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You had your first immunization shots. Although I wish I could’ve been there to hold your hand, the nurses said there were no tears to wipe because you took them like a champ. You squirmed for a second and then you were back to sucking your pacifier.

You had a beautiful snuggle session with your grandparents for the first time. Grandma got to feed you and burp you. Grandpa smelled your breath and he loved it. Haha
Lastly, remember how I mentioned that I sent your daddy home before you were delivered. Well, I had a very special nurse who stayed with me the whole time. You came much to quickly for me to get an epidural. She was like an angel sent from heaven to help me through the pain and guided on what I needed to do. When the doctor told me to push, she held my hand. And when I stopped the doctor and told him I didn't know how to push, she smirked and explained exactly how. She knew how to calm my nerves. This week I was able to meet up with Terry and she got to hold you for the first time after being there for your birth. God has always protected you and has put guardian angels around you. She is definitely one of them.

There are many first you've had in the hospital but you will have others. I have to remember that your life will be full of milestones and first moments that we will never forget. There are many firsts we have yet to experience with you. Your first steps, your first tooth, your first word (I can’t wait for you to call me mama first). I want to live in the moment and just enjoy every day with you.
Happy 10th week of life! You are now 5 lbs 6oz and you continue growing. You are dealing with some uncomfortable acid reflux. It makes it difficult for you to breathe and you start to have these episodes of shallow breathing and low heart rates. They're hoping you will grow out of this and get stronger to ignore it. You will not be able to go home if you have these spells. We just have to wait it out. You're still set for your due date, 3.5 weeks and 23 days till your home! "For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also." Luke 12:34 #nicujourney
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emilydiaz83 September 17, 2014
This week we had many firsts for you Layla. We constantly celebrate your special milestones but sometimes I'm so concerned for your health it doesn't really hit me that we're celebrating them in the hospital. When your nurse told us last week that we can now take you a bath, you couldn't wipe the smile off my face. I told the nurse I wanted to do it a day that both your dad and I would be there. It would be a few days till then and I anxiously counted the days.
I went out and bought you towels, bubble bath, and new blankets. I don't understand why I was so excited for this one event. Moms do this regularly with their children. But then I also thought, they do this in the comfort of their own home. We would be bathing you next to your bedside in the special care nursery. The idea almost felt sterile and cold. My excitement almost diminished.
When the day came I was filled with these mixed emotions; excitement, frustration, joy, sadness. I was wishing we could've done this at home, in the cute pink bathtub your grandparents bought you. I would now have to share this experience with a nurse who would hold you the whole time for safety purposes. I felt almost unfair. I didn't want it to be like this. I just wanted this one thing to be "normal". But all those mixed feelings were pushed aside as soon as I looked at you. You smiled at me with an innocent joy and a peaceful glance. You have no idea where you are at. Yes, I'd be bathing you for the first time in the hospital... But you're alive and breathing and that's all that matters. As soon as we placed you in the water, you were startled and jumped a little. Then you were all smiles and silly faces. Your pureness warmed my heart. It didn't matter to you where you were at because you were in the presence of your father and your mother. You were surrounded by love. Everything else faded away. We were having that special moment I so wanted and needed. Remember, It doesn't matter where you are baby girl. Home is where your heart is. (continued) #nicujourney
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emilydiaz83 The basket was full of cookies and candy bags for all her awesome #nicunurses. #niculife #HappyNicuNursesDay #HappyNeonatalNursesDay 5d

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emilydiaz83 I'll never be able to think of my child's life, without thinking of all the wonderful #NICU nurses that have taken care of her. Thank You for all the love, care, and dedication they've shown towards my baby girl. #HappyNeonatalNursesDay #HappyNicuNursesDay #nicunurse #nicufamily #preemie #prayforlaylagrace 5d

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emilydiaz83 Baby girl loved her spa day. #firstbath #preemie #36weeks #prayforlaylagrace 6d

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emilydiaz83 Hip hip hooray! I weigh 5 pounds today! Today also marks #36weeks! #biggirlstatus #nicujourney 1w

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emilydiaz83 One of Layla's primary nurse sewed her this cute dress. She loves all her #nicunurses. #nicu 1w

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emilydiaz83 (continued)
That night, unknowingly, God decided it was time. You had purpose in this world and you needed to come now. Layla, I want you to remember that faith is trusting God even when you don’t understand his plans. I speak these words upon myself as well today. He gave you to me and I may not know exactly how to be a mom yet but I know that if I trust in God he will guide my ways. I may not be perfect; I will make mistakes, but everything I do… I will do because I love you. I will not fear because you have not given me a reason to fear. You are excelling greatly.

By the way, You are now sleeping in an open air crib!! You have been regulating your temperature, sometimes you need a hat to keep warm but that just makes you look cuter. You are so close to 5 pounds, right now you are at 4 lbs 13 oz. That’s all the great work your doing with your feedings. Breast-feeding seems to still be your favorite but you are improving with the bottle. You not only drank a full bottle for your nurse last week, but you drank 2 bottles for me over the weekend. I am so proud of you and I never get tired of saying that.

Exactly 1 month until your home with us. Continue to feed and grow baby grow!

#Proverbs3:5-6 “Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take.” #nicujourney
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  •   chrissy_westfall This is such a beautiful pic of u both, shes beautiful, I absolutely love reading ur updates they r such heartfelt, the way u word things, she seems to b doing great, hopefully not much longer n she will b home, and dont ever doubt or question urself as a mummy, none of us were given a book asto how to b a parent, just go with the flow n it will cum naturally, ur already doing a fantastic job..xx 1w
  •   mely0914 So precious!! Always look forward to the updates! God bless @emilydiaz83 1w
  •   pr856 Amen 1w
  •   luvliijonesy So beautiful!!! Praying for you guys 1w
  •   janessa.aranda You explain what all of us moms are going through so perfectly! I love that you have so much faith and are just an all around positive person. I have never even met you but you and Layla have touched my heart and made this situation so much easier to bear. I can that there's light at the end of every tunnel! 5d
  •   emilydiaz83 Thank you so much for those kind words!! You're making me choke up. i'm always praying for you and your little man. Things will get better and soon we will have our babies all to ourselves. I can't wait to see pictures of him at home with you. @janessa.aranda 5d

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emilydiaz83 (Continued)
Even though we are not sure exactly when you will come home, the nurses have been slowly preparing us. One day last week I called your primary nurse in the morning and she joyously reported to me that you drank a whole bottle at one of your feedings. The nurse made a comment that we need to get ready, this baby will be coming home soon. You would think that my first reaction would be one of excitement. Baby girl, I was scared. I was all of a sudden anxious and nervous about something I've been praying for so long to happen. What if I drop you or forget to feed you? What if you get sick at home? Or worse, What if I’m not a good mom? These thoughts came over me, they overwhelmed me… What if?

Then, I was reminded of something… everything that happens to us is first filtered by God’s hands. What we see as a disaster, God sees as an opportunity. The day before you were born, I was on bed rest and had a scare in the hospital. I woke up to blood that I hadn't seen during my pregnancy. I was scared that something had happened to you. I thought to myself, what did I do now? First my water breaks early, and now blood and all I was doing was sleeping. Why does this continue happen? What am I doing wrong? The doctors didn't want to examine me because of fear of infection. We did see through ultrasound that you were safe and still had enough fluid around you. Later in the evening I had lots of cramping and pain but didn't want to dwell on it. I remember telling someone that I was scared and she told me, “That’s OK. That’s because you care and love that child inside of you. But she’s safe and that is just your motherly instinct taking over. Have faith.” That moment I realized whatever will happen will be out of my hands but in God’s. A sudden peace came over me. (continued) #nicujourney
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emilydiaz83 September 10, 2014

Father God, where would I be if it wasn't for your grace and mercy? Thank you for your loving presence constantly helping us in our time of need. It is in the silence, when we can’t speak, when we have no more words to pray that you continue to show us your glory. When confusion and anxiety over comes me and I can’t lift my head, You are there. And when my flesh and my heart may fail, you oh God; you are the strength of my heart and my portion forever. Amen.

My sweet chunky Layla, Monday we celebrated your day of life 60 and today we celebrate your 9th week of life! Why do we emphasize these days or weeks – because these are days and weeks we never should have seen you. For these 2 months you should have been protected in my quiet warm womb. Instead, God brought you out into this world to show us that you are able defeat all the odds against you. You've had to fight to keep warm; you continue to prove yourself stronger than any immature blood cells, premature lungs, and any infections. You are such a BIG miracle in such a little girl. (continued) #nicujourney
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emilydiaz83 Dinner for the mom in laws birthday. #sisterinlaws 2w

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emilydiaz83 Sometimes all you need is a little bit of #makeup to cheer yourself up. #motd thank God for #foundation and #concealer to cover up the bags. #needsomesleep 2w
  •   adydelv Still #flawless though lol 2w
  •   lil_lu83 Bella 2w
  •   romancednloved nope nope nope, you's a mommy now. no sleep for the next 18 years. But everyday flip your hair back and say loudly "I woke up like dis" 2w
  •   emilydiaz83 Ha! I just did it! @romancednloved 2w
  •   jmruiz127 Lol you're right about makeup being a godsend for coverups! I don't get bags, I get dark circles :-( and when I don't wear makeup, coworkers say, aw you look so tired. Thanks guys. -___- lol. You look lovely! 2w
  •   emilydiaz83 All. THE. TIME! Everyone is always like.. Are you sick. I'm like no, just didn't want to put makeup. :: crawls under my desk::. -_- @jmruiz127 2w
  •   jmruiz127 @emilydiaz83 lmao exactly! And we don't look bad without makeup, so they're just rude-ys. Plus it's like..I'm , all I do is pump, work, and visit my baby in the hospital (I'm sure your schedule is similar), so I'm a little entitled to look crappier than usual! Lol 2w
  •   emilydiaz83 Exactly!!!!! @jmruiz127 I'm so over pumping too. I already twitch when I see that machine. Lol 2w

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emilydiaz83 So in love like the first day I married you. But extra blessed with the gift of Layla Grace in our lives. Happy anniversary! Six years down, forever to go! @joel85diaz 2w

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emilydiaz83 Yeah, we had an awesome Friday night.. #milkwasted #mylove 2w

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  •   emilydiaz83 She took down a whole bottle 2 nights ago but hasn't since. She a couple episode a few times. That's all she needs to do. Feed and no more spells. @unique_rosaa come on babies!! Let's do this! 2w
  •   unique_rosaa @emilydiaz83 my son has taking his whole bottle a couple times but lately he has only took about half, he is always sleeping lol he is so lazy. And he still has his desats but there self recovered but my dr said he will grow out of them, he has only has 2 episodes this week, so he is getting there. Lets keep praying for these babies, there almost home!! 2w
  •   emilydiaz83 What's your hospitals policies on the episodes? Ours is, she can't have any spells for 5 days.. And then she can officially go home. @unique_rosaa 2w
  •   unique_rosaa @emilydiaz83 sounds about the same but he cant have any spells or desats , and he needs to pass the carseat test as well, he is 36weeks and a couple days how old is layla? But i know they say they can go home by his due date as long as he is taking his bottle that is all he needs 2w
  •   emilydiaz83 Layla just turned 35 weeks today! big girl. The nurses are preparing us that she could come home early but it's just those little things. They'll get it! @unique_rosaa 2w
  •   unique_rosaa @emilydiaz83 aww ya there so close at age and both 26weekers yea they told us that too but am just putting it in Gods hands and being patient because you have to take it day by day with these little babies but am praying for your mamash 2w
  •   emilydiaz83 Day by day that's all we can do. I'm praying for your little man also. God has his guardian angels around him. @unique_rosaa 2w
  •   unique_rosaa @emilydiaz83 defenitley(: so happy am able to expierence this with many mommas,(: 2w

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emilydiaz83 I never knew how much I loved your daddy until I saw how much he loved you. #daddysgirl 2w

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emilydiaz83 Our wedding anniversary is not the only event we are celebrating. Today we celebrate your 8th week of life. Time keeps flying by and you keep getting chunkier! At 4 pounds 6 ounces, you are filling in those preemie onesies nicely. You've been practicing bottle feeding and breast feeding. You're drinking about 18cc of about 37cc from your bottle.
Slowly but surely you'll be able to drink it all down. Practice makes perfect!

Today we get to try you out in an open air crib again. We've kept you in the isolette so that you wouldn't get cold and burn calories. But you're a big girl now and you need a big girl bed.
This week has been about feeding and growing. You are doing both impressively. Each step you move ahead is another step closer to home. 37 more days, 5 weeks till your home - your due date is still graduation day. I wouldn't be surprised at the rate you're going it will come sooner. I can't wait baby girl, I can't wait!! #1Corinthians13:13 "And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love." #prayforLaylaGrace
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  •   emilydiaz83 Thank you @jmc_627 it's not till Saturday actually. 2w
  •   janessa.aranda I am so happy for you and proud of Layla!!! Great job!!! Sending our love to you guys!!! From Nickolas and I 2w
  •   emilydiaz83 Layla says "Hi Nickolas!!!" @janessa.aranda 2w
  •   ramonadornojr God bless you guys always I'm always praying for you all 2w
  •   blueyez076 Absolutely a beauty!!! My 26weeker is now almost 21 months old...I'll never forget those NICU days...My guy was in there for 10weeks exactly... Came home 4 weeks before his due date...Love to see these little warriors beat the odds 2w
  •   smellyjellychacha Aw I see her progress almost every other week. I feel like a creep lol. But, I like to read your post because, it's so inspiring. Im due October 11 with a baby girl name Charlotte Love. 2w
  •   emilydiaz83 What a beautiful name!!! I don't mind you creeping on my page haha. Layla inspires me as well :) I hope you have a healthy rest of your pregnancy. @smellyjellychacha 2w

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