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abeautifulschizomind I hate living like this. 2y

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abeautifulschizomind Just. don't worry about me. 2y

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abeautifulschizomind it's true. this is so shallow it's not even enough to last me a few hours. when I have more than five minutes I'll cut deeper. I hope I will have time because they're screaming at me now. 2y

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abeautifulschizomind Some people try to understand, but nobody can know what living like this is like.-- I don't think many people understand what it feels like to not be able to control yourself 2y
  •   abeautifulschizomind @roflrawrsiez yeah :/ like the "oh my gosh my dad won't let me go to the party! I hate him my life sucks" kind of attitude. It's just like, wow, I wish I had a dad. People should stop complaining about tiny things and learn to appreciate what they have 2y

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abeautifulschizomind just incase 2y

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abeautifulschizomind my #blades :D surprizingly the tiny one on the bottom cuts the deepest... and the surgical blades.... anywhore, I just took a xanax and I'm still feeling manic... earlier today I was depressive.... that's bipolar for yah! 2y

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abeautifulschizomind I'm sorta fat even when I suck in... my stomach isn't flat... I'm just posing these so when I'm skinny I'll be able to look back and see how far I've come from this 2y

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  •   maddiekirschner You're too beautiful , I'll be praying 2y
  •   jennygrenny Praying for you. You're so beautiful and your body is perfect the way it is. 2y

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abeautifulschizomind I've realized that no one in the world really cares about what happens to me. the voices always tell me to do it, just end it right here. I've even had a few people tell me to go kill myself. A couple of days ago, a guy in my class told me he wouldn't care if I killed myself. I always act like it's a joke, because half the time the people are joking, but they don't realize how close I am to going over the edge. They don't realize that I have a box of a couple hundred pills to take when the day finally comes that I can't take it anymore. I dont know how I haven't taken them yet, but somehow through all this insanity and abuse I've survived. I don't think it will last long though. I can already feel a bit of a breakdown coming on. 2y
  •   _liorglam_ I've already told you that I do care and everybody does! 2y
  •   i_have_the_infection you here for a reason. your amazing. you need to stay. 2y
  •   insane_never_die oh my gosh no one should be that cruel to tell you to go kill yourself, joking or not, you don't deserve to die or have a shitty life! Please don't die.. you have so much to live for 2y
  •   abeautifulschizomind @wristsheal_nothearts yeah i know... i don't think they realize I'm actually going to do it... I'm trying to hold on for now, but sometimes I have absolutely no control over my actions (im not kidding when I say I'm insane) :P 2y
  •   abeautifulschizomind @thatsliorbitches ♡♡ @i_have_the_infection thanks :/ im trying to stay 2y
  •   insane_never_die its okay, im insane too and iv already come to the conclusion that i will end up in a mental hospital, most likely against my will. i really hope you never actually have to kill yourself, but instead find someone who loves you for you until you die at a perfect age that you want quietly in your sleep or something. honestly, i prefer car wreck or murder by famous gun enthusiast, but whatever you like best. i hope you dont kill yourself. ever. 2y
  •   miss___dollface @abeautifulschizomind I think almost every teenager goes through this at some point... don't look for random people online for attention. Get some real help sweety. 2y

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abeautifulschizomind inside my fucked up mind 2y

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