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benxallen "I haven't been the same for the past few days...let's just say that..." 2w

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benxallen Hey it's Allen...so this is to my best friend:
Thank you for giving me a chance.
Thank you for staying by my side.
Thank you for putting up with me and my bullshit.
Thank you for cheering me up.
Thank you for giving me something to look forward to.
Thank you for being you.
~
I know it's stupid to put this here...but it's easier than anywhere else since not that many people know about this account...
2w

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benxallen "I feel like I'm being starved..." 2w

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benxallen "Heh...it's been a while..." 2w

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benxallen "Don't be mistaken: I never promised that I would help you, but I didn't think you would be the one to hurt me." 1mon

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benxallen "Too many times have I let this forsaken world convert me into nothing more than gravel under one's feet. Too many times have I let this world reduce my image to one of weakness. This world has made my heart bitter and cold, completely empty and lacking sympathy. Is this what you wanted? I didn't think so, but that is sadly what I have become." 1mon

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benxallen "Teehee... whoops..." 1mon

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benxallen "Hehehe... These chains won't hold me forever..." 1mon

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benxallen ...I feel strange and I can't sleep... it's like I want something but I don't know what... ~ Allen 1mon

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Ludwig The name's Allen...
benxallen All of my journal entries will be kept below this comment ~ Allen 3mon
  •   benxallen 6/7/15




    Im going to start labeling these entries by date. Anyways, I've been starting to question who I am, as in what I am comfortable with and sexuality. At first I thought I was asexual because I didn't really like the idea of sex. But then I started to think that I liked someone. The problem is that they are the same gender as me! Then I read yuri fanfiction (female character x female reader) and I was sort of "turned on" by a fanfic with Blair from Soul Eater when she was doing "something" to me. I've been ignoring it, but a few days later, the person sent me a fanfic with Kyle and Stan from South Park. I kept relating it to us because it seems like things we would do and we RP as them. It was at night too, so I remembered the story while I was sleeping and had a dream of her saying something I cant remember now. I think this might just be some kind of phase. I even keep telling myself that I just have a love FOR her and I'm not in love WITH her. I'll have to see in a few months... ~ Allen 2mon
  •   benxallen 6/7/15 (nighttime)




    The person who I think I like did an rp with me as Alphonse and I was Edward. It was about Elricest! It was so weird because she considers me to be her sister (though, I think she calls all of her friends that). Man, I'm not think straight right now, so I'll stop here. Good night! ~ Al 2mon
  •   benxallen 4/14/15. (Previous entries should be dated 4/7/15)




    Ive been doing rp with sex scenes in it.. with the person I may like. I dont know what Im thinking! She thinks that the RP format is fun and wants to do another one. Now, everything I think of is dirty. I sometimes question if I am normal.. 2mon
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    I feel as if Im slowly disappearing from everyone else's minds. No one seems to care anymore, no matter what I do. I guess that's what living really is... 1mon

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benxallen I sometimes forget that people I know irl are following me... How are you? 3mon

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