abbiefh My very first attempt at fair isle knitting its slow going 17h

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abbiefh Snuggle time whilst we watch Broadchurch 18h
  •   lallie1973 We are watching that!!! Catching up though. 17h
  •   abbiefh It's good but you have to really concentrate on it don't you! @lallie1973 17h
  •   lallie1973 I've messed my knitting up already watching it. Xxx 17h
  •   abbiefh lol I know I had to put my knitting away! X 17h

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abbiefh It was not easy to do but I have blogged about our troubles with infertility, I don't think enough people talk about it and it can be a very lonely place http://whatabigaildid.blogspot.co.uk 3d
  •   mrssarahjane @cupcakejojo After the first time it failed it was offered to me & I was like ohhhhh no I don't need that I'm fine, it was only after the second go seeing how it tore my husband apart me then me when I thought ok I need an external output here, I thought I'd been with her for about 30 minutes looked at my watch when left & I'd yapped away for over 2 hours, you can realise a your anger & fears without being judge & you need to hear that being jealous of others who are pregnant have babies etc it's natural & it's allowed, I'm thinking of having another session before we commence our third go, really hope you try it @abbiefh & you found some comfort from it xx 3d
  •   mrssarahjane @cupcakejojo God my grammar in that! Can release your fears etc not realise! 3d
  •   abbiefh Thanks @mrssarahjane I think I will try counselling its not nice to hear so many people have the same problem but it's good to know we can all support one another xx 3d
  •   mrssarahjane @abbiefh Anytime you want a chat/shout/rant please email me it's not for everyone but I've been vocal about my struggles especially on here & it's helped me so much, my email is sarahjtodd30@hotmail.co.uk xxx 3d
  •   abbiefh Thank you @mrssarahjane xxx 3d
  •   ingaspouse Sending big hugs Abigail. Big hugs. I know some of your story. I tried for 5 years and watched friend after friend have children and then siblings to those children. Each time I imagined that by their first birthday I might also be a mum. It consumed me to paralysis. And after 5 years I decided to reclaim my life from the madness. I decided to be happy with what I had and who I was. And then a few months later I was pregnant. Obviously I can't say that this will happen for others but I can empathise with the pain of trying and hoping and watching and counting. I can also say that being a mum has taken me through other uncontrollable pain and self-searching. So I send you big hugs. In our world of feeling that we should be able to control everything, we struggle to grasp that some things are out of our hands. I hope you can find rest soon. 3d
  •   abbiefh Thanks @ingaspouse We have been trying to reclaim our lives for the last two years but I can't shake the feeling that I'm missing something. It's something that I really need to think about this year I'm 35 this year and I need to have children one way or another soon whether it's through IVF or adoption x 3d
  •   ingaspouse I so feel for you. I think it's a good idea, as you say, to set a deadline for a decision. Make this year the one where you decide to do one thing or another (or all of them) and then follow that plan and decide to be happy with the results. If you need to have children then do what you have to do. - The one 'good' thing is that this particular situation teaches us lessons and great wisdom that stand us in good stead for the years to come (speaking from the position of looking 50 in the eye and still lacking in wisdom). Big hugs. 2d

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abbiefh Who says you can't teach an old dog new tricks?! 1w

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abbiefh Just been walking max and it started snowing! real snow! Not the hailstone kind we had yesterday! 1w

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abbiefh Just got my Christmas present. I had the wrong size, then my size was sold out until now. I love it! 2w

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abbiefh Instead of our usual New Year's Eve in St Ives we are having a lot more subdued night at home with sirloin steak on the bbq,sparklers, drinks and the chimenea to keep us warm ️happy new year everyone! 4w

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abbiefh My view from Darwin tower 4w

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abbiefh Walk up to Darwin tower today. Not much snow left on the hills. 4w
  •   prestonwalkies .....should have read this first :) 4w
  •   abbiefh Lol, yeah it's nearly all gone but it's still quite icy on the paths 4w

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abbiefh Frosty walk 1mon

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abbiefh Frosty walk 1mon

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abbiefh A nice Christmas Day walk 1mon

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abbiefh Using the selfie stick again! 1mon

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abbiefh I got Matt a selfie stick for a Christmas present so trying it out! 1mon

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abbiefh A perfect Christmas dinner even if I do say so myself! 1mon

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abbiefh Someone wants some turkey dinner 1mon

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abbiefh Merry Christmas everyone! Xxx 1mon

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abbiefh Christmas breakfast with my new latte glass 1mon

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abbiefh Buffet for the Holland/Brockbank Christmas get together. It has now been devoured! 1mon

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