apep_apophis Those nights you go out and while youre out there, the thought in your head gets louder and louder "you rather would have stayed home..." But at least i got a good shot (of a black metal band i dont know tbh) 4h

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apep_apophis I realize today that nothing in the world is more distasteful to a man than to take the path that leads to himself.
//Hermann Hesse, Demian: Die Geschichte von Emil Sinclairs Jugend
4d

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apep_apophis mood movie: LA HAINE #lahaine #haine #derhass #hass 4d

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apep_apophis Sunday, 10am: Time to cook some Thai Curry. While listening to Songs of Flesh & Blood #kingdude #songsoffleshamdblood #dealwiththedevil #urfaust #cookforsatan 6d

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apep_apophis A Death Sentence Called Life. 6d

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apep_apophis H A T E . D I S G U S T . P A I N . 7d

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apep_apophis Me miserable! Which way shall I fly

Infinite wrath, and infinite despair?

Which way I fly is Hell; myself am Hell… (b.4 l.73-75)1
1w

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apep_apophis The morning rise,earths suspended state as it turns on it’s side.
I can see the comet fade and the fear in me subsides.
I often wonder, as the abyss above me, seems deeper at night.
Is there another me somewhere staring back up to my eyes.
Am I less of a man if I broke down and said I couldn't be on my own.
Or is sincerity lost and being alone is a friend I've come to know.
We stepped along the moonlit bridge way glorifying a nostalgic past.
So for every dwell, that's draped in black, if this is love, I'm taking it back.
I try to survive the rapture waking up alone in the dark.
Even if I try to keep it together, I'm still falling apart.
I’m falling apart.
I was searching for closure, shut the final door and turn to face the cold.
If it gets any deeper I'll be digging a shallow grave.
Waking up, has never been the same.
I'm still afraid of change, I'm clinging on to the past
but every goodbye you whispered was supposed to be your last.
I've become the wrath, consumed inside of my head.
This deciduous mind I'm forgetting I've come undone.
We're all waiting to die scared to death of dying alone.
1w

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apep_apophis Dark and filthy film version of goethe's FAUST by director Alexander Nikolayevich Sokurov. So weird, i love it. #goethe #johanngoethe #johannwolfganggoethe #faust #mephisto #satan #sokurov 2w
  •   nofunnolight Yeah very dark film. An old man to be mephisto, good idea. 2w

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apep_apophis Bro-sunday. 2w
  •   n.ooee Hol mal lieber deine Sachen ab bevor sie Staub ansetzen 2w

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apep_apophis You never ripped out my heart, but you ripped out my core.
I remember that night, that minute,
you said, "No one can ever replace you."
Well darling, somebody is bound to.
And when you walked away, I found a different suitor to take your place.
Her name is loneliness and she keeps me comfortable.
She sometimes speaks, but she is not very audible.
her voice sounds like a window cill cracking,
sometimes a door blowing open, dancing with the breeze,
as I'm falling on my knees, broken
but most often when she speaks,
she comes as a ghost putting coals on my back as I sleep
Burning holes in my flesh as I try to dream,
Warming up my spine and making me afraid of the heat.
2w

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apep_apophis Still I try to elude the truth and embrace my disguise
Because this way of life takes its toll on mine
And I don’t want to be alive

Bury me breathing so I can watch myself decay.
2w

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apep_apophis No Morrow Shall Dawn 2w

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apep_apophis Sundays be like... #fuckmylife #thesefinalhours 3w
  •   preachzilla Und? So'n richtiger Film zum wohlfühlen, nech? ;) 3w
  •   gordon_hickey Lohnt der sich? @apep_apophis ich gucke keine trailer und lese keine reviews. ;) mag mich nicht spoilern lassen. 3w

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