atothelisten Had a scare today. After my ptest I was feeling a little crampy and went to the bathroom and there was blood, and not just a few spots. I FREAKED! Immediately texted @growingourquiverfull for support (as usual) and she told me to call my dr office. They told me to come in right away and my dr gave me an ultrasound. Told me to take it easy and said everything looks ok. Then he Congratulated me on being pregnant. He reassured me that bleeding and cramping is ok as long as it's not real bad cramps and a lot of blood (like soaking through a pad). Of course, I text my boss and told her what was going on and she sent me this back. Feeling pretty emotional today so this really helped me out. She doesn't follow me on ig so I'm not doing this to suck up, I just really feel fortunate that she's got my back during this process. 8h

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atothelisten Today's update, just a smidge darker, but not much. Most important thing right now is that it's still there and it's not any lighter.
#growbabygrow #growbabym #ivftake1 #ttc #ttccommunity #ithinkwemadeababy #poas #poasaddict #bfp #stickbabystick #ivf #ivfwithicsi #ivfjourney #icsi #infertilitysucks #weare1in8 #wearestrong
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atothelisten #7dp5dt and then #9dp5dt, please keep getting darker!! Grow baby grow! I'll be taking these everyday until Tuesday and then maybe even after. Still over the moon with excitement! 1d

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atothelisten Not posting on FB so please don't say anything there, but had to share here since so many people are probably wondering. Yesterday I took a test and it was so faint but it was totally there. Today I took this...holy shit yall, is this real life?! I have bloodwork Tuesday to confirm and check my levels. Never in my life have I seen this, it's been a long time coming! We are cautiously optimistic, so excited but we also know we aren't in the clear just yet. Thanks to all that have followed and given support, it means so much! #myivfjourney #ivf #ivfwithicsi #icsi #infertilityawareness #1in8 #ttc #letsmakeababy #8dp5dt #poas #pregnant #isthisreallife #isurehopeso #stickbabystick #growbabygrow 2d

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atothelisten Y'all, can you believe this shit?! Picture on the left is from Nov '14 in Jamaica and the right is this past Nov. when we went to The Keys. What a different 30 lbs can make?! NEVER AGAIN! I'm trying to get back into the healthy eating and water, water, water! Healthy me, healthy baby! Do it, to it!!! 1w

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atothelisten I was tagged by the beautiful @growingourquiverfull to post a picture of me that made me feel beautiful. I looked and looked and it must be one of those days because I just couldn't find one I really wanted to post. I decided to post this one because I do really like this picture and I remember how good I felt at the time it was taken. I had recently lost 25 lbs and felt confident enough to wear shorts and a tank top. My husband told me the entire trip how beautiful I was and how proud of me he was for working so hard and facing my stupid insecurities. I'm only 4 lbs heavier than when this picture was taken and I need to remember how good I felt. Thank you @growingourquiverfull, I needed this today. I tag @brrrlynn @lindsay.gee @sherryelysa and @shanayyyy1027 to do the same. We are all beautiful and need to remember that everyday 1w

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atothelisten Transfer day!! We transfered one beautiful B4 embryo this morning. My Dr was very excited, as were we. We have 5 more embabies Cryopreserved and another 8 we're hoping make it to cryo, but haven't yet. I'm home now and resting, just like the dr ordered, for the next few days in hopes that this baby sticks and holds on tight. Should find out Memorial Day for sure, of course I'll be testing at home before then. Thanks for any prayers, well wishes, good vibes, etc. Keep em coming!! 2w

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atothelisten I was so busy yesterday that I wasn't able to post. My appt went really well and he said I'm just about ready. Sooo...we scheduled my egg retrieval for Thursday. I took another shot of gonal-f, hcg and cetrotide last night to give them one last pump and tonight, I trigger. I'm super nervous, but also super excited. I've never been put under any kind of anesthesia and it freaks me out a bit. Plus the whole procedure is a little scary to me (I'm a wuss). The dr always has a hard time finding my left ovary because it sits closer to the top of my uterus and I wonder if that'll cause any issues. Probably should have asked but I'm sure they'd tell me no anyway. My mom wants to go even though Dustin was able to get time off, so she'll probably come with too. I love all the support my friends and family and you guys provide me. This shit is tough!
#letsmakeababy #infertilitysucks #infertility #ivf #icsi #ivfwithicsi #myinfertilityjourney #infertilityawareness #1in8 #ttc #youneverknow #neverlosehope #justkeepswimming
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  •   growingourquiverfull That's a great number! 2w
  •   road2babyg Good luck!!! Honestly the worst part was getting the IV and waiting. Once you are laying back in an ever so exposed position, you just drift away! Then it's over and you're awake saying goofy stuff! Believe me I'm a big chicken too lol 2w
  •   road2babyg Ps make sure you sit up for some of the days following! It helps with the gassy feeling. An IVF veteran told me that and it helped a lot 2w
  •   shanayyyy1027 How exciting! I'll be thinking of you!! 2w

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atothelisten After my dr appt I had to take this cutie in for her own dr appt. She did so good, got like 4 shots herself. She looooove dem car rides. 3w

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atothelisten Went in for what I was hoping to be my last check before my ivf egg retrieval, but unfortunately I'm not ready just yet. I have around 11 follicles but their sizes aren't quite big enough. My Dr upped my meds for the weekend and I go back Monday morning for another check. Then they should tell me when we are doing the retrieval. If everything goes well with that they'll be letting us know about 2 days later when we'll need to come in for our transfer. Excited but nervous. 3w
  •   boxesofhopeco Amazing absolutely 3w
  •   drewciferr So amazing! We had issues making baby number two. After having him it's made me want to become a surrogate. I'd love to be able to give life to other parents. Praying all goes well for you!! 3w
  •   holly__j Keep trying it will happen 3w
  •   conkyowen Thanks for letting me follow.. I am just getting over 3rd miscarriage in 9 months saw fertility specialist today stumbled on your post I would love to follow your story:) good luck 3w

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atothelisten Everything out of the boxes.
8 medications total, not all of which are taken at the same time.
Yikes! TBH...all of this (ivf) is a little scary. I've been good until today. Seeing these boxes made me excited but also very anxious. Sometimes I wonder if I really want to share my journey, but at the same time, I feel like it'll help me cope and maybe it'll help others too. I definitely know I'm not the only one going through this and that helps. Not knowing why is probably the worst part. Unexplained infertility really is just that. After 2 failed femara, trigger shot, and iuis (insemination)cycles, we move onto ivf. I know it'll all be worth it when we are able to hold our child in our arms. Funny that I start my process the week of infertility awareness.
#infertilitysucks #infertility #ivf #icsi #infertilityawareness #infertilityawarenessweek #1in8 #ttc #youneverknow #neverlosehope #justkeepswimming #themoreyouknow
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atothelisten Got my first box yesterday, it was small. Open the door to these 2 bigguns today. Ok, it's time, here we go! #letsmakeababy #infertilitysucks #infertility #ivf #icsi #infertilityawareness #infertilityawarenessweek #1in8 #ttc #youneverknow #neverlosehope #justkeepswimming #themoreyouknow 4w
  •   shanayyyy1027 And it's Infertility Awareness Week!! Praying for you!!! 4w
  •   kerrielwilliams What's in the boxes? If you don't mind me asking. 4w
  •   atothelisten @kerrielwilliams I've got about 8 different medications I'm going to have to start taking. They send it all at once. They're in little styrofoam coolers with ice packs to keep them cold since some need to be refrigerated. That's why the boxes are are so big. 4w
  •   eeeloooo My fingers are crossed for you!!! 4w

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atothelisten So we had a disaster in our house a couple weeks ago and my husband decided to fix it the cheapest/best way he knew how. It's under a big rug with a coffee table and couch on top of it so you can't see but really babe?! Plywood?! 2mon

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atothelisten Starting to make tutus now..
Maybe with less glitter in the future. That shit goes EVERYWHERE. Our office looks like a fairy threw up all over the carpet.. haha.
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atothelisten Started painting recently, never have before...not too bad if I do say so myself, and I do.
Need more things in my life to help me relax, maybe this could be one, not sure just yet. Lol
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atothelisten So as some of you know, Dustin and I are trying to start a family. For over 2 years we've been unsuccessful so we started seeing a fertility specialist. After a few tests we still haven't found anything wrong with either of us and the drs think it's an ovulation timing issue.
We started out journey last month and took a medicine called femara that is to help boost ovulation. After taking the medicine we got a call saying that I tested positive as a carrier for cystic fibrosis. We had to stop everything and have Dustin checked. After waiting 2 weeks we found out he wasn't and we could continue our journey the following month.
So now we are here. I took my medicine and had an ultrasound Friday where I found out I'm ready to force ovulation. Saturday we took our trigger shot, to force an egg to drop (ovulation) and right now I'm at the Dr with Dustin waiting to do our first IUI (insemination). Everything looks great so far and we are very hopeful, but cautiously optimistic. PMA! Just gotta stay positive. Great things are ahead!!
#infertilitysucks #infertilitysucks #infertility #iui #pma #femara #letsmakeababy #drbrownfertility #ovidrel #positiveattitude #sittingwaitingwishing #ttc #babydust #prayers #wellwishes #love #hcg
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  •   atothelisten Oh wow @olivewren Glad to hear she's just a carrier. I take it your so wasn't a carrier at all. Hoping this iui takes, I only had one big follies so hopefully it does its job. I've heard a lot of success stories, but I've also heard quite a bit of fails too. Just gotta stay positive! 3mon
  •   olivewren No- my husband isn't a carrier.. But that two week wait was hell, lol @atothelisten his complaint was getting blood drawn (like women have it Sooo easy) with infertility testing it's always the cycles we think are a bust.. That end up being the most successful. Are you just doing one iui or two back to back? 3mon
  •   lularoe.corysessions @atothelisten, yes. We've been seeing him the whole time. Yesterday was our appt & we decided to schedule IVF next month. I'm really excited! Baby vibes for us both! 3mon
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atothelisten Came home to a stinky house/husband because our plumbing backed up. Definitely put a fabric softener in my mask to hide the smell. I'm so lucky that he is handy and after a couple of shitty hours...it's fixed. At least it seems so. 3mon

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atothelisten I took a trip to the beach last week. Something about the sound of the waves crashing against the shore just washes away my worries, even if only for a moment. 4mon

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atothelisten Florida girl for sure! Brrr, I'm so cold! It's sooo freaking windy! 4mon

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