecadders The struggle is real 1mon
  •   jodygray Ha ha. Way to go mom. Being without dad is manageable and we can do it.... But not ideal and waaaaay better when they're home. I FEEL YA. 1mon
  •   jodyehefner Yes! Daddy's bring a strong hand of discipline don't they? I had a thought this morning that I was glad for you that he's home with family again! 1mon

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englexas it's #fridayintroductions time again! I thought it would be a great opportunity for me to tell all of you new followers a little bit about myself! Here are some random facts:

I am finally figuring out how to style my hair short after my terrible haircut episode a few weeks back...I'm still not super happy with it but it's getting a little better // my eyebrows are completely different and it bothers me! One time I heard a quote that said "eyebrows are not twins, they are sisters" and I felt slightly better about my situation...although my brows are more like half-sisters! // I grew up in England and have lived in the states for 15 years, 2 more years and I will have lived in the states the same amount of time that I lived in England...that is SO weird to me...time is a crazy thing and yes, I miss England and my family often // I have loved chocolate as long as I can remember and I eat some form of it everyday...but I HATE Hershey's and no matter how much I'm craving chocolate I refuse to eat it, even if it was the last chocolate on earth!

I would LOVE to hear a random fact about you! One of my favorite things about IG is getting to connect with others!
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  •   sydney_p22 You so pretty, gurl your eyebrows are way better than mine random fact: I don't like Hershey's either, only their special dark chocolate 2mon
  •   jodyehefner I just have to say that Simeon and I were looking through my feed and saw your picture. I said, say Debbie and he said "Bebbie" ... So cute! Simeon said your name!!! 2mon
  •   trust_in_our_god Beautiful❣you are! 1w
  •   clairebryettandrew Haha love the eyebrow quote! My brows and eyes and whole face is unsymmetrical haha it's what makes us unique...two different faces smushed in one;) 5d

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englexas the older I get and the more people I meet, the more I realize that nobody has it easy...there will always be some kind of struggle in our lives. It can be so easy to look at someone else and think that the grass is greener but I'm sure that if you got to know them it wouldn't take you long to find the difficulty and pain in their life. We are all going through something and we can choose to support one another and be stronger through it, together.

//You may not control all the events that happen to you, but you can decide not to be reduced by them. Try to be a rainbow in someone's cloud. Do not complain. Make every effort to change things you do not like. If you cannot make a change, change the way you have been thinking. You might find a new solution - Maya Angelou
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  •   racheljanini Love this- couldn't agree more. Cole's Mom frequently says "if your treat everyone you meet as if they have a broken heart, you'll be right the majority of the time." 2mon
  •   alparker2 🏻 Yes! Love this whole post!!! Especially this! 🏻️ My mom always said you can't judge a book by its cover. We try to hide our hurt, pain, brokenness when really the truth is we all have something that we are struggling with! 2mon
  •   englexas @duchessandlionco thanks so much friend, you are too! It's amazing how much we need one another! 2mon
  •   englexas @racheljanini ooooh I love that quote! 2mon

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Clarendon Gabriel and Debbie Mayes
englexas daddy has been away for 3 days now and it's taking a toll on all of us, we miss him terribly!
It's not just because he takes the time to sit with our kids to comfort and to teach them, or because he had a delivery of flowers fill our home with life yesterday, or even because he's always always working to be a better man...he's just a part of us and it's not the same without him...tomorrow can't come quick enough!
2mon

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Normal Gabriel and Debbie Mayes
englexas When we first found out I was pregnant with our fourth baby, it was a total surprise. But from the beginning of that pregnancy I always thought that he would be born on April 1st, even though it was 3 days after his due date and I'd never gone that long.
With three healthy pregnancies and babies under my belt I'd never had any difficulty getting pregnant and not even a hint of complications so loss was something that never even entered my mind, pregnancy and birth was one of the few things in life that came easy for us. So when 12 weeks later our baby had no heartbeat to be found, our world stood still. I carried his lifeless body for another 4 weeks, waiting for my body to actually let go of our child that I already had plans and a name for.
For a long while, I wondered if me thinking he'd be born on April 1st was a cruel April Fool joke that God was playing on me. It was just another one of those stings of death that followed me for a while. There's no way of knowing why our little ones heart stopped beating or what I could have done differently but we have found peace with the few things we do know...his name and the day he would've been born. Sure, people will say that we don't "know" these things for sure but I choose to believe that God gave us these little pieces of information so that in a situation where it felt like all our knowing was completely stripped away, we could know and hold on to something.
If you are going through your own loss, don't be afraid to "know" what you think and feel. Don't be afraid to give genders and names and dates and an image to your little one. Our feather tattoos and necklace are physical reminders of what is most definitely is and always will be in our hearts.

So today as I'm feeding and caring for my 3 kiddos earthside and feeling his little rainbow baby sister kick and punch around in my belly, I'm thinking of the one year old little boy who should be blowing out candles and eating cake with his hands...the boy who one day we'll see again and smother him with kisses because a lifetime is too long to wait to see your little one.
2mon

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englexas when you're on vacation you pretty much have no choice but to eat donuts for breakfast! #firecakesdonuts didn't disappoint...you have to try the espresso cream donut, totally mind blowing! 2mon

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englexas in the city for a little family babymoon/staycation...took the kids to spend the day at the museum and tonight we're taking them to dine at @blackbirdchicago to let them experience delicious food and teach them proper manners. 2mon

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englexas overwhelmed with the love and support we received on our last post...it never ceases to amaze me how this little online community provides us with a way to connect and share our stories. Always know that there is nothing new under the sun and there is always someone that has been through what you are going through, it's just a matter of finding one another and supporting one another through it! #englexasmiscarriagejourney #pregnancyafterloss #rainbowbaby 2mon

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